I think you are completely normal for any white boy. I do think however, your numbers are way off but I'm not here for the stats. I do have a question for you. Have you gotten to the point of "owning" your inferiority among your betters? Or, do you keep a "low profile" about it? Either is cool.
Now that I've been single. I've actually made it a point to sometimes stay home on the weekends instead of going out for fun. Instead of me catching a girl. I'll stay home and wank about the thought of a nice girl I could of met, "getting Blacked!" BLACKEDRAW is my favorite but I do like BLACKED also. It's such a rush watching what I can't have! Also, bit of a relief that the world is getting a "wee bit" less racist.
Sure, I mean I get some pussy. I just don't get nearly half as much as our "betters" do... And that's okay!