After my second child with my white husband, he got snipped. So he said no need for birth control for me, which was great, because the refills were a pain as I then traveled a lot. The downside being, of course, that since I cheated on him a lot with black guys when I traveled, I did get pregnant more than once. I had to go to Planned Parenthood or even travel to Mexico a few times, to keep my marriage and lifestyle intact. Some of my pregnancies were through consensual contact, and some were not.
I have also had 2 miscarriages, the most recent was just as COVID was lifting. My black neighbor had impregnated me, and as my husband and I left for a cruise vacation, I miscarried the 2nd day at sea. I just told my husband I was having really bad cramping, which was a true statement.
I do regret not being able to keep the children, but there was no way to do it, logistically and financially. I never know the identities of the fathers, so child-support wasn't an option. Sometimes, when I am alone in the darkness of night, I still find myself crying over them.
Were all things equal and I could live my life over again, I think I would have worked harder to find a black man to marry and bear his children, despite the problems with my ******.