You built your own story out of the little bit you know about ours.Its funny mainstream propanganda worked so well you don't even realise you drank the Kool-Aid.
You followed the expected pattern: couple ******* interracial propaganda, they break up, wife goes with a black man. white husband constantly emasculated by media and society.
You had no will power or knowledge to change your husband state of mind. Keep deluding yourself with mental gymnastics.
It's true that I "drank the koolaid" I would have been happy if we just immersed ourselves in this lifestyle and she became the Black Cock Slut I always wanted her to be!
But my ex-wife has a good moral base and standards that used to frustrate me. It took her the longest time to finally have sex with two black me at once, and I didn't even get to watch the first few times!
Her fiance is a guy we've known for years and I wanted him to get with DeeAnna years ago.
He told her one time when she was flirting with him, "I don't do cuckold husband entertainment" and he told her he wasn't into the whole Bull, Hotwife, Cuckold thing, because he saw it as degrading to everyone involved - especially him.
To me, it was just a thing of her liking men with big cocks and I have a small one. She was always attracted to black men.
To her, she always wanted some intimacy with her lovers. She never had sex with a stranger. There were no bar pickups, online connections and hookups, or any time she got together with anyone without getting to know them first and developing something beyond sexual/physical attraction.
Stretch was always very interested in DeeAnna, but didn't want to just have sex. He said, MANY times over the years, "If you weren't married to Tom, I would be pursuing you in a heartbeat"
When DeeAnna got fed up with my obsession, and decided to divorce me, she started meeting with Stretch.
She did share that he wouldn't do anything - not even a kiss, until the divorce was final.
I'm STILL stuck in my fantasy of what happened when she showed him the divorce papers!
Yes, the propaganda worked perfectly for me. So well that I'm still not upset about everything that happened!
I jack off every day, sometimes several times - thinking about her sucking his cock and fucking her with what I have to imagine is a long, thick black cock!