I was 17. Horrifically racist, nazi, nationalist. The whole thing.
I would often watch pro nationalist videos on youtube, bitchute and /pol/. I bought swastika flags, printed propaganda flyers and hung them up, spread nationalist propaganda online. Constantly pushed my agenda onto irl friends and was known for being "the racist one". I absolutely hated jews, blacks and nothing made me more angry than interracial couples. I had a friend tell me he likes asian girls and I told him "if you had kids you'd be killing your own race" etc.
I was also quite adamant on being anti-porn. I stopped watching it, I told others to stop, and I thought it was disgusting for a long time. (Though previously I had watched porn very often, some of it was IR but I never thought about it very much) but for the beginning of university, I was struggling with porn addiction, and kept relapsing. But my struggles wouldn't be over yet.
One night, after dealing with black people at university, and being taught "Cultural appropriation" at a lecture, I went to my apartment and browsed /pol/ for some time, then I wanted to see some porn so I went to /gif/ (porn gif and webm) and I saw something... something which made me so angry and disgusted, but so turned on...
it was a BWNO thread, a webm of flashing images of large african cocks, massive riots with burning cities, black lives matter imagery, white women getting fucked by bbc. And worst of all: white extinction stats. I was disgusted and infuriated, but because of my relapsing porn use, I couldn't hold back, and I had to cum. I remember the feeling of squirting to a BNWO video for the first time, I was so horrified with what I had done that I was scared it was going to change me. "Never doing that again" I told myself.
Every few days, I would go back to these bnwo threads and watch and cum to them. I had never gotten so excited at porn before, and the conflict in my mind was a big turn on.
Eventually, I gotten to a point where BNWO videos were what I wanted to see. Not my usual porn like brazzers or vixen, but blacked and BNWO edits. SO I began posting my whiteboysex on reddit (r/WhiteBoySex) and I watched my weakness and submission to interracial porn be celebrated, and my tiny white clit was humiliated. I later installed twitter and I was further brainwashed by BNWO and blacked imagery. I fell in love with blacked.com, bought a subscription and kept posting my whiteboysex on both platforms and also on the side was sexting black guys on snapchat.
And now, I continue to post my wbs on twitter and reddit, while making BNWO caption images, interacting with other whiteboys, and doing what I do best, go deeper and deeper into my addiction show my dedication to the BNWO.
I hope this wasn't boring, I really hope other whiteboys can relate! Hail the BNWO!!