Journal of a Journey - Book 112

It was a wonderful holiday weekend all around. Great seeing the kids and great that they left Suzanna and me alone for some of the time!

The long weekend encouraged Suzanna to relax and when we had some of that 'alone time' we were able to continue exploring what is going on between us which led her to surprise the heck out of me on Thursday night.

We had her parents over for the evening which went better than expected. They are both getting on in years and in failing health so we had talked and agreed that not knowing what the future brings that it was an incentive enough to host them this year.

After dinner I gave her and the kids a lot of time with them when I volunteered to clean up the kitchen. Well, that resulted in a wonderful surprise later that evening when Suzanna kissed me passionately and thanked me for helping out as much as I did. She then pushed me back on the bed and before I could say anything, yanked my pants and boxers down and pulled out my cock. After a brief moment of admiring what she had exposed, she spoke to my cock, saying, "you deserve to have some fun". She then looked up at me and as I watched she licked around the head of my cock and said, "relax, enjoy it" and proceeded to give me a blow-job the like of which I haven't had in ages.

She doesn't deep-throat or anything like that but between how wet she got it with her mouth and how she worked her hands, my god, it was incredible. I wasn't sure what was going to happen at the end or if this was going to be one of her teases (visions of a ruined orgasm did creep into my head) but, sure enough, when she felt me start to throb she went at it even more and didn't let up. A few minutes later I came and came and came in her mouth with her hands continuing to stroke me and fondle my balls leaving me feeling just wonderful until I began to soften and go limp afterwards. She slid up next to me by which time she'd swallowed most of it and kissed me, it was so erotic.

When she was done kissing me she looked at me and said, "I've never done that for Paul".

It made me think and I had to agree, in all the times I've seen them together or heard about what they'd done, she'd never sucked and swallowed him. Of course I know that 99% of the time she'd rather have sex and I recognized the difference but I didn't ask her about why she'd just done that for me.

I didn't need to ask for she answered anyway when she said, "I wanted to give you something special".

It was surprising for sure and, wow, did I ever sleep well after that.


Saturday night was when both of our kids went out to visit friends that Suzanna and I had a bit more alone time.

With them gone we had no problems of talking and Suzanna straight off said that she really wants me to talk more with Paul and to feel more comfortable around him. She said she's been talking to him about the two of us (him and me) doing that too and she laughed that we both have some of the same thoughts and stuff. She said that even after all this time that he's still not always sure of my feelings or what I want so he feels like he has to be on his guard. She looked at me and said, "you feel the same way, don't you?”

She went on to tell me that I should just relax and talk to him and that he already knows most of everything including my using condoms with her is something that turns me on. Then she said something that did make me think, basically she said that he thinks it's 'cool' that it turns me on to use them, and I realized had it not been something that turned me on but that I was doing solely because she wanted it, that would have changed how he thought about and viewed me. He clearly knows it does excite Suzanna on a lot that I use them but it was really interesting and curious to me how his view seemed to depend on whether it was something I wanted or not. It's made me think a bit more in general about other things but I need to get my head around that and put down my thoughts for another time.

While I was still mulling over that thought she continued and told me that, "you two are both enjoying me, so you guys ought to be able to share and talk about that."

I asked her what she was thinking and she looked at me and said, "when you're with him, wouldn't you like to be able to talk more openly about sex with me?" Before I could answer she added, "… he said he would like that" and that it would make him feel more at ease when we're all together. I told her that I wasn't sure I could do it with him as it'd taken me this long to feel comfortable just talking to her about it but I told her that I'd try. She said that was all she was asking and that she hoped it'd be something I'd enjoy!


What really got to me this weekend was when Saturday evening came around and we knew the kids were out for the night. We shared a bottle of wine and we spent a lot of time in the bedroom. She told me how she loved how it felt to be with me, how she could sit there naked in front of me and know that sex would be 'when and how' she'd want it and that I would be there for her no matter what. She was so complimentary to me about how I was taking more openly with her and she told me how in some ways, it made her want me more and for her to share things with me even more. I told her that I loved that and she giggled and said that I should join her and get naked in bed with her and that we should mess around a little first (her way of saying she wanted to have fun in foreplay). When my hard cock came into view she smiled and said, "even though he's covered up, I still love how he feels in me when I want you baby." It was just how she said it that got to me, she picked just the right words to tell me how she felt without question.

She asked me to go down on her and I did so by working my way down from kissing her mouth and ears and neck to sucking at her breasts. My hands worked ahead of my mouth and she was very wet. She moaned that the last time she felt this horny was with Paul and how he will do the same as I was doing, sucking and nibbling at her nipples while he would work his fingers all around her pussy but not touch her just yet, to keep her on the edge.

When I got down to kissing her stomach and went to move lower I paused for a moment to look at her with a sense of pride knowing she was my wife. How else can you describe loving how beautiful she looked with her breasts heaving; her nipples so hard; her flat stomach as she lay there leading down to her still bare pussy, now spread wide open. It still takes my breath away that she will lie there like this when Paul is having sex with her. She looked up at me and saw me and asked me what I was thinking. I told her just that, that it makes me so horny to know she gives herself to him this same way, so totally uninhibited now after over a year together.

I guess she picked up on where my head was at because as I licked away at her pussy, even though it was unlikely, she teased me whether I could taste her lover still inside her. Just how she said it was so hot to hear and I moaned back that I wished that I could. She said some other things and I responded in kind, about whether she likes Paul to lick her just like I was doing; about how sensitive she feels sometimes and if she has to tell Paul to, "stop for a little while because it felt too good." she answered all my questions and I absolutely loved hearing her comment slow and then turn to moans as my tongue and fingers brought her to orgasm several times.

I knew after the way she'd felt and cum the last time that she would want me in her quite soon. She gets that way when I (or Paul) get her to cum several times orally and after the last one, she will literally yell out 'fuck me already!' and I was prepared for that. If I wasn't hard already from licking and tasting her, as I opened the condom without missing a lick, my cock grew to be rock hard. I just accept it now knowing as I am sheathing up after tasting how wet and sweet she is, that it just makes me so friggin' hard and horny.

However, what I totally loved was to see the look on her face as I moved up away from her pussy and that she knew what was coming and saw that I already had a condom rolled down my rock hard cock. The smile on her face was just amazing to see and, dare I say, it is the smile that makes it so rewarding to me.

Now we've had a lot of sex in the recent past but it was a little different in that we both knew this was time for each other and while she was surely going to tease me about Paul and I was surely going to get into it with her, that it was surely a time for both of us to enjoy each other as much as we could. Instead of me pushing into her I played a little, I slapped my cock against her spread pussy and each time I made contact she moaned loudly and she seemed to tremble.

What surprised me even more was when she reached down and took hold of my cock and she began to rub just the tip into her swollen pussy. She held it tight and controlled how far in she let me. What totally turned me on was how she spoke and said it was, "too bad you can't feel it as much as Paul does" and then told me how easier it is for me to push into her versa. him, "… with that big cock of his." I must have grunted for she looked up at me and said, "mmmm, does that turn you on baby .... is that what you think about?"

It quickly turned intense for me and as I slid into her even deeper she continued to tease me that, "mmmm, can you feel how wet I am?" then adding, "oh no, of course you can't with thing on your cock" knowing what it made me think.

She continued to talk even more openly than I'd ever heard her before and it was just driving me wild. Every time she'd say something to me and I'd hear it she'd look at me and tell me, "mmm, I can feel that turned you on" referring to what she must have felt from my cock.

I was obviously very turned on but we were also moving very slowly and as we talked she had me moving very slowly in and out of her and it was so erotic to feel and, yet, not feel. She would let me push all the way into her where we were grinding against each other and she looked at me and say, "do you like thinking of him in me right where you are now.... only bare? ….” tell me baby."

Had I been actively fucking her and stroking in and out, I surely would have cum but staying totally still inside her I held off and her eyes opened wide when she felt my cock just throb in her.

She continued to tease me as she held me deep in her with her legs around my back. I was a bit frantic but managed to talk and told her that it turned me on so much to think about. I even went as far as to tell her that I loved that he would cum in her, "right where I am".

Her response; her moaning, "mmmmm oh yeah...." to what I said, whatever words she used just caused me to explode. I let out a grunt and thrust into her so deep that she squealed and ground herself up at me as I kept fucking her, she kept cumming and cumming until she began to shake beneath me. The condom must help keeping me hard because as I kept fucking her I stayed hard as she moaned and moaned. Even through the condom, I could feel how wet and loose she was when I was done.

A few minutes later, when we both caught our breath, I slid out of her and as the condom worked its way loose her thighs became sticky from what had leaked out. She sat up and giggled at the mess we'd made and as she pulled the condom off joked, "geez, even with a condom you made a mess!"

Too much had dried up for me to enjoy licking at her and we both laughed as we went into the bathroom. She smiled at me in the mirror as she tied off and dropped the condom into the trash before she took a washcloth and gently cleaned off my cock Then she very deliberately put one leg up on the toilet and let me watch as she wiped herself clean. There was an almost conceited, triumphant look in her eyes as she looked at me and said, "mmmm, you really enjoyed that didn't you?”


The holiday weekend was very nice. Suzanna's comment about Paul and what she's told him is something we have continued to talk about but, I have admit, I'm still not sure even she knows what she is hoping for. When we talked about it again last night she said that she wants me to feel more comfortable with Paul and that she wanted to 'be sure' I knew what he was doing with her.

I told her that I was okay with him but she persisted and said that she'd like to be sure, "you guys are good for when we go away skiing together." We talked only briefly about it because when I brought it up she said, "that's what I want us to all talk about together" meaning how things will be when we go away a few times together to go skiing.

When I asked her about just 're-doing what we did last year' she said that she'd like him to stay with us more and to feel like he's away with us instead of him just stopping by briefly when we're away.

I asked further what she was thinking but she said that she wanted us to all talk this weekend when he's here and staying over this Saturday night. (That answered what was going to be my next question to her!)

I don't know that she has any ulterior motives but that she's said that when we're together for a longer period of time, that she wants to be sure that we will all be good together.

She's seeing Paul tonight for a while so I hope to have more time when I get home to continue this update.


I'm thinking there's a difference in her wanting me to be more comfortable with him rather than just being friendlier with him. She's said again how, "you both are enjoying me" and we talked briefly about it and that we should talk more before he's here over the weekend.

I asked her what she's told him and as I said, she hasn't told him about everything but he does know that I want her to have him fulfil her sexually. It still feels strange at times to say that, even after all of the opening-up that Suzanna is pushing, I sometimes think maybe she understands that and maybe it's what she's wanting, me to not feel awkward about being aroused by what we are doing. I didn't ask her outright but the feeling I got was that it was downplaying the beta-aspects and substituting, in some ways, of it being more of a fetish/kinky-thing rather than having the 'cuck' prefix. She is correct in her way of thinking and I suppose that is because she knows me so well, that I would respond better (as I am) to this approach. If she is orchestrating this, then she's hitting all the right buttons!

Having said that, it was comforting to hear her say that, "he has the same issues as you do, you know...." and she proceeded that he say that he has issues and the hardest thing and what he's most uncomfortable with is the first moment when he sees me after he's been with her. It did make me smile when she said that she's helping him along this same thing, to help him feel more comfortable around me!

I am quite sure that there's a bit more 'liking' going on between them than she is admitting … but I don't think she feels very emotionally tied to him. No doubt though, and this is something I AM finding it easier to accept, is that she wants him physically. That is one of the lingering feelings I have from what we shared on Saturday, that she wanted to painfully point out what she feels with him and (crazy as it sounds, is turning me on) what she doesn't feel from me. I cannot find the way to express how incredibly horny it has left me from what she said and did with me.

Looking forward to the Winter, we are only talking perhaps 2 or at most 3 weekends away skiing when he will be with us so there will still be at least 4 or so weekends when we shall be on our own. I understand though how she feels about that, it's a year later and I recognise that both of their desires have grown. Whether she spends every night with him on 'his weekends'or splits them with me, it is something that I agree with her about, that if we are going to be together for more time, then getting us better with each other is a good thing.


More thoughts; other than Dan, I think it might be safe to say Suzanna's been the alpha for all of the other guys. It's something that I don't think I ever considered since I had always thought that this was something I had hoped to bring out in her over time, but I suppose it was her in many ways that was the alpha for Peter in that ultimately she controlled what they did together and when they did it. Other than Dan, I have to agree that I think she may have had the upper-hand all along.

I think I was definitely the alpha in our relationship up until 2 or so years ago, but I also knew that I'd seen this side of her long ago. I guess in thinking about it I wasn't the most secure guy in the world long ago when we got together and I can say that even in earlier relationships before Suzanna, that I'd always felt the need to be the alpha. So for me, I think it just took me to feel comfortable with everything and trusting and all of that to let me relax.


Last night was surely a continuation of her 'alpha-ism'. She got home just about midnight and was quite animated about the night saying that Paul had 'missed her'. The way she said it convinced me that they'd probably gone at it pretty well. She seemed quite fired-up and I had hoped for some fun between the two of us but wasn't 100% sure from how she sounded. I followed her up to the bedroom where she giggled with me staring at her as she got undressed. She turned to me with just her panties on and she asked me if I wanted to take them off and I eagerly moved over to sit on the bed right in front of her. It surprised me that she was going to be playful. She watched me as I smiled and put my fingers in the waistband of her panties and began to pull them down.

Of all moments with her I have to say that is probably the most intense and arousing moment for me, pulling her panties down knowing she's been with Paul and I'm about to see her used pussy and the wetness of her panties. There is something just so incredible to me to 'reveal' her this way, first seeing the top of the cleft of her pussy and then slowly exposing her still swollen clit peeking out.

"He was horny tonight," was what she said to me and when I looked up she was smiling to see the look on my face. She sat back on the bed when I slid her panties past her knees. I was too busy pulling them off her ankle at first to look up and see her lie back naked for me but when I did she was up on her elbows looking down at me as she slowly spread her legs before starting to talk and tease me a bit. She said stuff again about how horny Paul was and as she looked at me she said, "he left me really messy, didn't he?" She spread her legs just a little bit more that caused her pussy-lips to part and reveal just how messy she really was. As I moved closer she kept looking at me and as I got closer she said, "remember what we talked about.... you know... while you're licking me ... you know.... where he was in me....". As I started to put my fingers on her and spread her pussy a little more she continued, " … you know, something you can think about while you take care of yourself while you take care of me....." With that she lay back and let me have my fun.

She told me how nice my tongue felt. Hearing that and what I was tasting, her still warm and quite wet pussy, and me stroking my cock, I was really into it. I know she said he was really horny but there wasn't a flood of cum running out of her or anything like that, but it was so incredible knowing what I was tasting and hearing her taunts about how it got there just tweaked me so much.

As I lapped away she really got into it, as did I, I never felt so horny. I held on until just after I felt her hand on the back of my head and I felt and tasted her cumming and that was when I let go myself and spurted all over the side of the bedspread. When we both got up a few minutes later she smiled at me when she saw my cum on the side of the bed and on the floor below and she said, "mmm, I thought you would enjoy that tonight."

With that she proceeded to go into the bathroom and let me watch her as she did her usual ritual of putting one foot up on the toilet as she wiped her pussy clean before coming back to bed. I was entranced staring at her knowing what lies just inside.

She came back and with both of us still naked she pulled me to her and hugged me. As we kissed she told me, quite passionately, that she loved me.

It's now Thursday and I just feel so elated it's almost a weird feeling.


She's out getting prettied up again. A manicure and pedicure which she says it makes her feel very feminine and usually gets her started on feeling horny for the whole day.

Paul is due here to have dinner with us. Suzanna keeps on saying that she wants me to feel more comfortable around him and she's also now told me that she wants to know that when we are together for longer periods of time, like today and if we all go away skiing together, that she can 'be with him' with me there and that I'll be okay with it. When I asked her what she meant by that last night she smiled and said that she doesn't always want to have to be in the bedroom if they are horny or want to get into it.

I asked her what she thought I would be doing and she smiled and said, "I guess watching, maybe talking to me or him?" which sort of fits with the way she is thinking because she's said that she'd like me to be able to talk with him about the sex with her. I asked her if he was comfortable with that and she said, "he said he would if you did" and she again said in a kind of annoyed way, "you guys, you're both fucking me and yet you both can't talk to each other about it. I mean, wouldn't you like to ask him if I feel good or if I'm wet?"

After a pause she looked at me and said in a more conciliatory voice, "I just think you'd enjoy it, that's all honey, but if you're not comfortable, then don't; that's why I want to know if you will or won't be okay if.... you know.... ".

Anyway, she's out and I am sitting here thinking about what she has mapped out for her and her two men for the weekend. Clearly I will follow her lead, but I have to ask myself, what am I actually hoping for?

I knew this was probably coming, I mean it is what she's said, I just don't know if I can be there right next to them and be talking to Paul like he's an old buddy and we're tag-teaming my wife. In a way it'd be really hot to do it, I mean to ask him like she said, "how does her pussy feel?" when he's fucking her and to even ask her something like, "is he all the way in."

God, my cock is hard right now thinking about it but at the same time I don't know if I can do that just yet with him. I mean I'm only just getting comfortable talking to Suzanna like that, being more open and such, so I think she is pushing it a bit too much. Still, if she's doing the same with him as she is for me, maybe it explains some of how he's been when I've seen them together more recently, how he seemed to be letting me 'see more' of them fucking and that sort of stuff. One thing for sure, I so want to see her get into it with him. She got me so primed up on Wednesday night that I'm wanting to see him fuck her in person now.

She came out of the shower naked just before she went out and it was obvious she'd touched-up and trimmed around her pussy with the razor. I just looked at her as she bent over to looking for underwear and clothes and all I could think about was wanting to see her spread her legs for him later and to see him fuck her. I don't think I'm going to care if it's in the living room, den or bedroom, I just want to see her really get into it with him and to then see her hopefully hold her hand out and want to stroke me while she's at it with him.

That would be awesome. It so turns me on to think about how her hand feels as she holds me and how when I can feel her grip release or her stroking stop; how I know that she's cumming with him.

When she left to go for her pedi/manicure, I told her that, "any room would be hot baby" and she kissed me and her smile said it all.


Last night I came out and told Paul (once again) that I enjoyed him having sex with Suzanna. He told me he knew that and that repeated he thought it was cool that I was into this. We've said some of this before, but as I had mentioned, I figured that Suzanna had been working on this with both of us so his response was a bit more relaxed and less terse.

I told him that after all this time with him being with her I don't feel threatened about letting her enjoy herself. He laughed and said that he surely didn't want to change a thing and he said to me what he's said to her, "she's kind of ruined it for me with other women." When I joked back and said that, "yeah, she seems to really enjoy being with you".

I told him that I don't mind the sex between them at all and even said something about earlier this year we were trying some new things between us. He in turn told me that it was really great that we were good about doing this stuff and he said that we seemed happy together. I joked back that her happiness was what turned me on.

We talked a bit more easily, not about Suzanna all the time, instead he actually asked me about 'what's it like' to have been married for so many years (his marriage apparently didn't get to a 10th anniversary). I told him that was about the time of our 10th when we first started talking about this kind of sex.

He nodded and said that Suzanna had told him pretty much the same thing and he again thought it was very cool that we could have even talked about doing this, much less had fun with it and explored it. He told me that Suzanna had told him some of what we'd done over the years and without any prompting he actually came out and asked if he could join us at the nude beach next summer as he's never been to one before.

It was at that moment that Suzanna came back in and asked us what we were talking about and we said we had been talking about the nude beach. She laughed and said that hopefully, if our son graduates and moves out of our house for next summer, that having only 1 kid at home might make doing fun-stuff like that more easy. She asked me what I thought and I told her that it sounded like fun. I laughed that Paul would be the one to feel what it's like to be there for the first time, a newbie.

Our conversation soon led to the subject of skiing and Suzanna seemed to sort of take over things. She sat next to Paul on the couch and she asked me, "do you think you're going to be okay with Paul being there with us for the whole weekend this time?”

I asked and it was clarified he was going to drive up separately, "at least the first time," he added and again Suzanna asked me, "are you going to be okay with the two of us being together?” I knew what she was asking and I knew she meant 'the two' were her and Paul.

I looked at both of them and said, "I think so; I think I'm ready to see and be a part of that". As I said it, she put her hand on his knee right next to his and I saw her fingers touching his. She looked at me and said, "it'll be like last year baby, remember, you and then me and Paul".

I told her I'd remembered and then to make Paul more at ease I said something like, "it was hot to see you like that". To which she giggled, turned to Paul, kissed him and said, "see, he IS okay with it, I told you". I didn't hear what Paul said back to her but she turned to me and said, "you're okay with us out here too, right baby, not just in the bedroom?"

I told her that we had talked about it and with Paul sitting right there I told her that I wanted her to be comfortable with him and not to worry about me.

What followed was a 5 minute make-out session between them where she leaned over onto him, starting out just kissing and by the end he had his hands under her top. It was obvious she didn't have a bra on from how her nipples were so visible through her top. Paul looked over to me a little cautiously when she pulled herself off of him but I think the smile on my face put him at ease.

I left them to go out to the patio to spendt time tending to the steaks on the grill. After a few minutes Paul followed, staying outside with me for a few minutes and then going back in to 'keep Suzanna company'. While he was outside he said to me that he would take good care of her and I told him that I trusted him to do just that and that for now, I was happy with the things we were doing. He looked at me and said, "you know, it's kind of cool that, you know, I guess I'm the only one, you know, doing it in her, right?"

I turned to him and said, "yeah, Suzanna and I are kinda playing with different things" and he replied that he knew of some stuff we'd done earlier this year and that 'she said you wanted to work some stuff out with her'.

I thought it was interesting that she put some of that on me when it was her that was driving it but it made sense, that she wasn't portraying me as the submissive type. I told him that we had done some things that kind of clarified our desires and the stuff we wanted to explore a bit further. Not so much in those words but that I told him we were working things out. He replied that he was aware that he was only one she was presently having sex with and it sounded like he wanted to hear from me that I was okay with that. I think it surprised him when I agreed with Suzanna's description of it being something I wanted to try.

There wasn't much explicit talk during dinner, just some general talk about the steaks and weather and the wine we were drinking but it was obvious they had something else in mind and when we were done with dinner and Paul suggested I relax and that he'd help Suzanna with the clean-up.

I was in the living room for a few minutes when I walked into the kitchen to find them leaning on the counter kissing and him having her top lifted up almost over her breasts. They heard me and I think Paul wanted to pull away but Suzanna kept him there for a moment longer and both of them saw my approving smile at them when I turned to leave.

They both came out of the kitchen together and poured me another glass of wine along with their own. Again they sat on the couch across from me and we talked. As we talked, it was obvious that Suzanna was already horny, likely the wine and the foreplay were getting to her. Her fingers would play with his leg and again touch his hand; his was on her shoulder but I could see it drop down and caress the side of her breast. When the conversation slowed down I told them I was going to use the bathroom, my thinking being that I was sure my leaving would start things up for them based on what I'd seen in the kitchen.

I wasn't disappointed when I returned. She had turned and now half-sat and was laying across his lap as they were kissing passionately. His hands were playing in her hair and on her back and as I watched, under her top in front. In return she was trying to rub his cock through his jeans while at the same time trying to keep her top from slipping back down and limiting his access to her breasts. I sat there mesmerized for a little while until their kiss ended and Suzanna, at Paul's prompting when he noticed I was sitting there, turned to me and said, "you okay if we have some fun here baby?" When I said 'yes' she smiled, turned back to Paul and unbuttoned the few remaining buttons on her top so that she could press her bare breasts up against him as they resumed kissing. His hands now had free access and were visibly all over her.

They continued their amorous interlude on the couch for a few minutes and then Suzanna surprised me when she got up and re-buttoned her top. Paul stood up and left the room and she asked me if I, " … had to watch us?"

When I asked what she meant she said that maybe I could just let them be for a little while to 'have fun' and then, if I really wanted to watch, that I could just come up, "when, you know, we're already into it" Then she added to my confusion by saying, "I just don't want to be rushed tonight." With that, she pulled me close and kissed me and said, "I hope you can wait till tomorrow for us to have some fun?" She gently cupped my cock through my pants and confirmed and felt that I was already hard from watching them messing around.

When Paul came back they talked and I didn't hear what they said but I did hear Suzanna say that I wasn't going to be on 'top of them all night'. Whatever Paul said in return made her laugh out loud and a moment later they both went by me and Suzanna giggled and said, "we'll be upstairs sweetie".

I did as was told and hung around downstairs but close enough so that I heard them laughing and talking and then those frustrating moments of quiet. It was actually quite erotic to think about what they may have been doing up there while I was downstairs. I heard noises at times, water running in the bathroom, different sounds including shrieks and yes, moans from her.

The next surprise was when I heard her start laughing and then Paul yelling something at her. A moment later a laughing Suzanna came running through the living room stark naked and laughing and giggling the whole time. As she darted through with her hands holding her breasts, ran by, she laughed at me and said, "he's tickling me like crazy!" Just as she ran through to the kitchen and made it out of sight, Paul come bounding through the room laughing, naked with his cock bobbing away. He didn't even look my way as he cornered her in the kitchen and I heard her laugh and then the sound of them kissing before it turned into a sexy moan that I knew meant he either had her breasts in his hands or that his fingers had found her pussy. The thought of them leaning against the wall in the kitchen just a few feet from me on the other side of the wall was really so exciting.

They both excited the kitchen out of the other door without looking my way or saying anything to me and went back upstairs. I watched them walking up the stairs back toward our bedroom. I didn't follow straight away but I did hear them as I imagined that them to be now having their fun on the bed. I held myself back as I heard the sounds of passions rising until I could wait no longer. With my hard-cock guiding me I went up the stairs and down the hall where I stood in my bedroom doorway and watched the two of them together on the bed. Neither saw me or paid any attention to me as it turned into one of their more physical times together. I watched him pull out of her and turn her around onto her hands and knees and for him to put his hands on her hips and just pull her firmly back onto his cock. The sound she made as he filled her and then held himself deep inside her will be in my head forever; the incredibly sexy sound as she felt herself be taken by him.

I stood there, not coming over to the bed, until I heard her moan deeply into her pillow and then, to a moan and a groan from him, she slid herself off his cock and turned over in the bed and presented herself to him. My god, did she look incredibly beautiful, so hot and horny and so clearly close to the edge of an orgasm that I could almost see her body convulsing as she so wanted him to fuck her more, pushing that big head on his cock, just opening her up as if it were nothing.

I watched sensing they were both close and I wasn't mistaken. Seeing him plunge into her again and again, seeing how wet she was, it was amazing and beautiful and ,yes, filled me with angst at watching him enjoying her and her responding even more to him. Each thrust by him would be met by her pushing up at him and I know from what she's told me and described just how she felt. Even now the thought of him being so deep in her like that and her pointing it out to me like she did is just incredible to me.

Fortunately (?) I had my jeans still on or I'd have been stroking away. For as much as I wanted that, I knew that I really wanted to wait till Sunday though; for as much as I would have loved to stroke myself off right then, I also knew that I would really want her on Sunday and I felt she wanted me to wait for her if I could.

And so I continued to watch from the doorway as he plunged into her that one last time and then, when he stopped moving and all I could see was this small thrusting motion every few seconds, I heard him start to moan and groan. He took the last few thrusts more deeply and he seemed to tremble for a moment above her before relaxing. I thought he and they were done but a moment later he rose up above her on his arms and knees and he pulled out just a bit (maybe he knew I was at the door watching) but when he pulled out of her just a bit and allowed me to see that fat knob, I could see he was still hard. A moment later he started to fuck the life out of her one last time. She obviously knew what was coming so she pulled her knees back and he hooked them behind his arms and my view from the doorway now was to see her pussy spread wide and with him eagerly fucking her intensely. The sight and sound of her wetness increased and then began to run down her butt- as she began to moan louder and louder. Not sure if it was his cum or hers or the combination, but as she began to really start to moan and thrash about, it turned whitish and foamy around his cock and more came running down her butt as she began to spasm and thrash about even more. With her eyes closed and her head turning back and forth and arching back into the pillow I knew she was close and so did he. With just a few more thrusts she let out a scream that should have alerted the neighbours before she turned into a bowl of jello beneath him. Her legs and arms flopped all around and as he let her calm down, he slid himself out of her and she lay there almost motionless with just deep gasps for breath as her only movement. I so wanted to run in right then but at the same time, neither had turned to or acknowledged me so I eased my hard-on down along the leg of my pants and I left the 2 lovebirds alone.

It was probably 30 minutes later when they re-appeared downstairs and went into the kitchen. Suzanna was in her robe and Paul had put on one of mine. They both came into the living room holding something to eat and drink and sat on the couch opposite me again. It was very erotic as Suzanna made it easy for me to see that she was still naked under her robe and I knew Paul was the same.

Paul was a little sheepish and seemingly looked quite uncomfortable when he saw me still there. I suppose I could have gone downstairs to the den and left them alone but it was Suzanna who quietly apologized and said she hadn't thought I'd be there, that I would have taken myself off somewhere else. I told her it was okay and that it was kind of sexy and she giggled.

It was a little awkward at first but I also realized that Suzanna wanted to see how this was going to work and as the three of us sat there I was convinced (which was confirmed after he left) that she was wanting to see how it might be on our ski trip.

The three of us sat talking and somehow I found the courage to ask quite candidly if they'd had fun upstairs. The question actually sounded nice as I could have been referring to the tickling, not much more than that. Suzanna smiled and indicated that 'I sure did' which did kind of break the ice.

I told them that I could hear them and that I'd watched at the end from the door. I don't remember her exact words but she asked something about whether I enjoyed myself and when I nodded, she smiled and leaned onto Paul.

We talked about other stuff, nothing of substance, and to me it felt like they were just trying, faking it, to spend some time with me. I got up and went and got myself a drink and when I came back a moment later I could tell her robe had moved and her knee and part of her leg were visible and his hand was on her thigh. I suddenly felt like a 3rd wheel again.

I sat with them for a few moments more and then said that I was going to go downstairs and watch some TV. I left and went toward the basement stairs and Suzanna followed me downstairs where she stopped me. She asked me if I was okay and I asked her if this was what she wanted to have happen. She said something like, "well, yes and no" and then apologized for her naked chase.

I asked her if she and he played around like that at his place and she was quiet for moment then nodded. I held her and told her that I wanted her to have fun and that it turned me on to see her running from him like she did and seeing the fun smile on her face.

We kissed for a moment and she asked me if I was going to be okay waiting till Sunday to have some fun with her and I said the obvious 'yes'. She hugged me and said she loved me. It might seem hard to believe but there's a time when you can feel it in another person how they truly feel and I know how much she meant it.

When she stepped back, I went for it and asked her (although we both knew the answer) if she'd already had sex with him. She smiled and kept the game going by asking me, "do you want to check and find out?" A second later she held her robe open and let me see her naked beneath it.

The sight absolutely took my breath away. She told me I could feel her if I wanted and I have to say it was perhaps the ultimate cuckold thrill for me to, with my hand shaking, run it down her body until I reached her stomach where she put her hand on mine and guided it the rest of the way. She stepped sideways a bit and then seemed to spread her legs and I felt her fingers around mine and I realized when I felt the wet warmth, that she'd spread her pussy lips for me. She guided my finger to where all the wetness was coming from and it was so erotic to be finger-fucking my wife like that.

A moment later she pulled my hand away but that moment felt like an eternity. She wrapped her robe shut, kissed me and asked me again if I was okay. When I nodded she simply said, "see you in the morning" and that was that, she walked upstairs

When I went up later, our bedroom door was shut. I put my ear to the door but all was silent. I didn't try to open it nor did I want to lie in bed masturbating.

She had told me Sunday would be for us, so I shall wait.


… and I'll also have to wait to continue writing as I need to find a new book!