Thank you for sharing so much. It's not easy to reach back into awkward experiences and share them. Interracial attractions involve complications, that's for sure. You were a little too hard on yourself. He'd have accepted you if you hadn't taken off I think.
I was very much in awe of white girls as a teen. White boys were irritated by white girl curiosity about me, but what could they do? White girls were interested and that was that. One white ass hole started to get physical and I sucker punched him. I was terrified but he went down and all the other white ass holes kind of faded back. White ass holes were afraid of black dudes. White fathers were seething, but what could they do? The tension between young black men and white girls and white parents.,...that's a subject all its own.