Yes, this sounds familiar, though I rarely spent the entire night with one of my "hosts". Sometimes I never even got out of the parking lot before he had me. I was just a hot white girl to be used and discarded. But for some reason, they were stealing my panties from me at an alarming and expensive rate. It got so bad that when I was loaned out, I stopped wearing them. Yes, I would come home a mess, and leaking semen everywhere, but it was getting hard to hide the cost from my husband.To mention what Laura said, actually yes, when its getting out you’ve been blacked you are treated different, among my Doms friends who’ve had sex with me I am treated very differently, my Dom has white women so do his friends, yet they enjoy fucking me because they’ve said there is no real emotional attachment, I understand they just want to use me but for my Dom the natural dynamic is more about power and control, there isnt the same kind of affection as between man and woman, although I’ve been told I am extremely warm inside “it’s like wrapping your cock in a hot flannel” i’ve been described as.
Not weekly but I have been fucked by my Dom and his friends in front of each other, they don’t have the same hang ups as we do about nudity, and other times I’ve been given to one of his friends to take me home for the night, then, sex is different, there is more intimacy, kissing, hands working their way up my skirt, tugs on my suspender straps (if i’m wearing them) feeling my breasts under my bra and such, i’ll lay in their arms afterward kissing …. Well what else can I do after they have just destroyed my body in their bed
It was about a year before my Dom slipped up and let me know he was pimping me to these guys. I was both upset and aroused. I thought I meant something to him, and yet I was just a whore to make money of. It was humiliating, but I came to understand that the humiliation was also arousing. So I started wearing less and less in public, and going to more risky and dangerous places, and with more dangerous people. But it took my Dom sticking me with a needle to make me wake up, and start to find a way to break free. Even that took almost 2 months, and a very unfortunate event.