Journal of a Journey - Book Thirty Nine

Last night as I expected, Suzanna was very receptive knowing I was horny. Seeing her not wearing panties yesterday morning and then prancing around with just her t-shirt on before bed she knew that I'd want her and it didn't take much to flip the switch on for her too. Just a little bit of kissing and there was no resistance when my hand pulled up the front of her t-shirt and found her sweetness.

As we started to get into it more she giggled at me and said, "so, are you going to have me every night this week or what?” I laughed back and said I wanted to enjoy it as much as I could.

We moved from position to position including her kneeling at the edge of the bed. Her pussy was gaping open in that position and as I pushed back into her she moaned out that, "this is one of Ray’s favourite position". That thought really got to me, enough so that I stepped back a bit to see just what Ray got to see and enjoy; her clit was swollen out of its hood above her spread pussy lips. I loved seeing up inside her, knowing that my cum was going in there; thinking of her lying in this position with Ray; seeing his cum spilling out of her; dripping off her clit.

We both felt the urges rising and for us there's no position we like better than good ol' missionary. Last night she loved to push up on her elbows and watch me penetrate her as I held her legs back.

She looked up at me and said, "go ahead, make your mess in me" just before she arched her head back and felt herself slip into another orgasm. Feeling her body tense and then go limp it didn't take me long before I did just as she asked and I came deep in her pussy to which she responded with an immediate squeal.

As we lay against each other enjoying the aftermath of our mutual orgasms she whispered in my ear, "you're going to cum in me all week, aren't you?”

I pushed up away from her and just said, "Are you really surprised?" but then added, "... maybe, I'll give you a break later" and reminded her that this was the first Monday where she hasn't been off-limits.

She giggled and said, "Okay, I guess you have a point".

This morning it seemed we were back to a true 'normal' here as she had no qualms about prancing around naked as she dried her hair or put on her makeup.


We had sex last night; we were both surprisingly horny. She was very playful and our foreplay went on for quite a while as she seemed to be in the mood for quite a bit of oral last night both giving and returning. At one point she asked me as she was sucking me, "don't you want to cum in my mouth?"

I told her that this week was for her pussy and that, "we'll see about next week" and she quietened down and went back to work. I was pretty close when I pulled her off of my cock and took my turn between her legs. She said a variety of things but actually I was kind of stuck on thinking that Ray does this for her too as I was licking deeply into her pussy and feeling her responses in the form of moans and her pussy tightening and oozing her sweetness. She teased me at times that, "you can always do this for me", implying the obvious.

We started to fuck and I was really getting into it and I thought how after we've had sex a lot for a few days that she really stays wet and seems to get into it a lot. That thought also convinced me of her desires for the next few weeks. She'd really gotten me going orally so I was wicked hard already and after she'd cum while we were fucking I really went at her. I remember thinking ‘it's only Tuesday’ at one point and as I got really close I decided to do something different. Just as I was about to let loose I pulled out of her and stroked my cock till it spewed all over her stomach, breasts and one spurt made it to her neck. The last of it ran down my hands and dripped all over her still spread pussy.

When she felt what I'd done she squealed so loud I thought our ******** would come running. From her moan I knew she'd cum too but as I squeezed out those last dribbles, her fingers rocketed to her pussy and she rubbed herself using my cum as a lubricant of sorts. She quickly finger-fucked herself till she had this intense orgasm. Her eyes were tightly shut as both of her hands worked on her pussy and I watched her make herself cum like I haven't seen in ages. Her whole body shook and she squeezed her legs shut around her hand buried in her pussy while the other literally wiped and spread my cum all over her stomach and breasts! It was like something out of a porn movie. A moment later she just let out this huge breath and she totally relaxed under me.

What was really funny was the almost embarrassed look on her face when she did open them. She'd spread my cum literally all over her; all over her pussy and surrounding area and all over her stomach and breasts. She must have seen the incredulous look on my face because she moaned up at me and said, "Wow, I didn't expect you to do that .... my god that turned me on". She breathed some more and then asked me shyly, "was it okay for you?”

I lay down next to her and kissed her and said, "yeah, it was okay" but we didn't say anything more other than her moaning back that it was really nice and she thanked me. I knew what she was saying and I just said back, "It's okay ... I suppose it's something we could do sometimes". She smiled and hugged me back and said thank-you again.

So, I suppose it's not so bad if I can control myself and truly ride her till the very end. Certainly it’s not the same as cumming in her but, for me, it might be better than a condom as I think I'm going to miss feeling her pussy more than anything. If the rest of the week works out, I may ‘try’ a condom with her for comparison. She'll probably be into it if I tell her why....


We did have a fun time on Wednesday night. It seemed like everything was so much more light-hearted. Suzanna openly told me how she was very turned on by my not cumming in her and repeatedly told me how it turned her on so for me to spurt all over her as I'd done the other night. She lay naked next to me which was different as she's normally would be wearing panties. I suppose we could have fucked but, in a way, I wanted to masturbate for her. She told me several times how it also made her horny that I'd would use a condom with her, "even though I really don't like them it's turning me on to think about". It really got me going to see and hear her relaxed and being more comfortable about things for the next few weeks.

It worked out well as after a huge turkey dinner last night I had no energy and little desire unsatisfied from the night before but already tonight Suzanna's joked with me that she wants me to ‘stuff her’ later tonight. She's also told me that if I want to cum in her tomorrow and Sunday night that she wants that too. She said several times that she wants me to be okay, if not happy, with what's going on. I told her that I was happy and she smiled and kissed me.

We’re on schedule for later this evening. Our ******** has already announced she's going to bed early and our son is leaving to head back to school after dinner tonight.

Suzanna has been very open and communicative thanking me several times for going along with her 'crazy' desires". She also told me how good she feels now that she's doing something for herself, her own desire/making/wishes.


Suzanna had been feeling both anxious and excited about everything that was about to happen yesterday. She thanked me many times for being supportive and such but it was last night after dinner (before we got to our alone time together) that she started to tell me more about what was going through her head. At one point she took me aside and said that she wanted me to know, and she promised, that when she's back from her short trip with Ray, she will absolutely let me have her bare again. She then asked if we could ‘play out’ the evening last night though as if it were something we were doing for real; as if it were something that may not be ending in just another few weeks.

I told her that I was sure that would be okay and she said again that no matter how we role-play later on, that I should remember her promise.

She then told me how she felt really turned-on, empowered and excited about all of this and again she thanked me for willing to go along with it even if it's not what I may have wanted. She said, "we've done lots of stuff that you wanted" and that this was the first time she'd truly felt she'd wanted something sexual like this for herself.

I told her that it was always a 2-way street and that despite my not being totally in sync with this latest desire of hers that I absolutely would support her and stand by her request.

She said that it isn't necessarily something she'd been thinking about and joked at how much she enjoys my cum in her but that for the past few months, she's felt this desire to explore this. I held her hand and told her that, just as she'd said, she'd gone along with all that I'd asked her to try and do and, if nothing else, that I owed her the same support.

She squeezed my hand and said that my just accepting her desires in herself had made her feel very differently about things and had given her much more confidence about everything.

Later last night after our ******** was already in bed and our son had left she went up to the bedroom. She told me to give her 15 minutes or so and then I should come up and join her.

Wow, was I surprised when I came into the bedroom. Suzanna was lying back on the bed with her back against the headboard. She'd lit candles all around the room and was lying there naked with her knees bent and her legs slightly spread apart. I came in and sat next to her on the bed all the while looking her over from head to foot and all in between! She lay there and told me to get undressed and that she wanted to talk to me before we got started.

As I undressed and sat on the bed by her feet she spread her legs apart and said, "I want you to look at me and know that after today that 'this' is going to be Ray’s". I realized that we had moved into our agreed-to role-playing. She looked up at me and said that, "since this might be your last time, I wanted tonight to be special for us but I also want you to know what's going to happen so you can enjoy yourself as much as you can".

She told me I should feel her pussy. She took my hand and guided my fingers and then she asked me if it felt wet. I said yes and she said something like, "that's your cum in me now but starting tomorrow, it's only going to be Ray’s". She was about to ask something when she saw my cock stiff and bobbing up and down in front of her and she giggled and said again, "it's okay if that turns you on" and a moment later she added, "it turns me on too" and with that she started to suck on my cock and commented how heavy my balls felt. She looked up at me and said, "I want you to really enjoy yourself tonight" and she gently squeezed my balls and said, "I want you to really enjoy your last time in me bare". I didn't need to answer because she giggled and smiled broadly at how my cock seemed to jump and respond to what she'd said.

I lay down next to her and began to run my hands all over her body. She moaned as I felt her breasts and gently pinched at her nipples. She slid down the bed and said "you can go down on me if you like" and with that she spread her legs for me and it seemed like it was more of a request than asking me. It was so erotic to see her pull her knees back and spread her pussy open. As I started to lick at her she again told me how "you came a lot in me in the last few days" and how "next week, you'll be tasting Ray's cum in me". Damn my cock was hard as a rock.

I climbed up on top of her and she was all smiles at seeing how stiff my cock was and she said, "are you ready?" and I nodded. A second later she stopped me before I could push into her and she took my cock and rubbed it all around her pussy, up around her clit and down into the gaping entrance to her vagina. She spread all of our juices all around and held my cock so it couldn't enter her more than just the tip. "I want you to really enjoy feeling me bare tonight so I want you to take your time and really let your desire build".

I swear she felt better than ever as her silky tunnel engulfed my cock. I went to pull back out but she held me in place and said, "I want you to go slowly and really enjoy yourself". So I pulled back just a little and then pushed more deeply into her. Hearing her moan at that point really turned me on and as I started to pull back she started to talk to me more. I knew we'd agreed to play this up as truly being our last time that I'd be in her bare and would cum in her and she was totally into it.

She looked up at me as I was fully imbedded in her and she said, "you know I love your cock and your cum ... but baby, it's been a long time since I've truly wanted something like this". A moment later she looked up at me and said, "I want you to cum as much as you can for your last time in me". I suspect she could feel the throbbing ratchet up a notch in my cock as she said that.

She looked down at my cock in her pussy and then up at me and said, "You cannot imagine how it turns me on to think about only Ray having me from now on".

OMG, she was totally going for it as if it were truly for real and I went right along with it. In the back of my mind I knew it was only temporary but at that moment, just over 12 hours ago, oh my god, it felt like it was for real.

She continued and told me that I should enjoy how her pussy feels on my cock, how wet and open it is and she then added, "Starting tomorrow only Ray's going to know that feeling ..." and then she added, ".. it’s going to be someone else cumming in me all the time, not you".

I was really turned on by all of this, comforted in the deep recesses of my mind that it's just a temporary role-playing thing, but at the moment my thoughts were on it being for real. I looked down at her and asked her if she was ready to, "give yourself to Ray like this?"

She seemed to love that I was going along with it and replied, "Yes baby, you've had me for almost 30 years, it's going to be so wonderful and refreshing to feel that same excitement for another man".

It just felt so awesome to go along with it and let the fantasy play out. I asked her, "Ray cums a lot in you, doesn't he?" and she giggled and said, "more than you sometimes!” I pushed deeply into her and she moaned out loud as did I.

Again she told me, "Baby, I want you to fuck me really slowly tonight, really build yourself up," and then she added, "... make it really good for your last time".

I started to thrust deeply into her and then pull out just to the tip of my cock. She implored me to, "fuck me slowly baby, make it build up" and as I pushed back into her she let out an erotic moan and I could feel her pussy juicing up even more.

We went at it, incredibly slow fucking, for at least 15 or 20 minutes and each time I'd push all the way into her she'd let out that same awesomely sexy moan and encourage me more and more. My cock seemed to grow harder and harder. I'd been talking to her the whole time which seemed to be driving us both even crazier. I said things like, "bet you can't wait to be with Ray again .... it turns me on to think that you are going to give him your pussy exclusively .... I'm going to miss cumming in you".

She played the role perfectly and said, "I'm going to miss feeling you too but it's something I want ..." and she looked up at me, "... and I think it's something you want too, don't you?" I groaned back an affirmative response and she put her hand up to my face and she said, "You’ll still get to cum with me; just not in me ..... it's going to be so exciting".

My cock never softened up at all; what better tell-tale confession is there than for her to feel that. At that moment it felt totally real even with the knowledge in the back of my mind that this was roleplay. At that moment, it was real, I was about to cum in her for the last time and there was no hiding that I was turned on by it, not from how huge my cock felt in her. She even commented, Wow, you haven't felt this big and hard in a long time" and she looked up at me and continued to play along and said,"after this I'll only get to feel you if you put a condom on" and then she added, "... only Ray will have me bare".

I was getting really worked up and for as slow as we'd been going just before, now, damn the need was really rising in us and I knew that I needed to cum pretty soon. She was totally accommodating, I didn't need to hold her legs back with my arms , she was doing all that was needed including reaching down to the sides of her butt and pulling herself open even more for me. It was obvious from how wet and open she was that she was into the fantasy as much as me.

I guessed she could feel my level of desire; she looked up at me and started to coax me on, "It’s almost time baby ... are you almost ready for the last time?”

At that moment it felt as real as it could be and I looked down at her and said, "I want to wait as long as I can".

She reached up and said, “okay, make it as good for you as you can". I was at arm’s-length from her and I looked up and down her naked body; I focused on my cock buried in her and all of everything from the past few years seemed to flash before my eyes; I looked down and in my mind I could see her pussy only this time it wasn't my cock in it. She knew I was near and she whispered up to me in this sexy voice, "come on baby, you finish up in me so it can finally be done".

I was totally into it and she then said, "come on give it to me good" and then she said something that pushed me over the edge, she said, "come on baby, make it a great last time that I'm going to remember".

Well, that did it, we went from slow to fast in a blink of an eye and damn did I pound into her. I tried to hold off as much as I could, as long as I could, but when I heard her start to moan and I knew she was nearing her own orgasm, well, it pushed me over the edge. I tried to fight it off but a moment later a million years of animal instinct took over and I plunged into her one last time and did I ever let loose in her. I felt at least 7 or 8 thick spurts of cum deep inside her and, sure enough, before I'd even finished she crested an intense orgasm herself that left her feeling jelly-like under me. Even after the 7 or 8 huge spurts I remained deep in her and I swore I could feel more and more cum draining out of me into her waiting pussy.

She wrapped her legs around me and whispered that I should stay in her as long as I could. My cock hadn't started to shrink yet and I could feel her wetness combined with my cum beginning to seep out of her. I continued fucking her even as my cock began to deflate and each thrust brought more moans from her until, finally, I could move no more and I could feel that my cock was barely in her. We kissed and she hugged me and said, "thank you" again. It was so emotional how she sounded when she said it that I knew that even if it was going to be for real that we would be okay and that made me feel really good.

I said back to her, "you're welcome".

We lay like that for a few more moments until she looked up at me and said, "well, are you ready to pull out for the last time?" Hearing her say that really hit me and I thought my cock might even plump up again but it didn't. A few moments later I said, "Okay" and I pushed away from her and I know we both looked down at her pussy and watched my cock slip out of her.

It felt so weird to think in my head that this could be the last time I felt her bare just after I'd cum in her and she must have known that because she looked up at me and said, "don't worry baby, you'll get to have me again ... someday, but for now ...." and she looked up at me and just said, "... but for now, this is going to be for Ray" and she put her hand over her pussy as if it signify it.

It was a very intense moment and after I pulled out of her and lay next to her I said, "wow, that was incredible".

She giggled back and pulled her finger out of her pussy and said, "you made quite the mess in me didn’t you?”

I smiled, "Well, that's what you said you wanted" to which she giggled back, "I know ... and I love knowing you enjoyed yourself too". We kissed and talked a bit and she said again that she wanted to thank me and that she appreciated the sacrifice I was making for her.

We lay in bed for a little longer until she rolled over towards me and said, "are you going to be okay?" and before I could answer she said, "I know I said you could have me if you used a condom or if you 'pull out'" and she then added, "do you think you could wait a few days though?".

I kissed her forehead and said, "after that fuck, I'm sure it won't be a problem waiting".

She held me, kissed me back and then said, "Okay, then I hope you'll be okay with me starting tonight".

I didn't know what she meant exactly so I just said, "yeah that's fine" and she leaned up on one elbow and kissed me back and said, "thank you honey, it means a lot to me .... I'll be back in a few minutes" and with that she got up out of bed and turned to me and again said, "oh my god you came so much" and I could see what she'd meant as there some of my cum dribbling out of her. She looked at me and said, "I'll be back in a few minutes" and she turned and went into the bathroom.

I lay there for a few more minutes and then decided I wanted to get cleaned up myself. When I opened the door I was surprised at first but then realized what she was doing and what she'd meant, she was sitting on the toilet with her douche-bottle/applicator in her hand. She looked up at me and at first I think she was going to slam the door shut but instead she smiled and went back to what she was doing. I watched as she slid the dildo-like end of the bottle into her pussy and then squeezed the bottle. At first there was no reaction but a second later a flood of water came gushing out of her pussy. When it had all dripped out of her she pushed her middle-finger into her pussy and, apparently when she was satisfied that she was 'clean', she put the douche-thing back under the bathroom vanity and kissed me. As she broke the kiss she said to me, "from now on, it'll just be Ray’s stuff in me, okay?” When I nodded an okay she smiled and picked up the warm washcloth and she gently cleaned off my softened cock.

There wasn't anything more for either of us to say at that moment; it seemed more appropriate for us just to cuddle up naked in bed and spoon up as we watched TV for a few more minutes. Her naked body felt wonderful next to mine and it just seemed like it was the right thing to do, to not say anything. Later though as we turned the TV off and were about to nod off, she turned to me and said again, "thank you for being so wonderful about all of this". I kissed her back.

This morning there was no return to panties. She came out of the shower and pranced around naked. She saw me staring at her and she smiled and said, "You can see me since I know we won't be having sex for a while".

The crazy part, now that we're past last night, it's not so horrible to think about having to use a condom or whatever with her. Quite the opposite, I find myself very turned on by the thought and am thinking this might be more fun than I'd thought it would be.

Part of our conversation yesterday afternoon was a comment from her about, "now being what I'd wanted all along" and how I should be happy about it. I told her in reply that I loved the ‘new you’ and that I was very happy about her.

It's now 8pm and she's just poked her head in here and said that she's going to ‘run out’ and that she'll pick up our ******** from play-practice about 10pm. I don't need her to tell me that she's going to see Ray, she knows I know. So I'm curious to see what happens later tonight, to see what the week may have in store.


This is a 2nd marriage for both Suzanna and I and when we went into it we'd agreed that we'd always be open and communicate with each other. We'd had over 20 years of that in place before we ventured down this road together and, if anything, since she started with other guys, our communication has only got better. We both feel that anything other than that wouldn't work; we just don't want to keep things from each other. This is a shared journey for us.

I was a bit surprised at her actions after our 'last time' on Sunday and I'll admit that it was a strange but erotic feeling to see her wash my cum out of her. I think that is what's helping me along with all of this, that she is genuinely excited by all of this even if it's not something that either of us had really expected. I think she is surprised at her feelings about all of it. I know that she felt very torn between enjoying sex with me and this newfound fetish/desire to not have me cum in her. I think that once that door was opened that despite almost 30 years of truly enjoying me cumming in her that she sort of found it hard to accept that she was turned on at the idea of me not doing so.


We have a bit of a winter-storm going on today so I knew she wasn't going to run over to see Ray today (she's not fond of driving in crappy weather) so I wasn't totally surprised at her running over to see him last night. In truth, I was happy about that as I was still pretty satiated from Sunday night and I wasn't in the mood to run up to pick up our ********.

However, while she was gone I did have the erotic thought of her sitting there in the car waiting for our ******** and then driving home with her pussy still full of Ray's cum.


Regarding this week part of me is horny and would love to try out a condom with her tonight but the other part of me wants to follow our normal pattern of nothing for me tonight and to have our usual masturbation session tomorrow night which would make Friday night the first time for condom-use for us. I think a lot of it is going to depend on Suzanna too. This morning she seemed VERY up and playful; it could be that she's the one who wants it tonight! We'll see what the day brings.

It's odd, now that it's happening, it's not so scary.


Despite some growing desires on Tuesday I didn't push things with Suzanna and actually had decided to play the week out the way it normally goes, i.e. no sex on Tuesday. I had thought of suggesting to have sex and use a condom for the first time but then thought better of it. I was right not to have asked for on going to bed Tuesday night Suzanna said that she thought for sure I was going to want her and when I shared my thoughts that we might follow our normal routines I detected some tears in her eyes as she hugged me really deeply and said, "thank you ... thank you for letting me have this for me". So despite falling asleep with a hard-on, it was definitely the right thing to do for Suzanna and yesterday morning as she pranced around the bedroom naked she thanked me again.


Suzanna came home a bit later than usual from work. I didn't push or ask about it, I knew she had a ton of crap going on at work and although I suspected she might have seen Ray, I didn't ask because there was just as good a chance she was simply working late. Our ******** was home and we got busy with her and her homework/projects/play status. It wasn't until we were heading to bed that Suzanna came up to me and asked if I wanted to follow our normal Wednesday routine and she smiled again when I said, "yes". She briefly asked why I didn't want to have sex with her and I repeated again that I thought we were going to follow our normal routine.

She came out of the bathroom in just her night-shirt, even pulled the front of it up and teased me by flashing her pussy as she climbed into bed next to me. "Are you ready baby?" she asked and I pushed the blankets down and showed her that I'd already taken off my boxers and my cock was stiff and ready. She moaned a bit at, "how hard you look already" and as she lay next to me and her shirt rode up she turned to me and said, "you know I saw Ray after work" and again said thank-you to me for letting her have her time with him.

She asked me, "are you sure you wouldn't rather have me?" I turned to her and said, "Don’t you mean is that what you'd rather?" and then I added, "I don't mind doing our usual if that's what you'd rather?”

She was quiet for a moment and then passionately kissed me and told me how wonderful I was and then she said, "if you don't mind, I really would rather you waited, but only if you don't mind".

How could I possibly say otherwise? Knowing she'd seen Ray earlier was clearly in my mind but to be honest, my head was in a cuck-place and the idea that I'd masturbate instead of having sex with her was really turning me on. I even started without even thinking about it, my hand just went to my cock and started stroking as we talked. I was hard already and she leaned over to me and, understanding where my head was at (enjoying a cuck-moment), she said that she ‘would love to watch me’.

I started stroking more intently and she kept on talking to me, whispering in my ear about how horny she was watching me. She started to tell me, "I'm so wet from seeing Ray earlier ... do you want to feel me?" Hearing that, my brain went really crazy.

She took my free-hand in hers and put it on her pussy. I could feel her curly pubes between my fingers and I looked over and watched her guide my fingers down between her legs. A second later she spread her legs and guided my index and middle-fingers into her vagina.

Oh my god, it felt so warm and wet in there. As I tried to finger-fuck her with one hand and continue jerking off with my other hand she started to talk more in my ear, "Ray came a lot in me; can you feel it?” I groaned and she went on, "I'm going to see him again tomorrow and tomorrow night you can clean me up if you want to but, tonight, I just want to feel him".

I was in my own world by this point but after hearing that my brain just went off in all sorts of directions. I could hear her talking but all I could think about was the feel of her pussy on my fingers. I know at one point my right hand was going wild on my cock and I'd almost forgotten about my left-hand until I felt her moving them with her own hand.

She asked me to talk to her and tell her what I was thinking. I managed to get my thoughts focused enough to tell her that I'd gotten over some of my initial apprehension and that I was excited to see her wanting things like this for herself. She interrupted me to say, "Oh Baby, I want you to enjoy this too".

I told her that it was incredibly sexy to think about her and what she was doing and she encouraged me to tell her more; I told her that, "thinking of you giving your pussy to Ray like this is driving me crazy".

She cooed back again thanking me for letting her do this and she ramped up her talk in my ear. She asked me how it felt feeling ‘so much’ of Ray’s cum in her and ‘knowing it's none of yours’. I didn't need to answer her as the speed an intensity of my hand on my cock gave it away. I could feel her own arousal in my other hand under hers in her pussy; I could feel her pussy spasming, clenching down on my fingers as she guided them in and out.

It was all too much for me. I'd wanted to take longer to cum but couldn't take it and literally, 5 maybe 10 minutes into all of this, I started to moan and she knew I was close. She whispered in my ear, "come on baby; let me see all that cum that you used to put inside me".

That did it, the next stroke set me off and I spewed all over my stomach and chest and one or two landed up by my neck. As I let go I felt her hand plunge my fingers deep into her pussy where they were when I felt her cum a moment later. It was sooner than she'd expected too and just a minute or two later, we were both lying there exhausted and breathing heavily.

She laughed when she pulled my fingers out of her pussy when I instinctively put them in my mouth to lick them off as I'd normally do after fingering her - and yes, I could definitely taste Ray’s cum in her. As I licked them off a second later she brought her own fingers up to my mouth and I realized she'd pushed them in herself and brought me more of their juices to lick off. It just felt very sensual to share that moment with her that way while I lay there with my own cum all over my body.

She slowly moved to her knees next to me and began to again, like most Wednesdays, push my cum together into a larger pool but this time she was playing with it a bit, rubbing her fingers together in it. She had this intense look in her eyes like she was lost deep in thought. I touched her with my left hand and that brought her out of her trance-like state and she looked at me and said in a calm plain voice, “You’ve no idea how much it turns me on to see how much you cum .... and to know it's not in me".

She gave a start and suddenly turned and hugged me and said, "This really is okay with you, isn’t it?" I hugged her back and said that I'd gotten over some of my issues over the past few days/weeks and simply told her that I wanted her ‘to have this experience the way she wanted’. She leaned over and kissed me and wound up smearing my cum all over her t-shirt where it draped onto my stomach. As she leaned back away from me she said something about, "not wasting it" and she went back to pushing my cum around and feeding it to me. When she was done and content that I was cleaned up she again leaned over to me and kissed me, sharing the taste of cum in my mouth and once again she told me how much she loved me and again said thank-you for being so good about all of this.

I told her that, "we've gone this far already and as long as you make me feel this good let’s see how it goes". She squealed at how lucky she was and how wonderful she felt.

We lay there in bed together for a while, quiet as there didn't seem to be much more to really talk about right then. We turned the TV on and I thought we might turn in at that point but she leaned over and reached under the covers and grabbed my cock and said, "is he done for the night; or can I wake him up again?" (‘Him’ referring to my cock). I groaned that she could see if ‘he’ responds and, sure enough, a moment later she was eagerly stroking me to full hardness again.

I was ready to jerk off again for her but instead she leaned over and gave me a passionate kiss and then said, "You deserve this for being so wonderful". With that, she pulled the covers down and before I could say anything, she leaned over and started to suck my cock. I started to move my hand towards it but she pulled her mouth off and said, "No, let me do this for you, okay?”

How could I say no?

She said, "you talk to me, tell me what you're thinking and what's turning you on".

So, I lay back and as I enjoyed her mouth doing a wonderful job, I put my hands on her back and in her hair and as I caressed her I told her that I loved how we were able to talk and communicate so openly now. She moaned, "uh huh" but didn't miss a suck. I told her that at first I was kind of upset about not having her pussy for a while but that, now, the idea turned me on a lot and I told her outright that, "it turns me on that my wife of 25 plus years wants another guy to fulfil her sexually". I said that I did feel threatened at first but now, she'd made me feel so good with her that I felt I would do anything for her.

She gobbled at my cock and held my balls in her hand as she sucked and sucked. We both knew it was a 2nd time for me and it would take longer. She started to stroke me in between when she was sucking me and she talked back to me. She said it surprised her how turned on it made her that I wasn't having sex with her. She made several comments and hand motions about, "we'll just have to get all this cum out of you won't we?”

Hearing her talk like that was one thing but what she'd asked and made me tell her had gotten me really going mentally thinking about her only having Ray's cum in her and how she'd already seen him twice. Well, if I let my mind focus on it, wow, her sucking felt awesome. I told her at one point that if I closed my eyes that I was thinking that as she sucked me, that Ray was fucking her and that made her really moan and take my cock even deeper in her mouth. It didn't take much longer before I was ready; she felt me put my hands on the back of her head and she knew too. A moment later I started fucking her mouth and her moans left no question that she was ready. A moment later I flooded her mouth with my second load of cum for the night. My god, with her sucking at my cock like that the second load felt as large as the first!

She felt me cum in her mouth but I hadn't even realized she was masturbating herself and as I came she let out a moan that could only be her own orgasm. As she came down she sucked her mouth off my cock and moaned loudly as she lay fully stretched out next to me and pulled my head towards her. She hadn't swallowed yet and a second later we were snowballing and as our tongues touched we could both taste the tart flavor of my cum. My god, didn’t that turn me on and make me feel incredibly close to her!

When she pulled away from me there was no mess left other than a bit of sticky residue on our lips and I was totally drained. She kissed my cheek and said, "there, that ought to hold you till Friday".

We didn't talk more about it afterwards. Sometimes, I think, it's better to leave things off on a high/good point rather than continuing to talk more. Instead we cuddled up next to each other and watched the end of the show on TV and then we turned in to sleep.


This morning she came out of the bathroom naked. Again I joked that I liked this much more than when she wears panties and she giggled and said, "Don’t get too used to it; it's just this week and next week for you". As she stood at the dresser she turned to me and said, "I am seeing Ray again tonight you know".

I smiled at her and I said, "I know" and that was it. We kissed and the rest of the morning before she left for work was as normal as they come.


I guess what's strange sitting here writing this is that I'm surprised at myself for how I feel. I'd thought I'd be horrified and upset at her asking me to not do what I've loved doing with her for almost 30 years now, cumming in her. I think back at when we first got together at how much it meant to her and me that not only would we cum together but that we both totally loved that she was on the pill and would have me bare. Now that it's sort of done and out in the open, it's so opposite what we'd had for so long and it's hard to believe it's what either of us wanted much less to have gone along with.

I'm excited by it; I think the conversations we've had and what she's said have definitely given me a confidence knowing that this is something she seems to have fixated on and wants to experience. The crazy part is that it actually turns me on that she asked me for this and it turns me on that we're doing it. It's weird to say that I am actually looking forward to putting on a condom and letting the entire scene settle into my brain when we have sex next which I suppose will be Friday unless either of us can't wait till then but I know that I want to.

What's to also think about are comments from Suzanna and what I myself have seen and felt. Since she came out about all of this (and I agreed) that she says I cum a lot more than I used to. Even after last night, my cock is hard already this afternoon so somehow all of this is really turning me on even more.

The thing is, I should be dreading this time but instead, my god, I feel incredibly alive and aroused by it all. I have to laugh at myself too for is there any doubt that I'm a cuckold who wanted to feel like this all along; were all my earlier ideas and suggestions and agreement with her merely stopping points to this destination? All I know is that I look at her and have this incredible new feeling of love and amazement at her that she's feeling comfortable about sharing this with me so openly and making it as good for me as it can be. That really turns me on, to be in tune with her sexually like this and for both of us to be enjoying it and know the other is enjoying it too.

I think my fears and apprehensions have been eased by Suzanna's concern for me and her obvious desire to make this easier on me and maybe even more enjoyable in a way. I know feeling her last night and knowing that she wants it to only be Ray’s stuff in her was a huge turn-on. I think my fears and apprehensions have been eased by Sue's concern for me and her obvious desire to make this easier on me and maybe even more enjoyable in a way. I think as long as she will ‘satisfy’ me in other ways that perhaps I should just relax and go with it.

She's at his place right now, she texted me about 4pm that she was heading there and expected to be home sometime around 6:30pm. There is something incredibly arousing to see her walk through the door knowing she's just had sex with him and that her pussy is full from him. It's amazing what that knowledge does to me.

When she got home and came into the house I was totally struck by her and all I could think was that here's my wife coming in the house with her pussy full of her lover's cum.


We had a quick dinner and I followed her up to the bedroom and I have to say that while I do love her wearing panties all week and teasing me, that this week with her not doing so has been just incredible.

She turned to me and asked if I wanted to ‘share in her fun’ and I knew that was her way of asking me if I wanted some of her creampie! I nodded yes and she started to get undressed and I have to say that even after Wednesday night's fun that when she stood there in just her panties and I could see a wet spot in the crotch, oh man, did it turn me on. My cock grew hard in my jeans as she stood before me and slid her panties off.

She smiled at me as she sat at the edge of the bed and she started to talk again with the ‘thank-you's’. I told her she didn't have to continue to thank me and I knelt down on the floor so I was almost at her height and I put my arms on her shoulders and pulled her naked body to me and I kissed her passionately. When the kiss ended I told her that I was ready to share her fun if she was.

She looked at me and said something about knowing that she'd said I could have sex with her if I'd wanted but she looked up at me and said that she'd like it if I'd wait till Friday. I kissed her again and I told her that I assumed that's what we'd be doing and reminded her that I was still following our normal schedule so I had assumed that already.

She smiled and as she lay back she said, "Okay but can I ask you one more thing?"

I said "sure" and she seemed hesitant to say it but then as she felt my hands on her legs eager to spread them she asked in this almost meek voice, "baby, can you just lick around the outside and leave what's still in me alone ... you know, don't try to suck it out". I knew she felt weird asking me that and that it was awkward but at that moment hearing her say that, it was a huge turn-on and I realized I was going to have to fight the urge to drop my jeans and have a turn with her.

I've tasted Ray’s' cum before, it sounds weird to say that but I have, and as I gently started to lick away at her swollen pussy I could definitely taste it again. I teased apart her pussy lips with my tongue and she let out this incredibly sexy moan saying how wonderful my tongue felt. As I separated her labia, I ran my tongue up the sides of them and she squealed each time I approached her clit. Her hand touching my head and shoulder the third and fourth time I did so. Each time I'd dip back down there was definitely more of his cum that had seeped out of her and each time I licked she'd gasp and moan. I so wanted to plunge my tongue inside her but she asked me not to and somehow the thought of more of Ray's cum being inside her was incredibly exciting.

I must have spent 10-15 minutes between her legs all the while just licking and sucking around the outside and up to her clit. When I'd dig my tongue into her furrow and draw it upwards I could taste his cum as I spread it upwards across her spread pussy lips and then up to her clit. Each time I'd go more and more slowly around her clit and she'd moan louder and louder. For me, it was to feel each time her to tighten up her abdomen muscles and for more cum to dribble out; for her, it was to approach a gathering intense orgasm just from my tongue licking her. I didn't push into her but I knew that the little dribbles of cum that I was getting was only a small taste of what she still held inside her pussy.

she was on the edge of an orgasm and I continued licking but now I added a gentle suck and swirl of my tongue over her clit. A few motions like that and I could hear her getting closer and closer until suddenly I felt both of her hands on my head holding me tightly and I knew she was on the brink. This last time I did probe her cum-filled opening and drew out a little bit more of Ray, I could taste the tartness on my tongue and as I went up to her clit and sucked she squealed out loud and let herself go into an intense orgasm. I gently licked at her through it and I knew she'd cum when I could suddenly taste a lot more of Ray's cum.

As she calmed down, I continued to lick her clean but again, I did as I was told, only staying on the outside. When she was clean I then pulled up and lay on the bed next to her and kissed her. She kissed me back and when the kiss ended she said that it turned her on that she could taste his cum on my lips.

I'd debated in my head about suggesting I get a condom and have sex with her but before I could even really think about it, she hugged me tightly and said, "thank you for waiting till tomorrow" and that ended my mental debate. We lay together for a bit longer and she rolled towards me and said that she promised that, "tomorrow night you will enjoy yourself".


Last night our ******** was up at school working on the dress-rehearsal for the school play so as soon as we'd finished our dinner the pizza and wine we both had the same thought and made our way up to the bedroom.

Suzanna again thanked me for last night and said that she was feeling so good about everything. She looked up at me and said, "So, what's it going to be baby; do you want to try it bare so you can feel me a bit better?"

I was going to answer her until she added, "... but remember, you promised you'd pull out .... or...." and she looked up at me and said, ".... you could see how it goes using a condom. You know, maybe it'd turn you on to know what you're not feeling?"

Things happened quickly and soon we were lying naked in bed with her stroking my cock saying how hard I seemed to be. She looked up at me as she said, "I think it knows it’s not going to cum in me".

I have to admit that knowledge, that fact, was a huge turn-on. I was really horny and I guess that after the wait, I'd have a huge load of cum but to hear her say it, that it wasn't going in her, it DID turn me on to think about it.

As I knelt over her she had my bare cock in her hand and was rubbing the head up through her spread pussy. She pulled it upwards and squealed as she'd rub it around her clit.

She positioned it again at the entrance to her pussy and I pushed it into her. Oh my god, the feeling of my cock stretching her open and pushing into her seemed a million times more sensual and erotic than ever before. She pulled her legs back for me and as I pushed a bit more into her she looked up at me and just said, "mmmm - feels good....." and then she added, "be careful" and I knew what she was saying and what she meant.

She didn't resist as I pushed further in and then beginning a gentle fucking motion. I thought about some of my pre-cum obviously seeping into her but decided that she must know that and that it really was my load of cum that she was really referring to. I hooked her legs around my arms and we both looked down as my cock slid all the way into her. Oh she felt good and she started to talk to me as she felt me start to stroke in and out of her. She asked me how it felt to ‘fuck Ray’s pussy’ and she reminded me several times that the last weekend we'd said that it was now ‘his’.

We were going at it and I knew that I was going to have to be careful as her teasing was really getting to me. She asked how I liked feeling, "all of Ray’s cum in me" and I told her that it was really getting to me. It was when she started to tell me to ‘be careful’ again I knew I'd have to make a decision soon. When she said once more, "you shouldn't cum in Ray’s pussy" I knew that I'd have maybe a few more strokes in her before I'd have to pull out and stroke it off. She was about to say something more when at that moment I pulled out of her and she squealed as she realized what I was doing.

I knelt there between her spread legs as she got up on her elbows and looked at my wet stiff cock bobbing away. She got the biggest smile I'd seen in a long time on her face as I reached over to the night-stand and pulled a condom out of the wrapper.

It was a moment I thought I'd be dreading, sheathing my cock in a condom to fuck her but instead, my god, it was probably one of the most arousing and erotic moments of my life. Sometimes in the past it'd be hard to put a condom on or my cock would start to shrivel up but not last night, I stayed rock hard as I unrolled the condom onto my cock. When it was fully on I moved back into position.

Now I know it was all in my head but as I moved back over her I swore I could see Ray’s cum still lying inside her. It didn't matter if it was only in my head because that was all I needed to stay rock-hard.

I knew how she felt a moment ago and now, re-entering her with this thin condom on I could still feel her, but it felt different to me. I want to say it felt dull to me but I could still feel her silky walls so clearly from just a few moments before and now all I could feel was the sexy sensation of her pussy sucking at my cock. Oh she was slick and wet and open, there was no resistance at all. I was lost in the moment till I heard her moan and she looked up at me and said, "thank you" and that did it. Damn, I was horny and I started to fuck her in earnest now. She grunted with the newfound force I was using so that I could feel her through the condom.

She moaned away as I knew she was now approaching her own orgasm. In a way I thought to myself that she'd held back just as I did until I'd put on a condom and now we were both going to climax. I know that I plunged into her till I ground myself against her and then pulled almost all the way back. She looked down at my cock pulling out of her and I watched her as she watched me pull out. I guess the appearance of the condom on me got to her and her eye fluttered as she moaned out in orgasm and I felt her pussy tighten up as I pushed back into her and thought how different she feels through the condom; awesomely good, but different.

She moaned and writhed through a passionate orgasm as I let my desires build as much as I could. She's come back to earth as I continued fucking her and started to tease me again, "Come on baby, it's your turn now ... I want to see all your cum in that condom when you're done". She said a few other things about Ray’s-pussy and how I should leave it clean afterwards but it was at the end when she started to encourage me to, "cum and fill the condom" that it got to me.

I know the thoughts in my own head were that this moment about how much Ray was going to cum in her before I would again and when I thought of how many more condoms there were for me to use, that was it, I thought that all mine would be in the condom and all of his wouldn't.

I plunged into her a few last frantic times before she knew it was my final time. She wrapped her legs around me to pull me in and hold me in place as I finally let loose in the condom. She moaned and I think she even came again as I orgasmed and moaned away. I'd always thought it was her feeling my cum that drove her over the edge at the end but seeing her cum again too made me realize that it was more the knowledge of my own orgasm and not necessarily me cumming in her that drove her.

We both sort of giggled and laughed a bit after we'd both come down. She looked up at me and said, "You should probably pull out before it slips off". That was when I realized that this was surely a moment that I was going to be missing, the feeling of my cock bare inside her as I'd start to shrink after sex.

I pulled out of her before I was fully soft and it did make feel a bit sad in a way. Her pussy was gaping open and shiny red inside as I pulled out but there was little to no mess following me. She got up on her elbows and gently pulled off the condom and held it up, "Wow, that's like the most you've cum in ages" as she showed me the condom and how much was inside it.

I sighed, yes it felt wonderful and I'd loved having sex with her but I was sad that I'd been denied that post-orgasmic moment feeling her. I knelt back against my ankles and while I was in thought she moved around on the bed and before I realized what was going on she'd moved and taken my cock in her mouth and she was sucking gently at it both to clean me up but also, I'm thinking, to give me some of that same gentle close feeling.

It worked, she gently sucked at my cock and ran her finger up the bottom (she remembered!) to draw out the last bits of my cum and that closeness, that moment of her gentle touch, seemed to make it all okay for me.

A moment later when she let go of my cock, I pushed her back against the bed and lay against her and we kissed passionately. She looked up at me in between kisses and asked, "Was that okay?" and when I said an enthusiastic ‘yeah’ she smiled and said, "thank you".

Once again I told her she didn't need to say any more and I then said, "It wasn't as bad as I thought, actually it was a lot of fun so if this is what you want for a while, then I'm okay with it too".

She kissed me again and said, "When I get back from going away, I'll make it really special for you".

I smiled and she giggled and said, "This is a lot of fun".

She's now out shopping with our ******** but before she left we had a moment together and she said, "can we do that again tonight?”

I gave her a kiss and said, "You bet, I expect it". She giggled and said I should get another bottle of wine for later.


She dropping our ******** off at her boyfriend's house and then she told me that she's going off to see Ray till later this afternoon.

With her away and having a quiet house I thought I'd pen more of my thoughts on all of this. First I suppose is that I guess it's not so bad using a condom with her. I really enjoyed feeling her bare for a while and by the time I felt the urge rising, it wasn't that big a deal to put the condom on and finish off that way.

I am kind of struck at the feeling I have about all of this. For so long I'd valued cumming in her as a big part of our sexual release together that it's a bit different to not have that, or at least not have it in the same way but at the same time, it is quite the turn-on. Now that we're actually doing it (and I know it's her that wants it) it actually feels good to give her what she wants. In a way, I feel I’m returning what she's done for the past few years, that is, given me what I've wanted.

The thing is when Suzanna had told me Dan wanted this, I really didn't want it and also I don't think she really wanted it; the thought of not cumming in her was something that was a huge thing to me. Now looking at it I can see that at that time my response was (I think) so much more in response to what I felt as her not wanting it. (Does that make sense?)

I know it's only been one time now that we've fulfilled this new desire of hers but already I can say I think I'd be okay with it if she were to say she wanted it for a longer period of time. It's crazy but I actually felt like I was so much more involved and a part of her own desires by putting on the condom last night and fucking her. In a way, it's like it's a reversal in my mind of what's been going on between us.

I think what mattered to me most was that we were both able to cum as we did. She seemed to feel it as much as if I'd cum in her and from what she's said, that despite missing feeling my semen in her, it's obvious from last night that we still are as intensely sexual together as we had always been. She orgasmed, relatively easily as did I, something I think I feared wouldn't happen.

Crazy to think this way but with a few hours alone here to ponder, I find that I'm relishing the feeling I have right now knowing what we're doing and what's more, I find pleasure in knowing I'm fulfilling her desires. It's weird to say (and this is most definitely the cuck in me talking) that it feels wonderful knowing I'm okay doing this for her. It's most definitely the cuck in me that is excited and most definitely aroused at knowing what she wants. I am sure that as days and the next week passes, that this feeling will wane and I'll miss feeling her warm wet pussy around my cock as I cum deep in her but, at the same time, I also know that the cuck part of me wants to see where all of this will go to.

It's weird to think how far our relationship has come, to where she is with Ray; in a weird way it’s, almost a comforting thought knowing she's there because she wants to. I think back to my earliest fears of her being too intimate with her lovers. It's weird to now not be upset by those same thoughts, instead, being aroused by them.


Suzanna and I had a long talk last night and it made me feel better about everything. It was quite touching to hear her concern for us and me while she sorts out what she wants to experience.

It helped to have a bottle of wine and an empty house (our ******** stayed at her boyfriends till pretty late watching movies with some other friends) as it really relaxed her and I think let her say things she otherwise might not have.

She was very affectionate last night and talked openly while I went down on her and licked her clean. When the time came, I had no qualms about slipping the condom into place. As I pulled it into position I looked up and the expression on her face made it all worthwhile whatever happens.

Even though she'd had quite the time with Ray, it was easy to take her to orgasm and I followed soon after. Again, afterwards I pulled off the condom and it just seemed like I'd cum so much. She took it from me and spilled it out onto her stomach and I had to agree, there was a lot!.

She giggled and asked me if I wanted to clean it up. How could I resist? It was still warm and I licked it off her stomach and then went down on her one last time. She moaned loudly as I bought her close to yet another orgasm but in the end she held my head in place where she wanted it and then just said, "gentle now" and I knew what she wanted. I swirled my tongue gently around the nub of her clit and every now and then would dart it down to her now open entrance to her pussy, each time she'd move and moan a dribble of sweetness would seep out of her.


I can say that I'm now up to 3 condoms that have been used and filled by me now. It's kind of an erotic feeling to have passionate sex with Suzanna but afterwards not have a mess or cream-pie to clean-up. It's very different but it's not been bad and, actually, it's been more arousing, exciting and satisfying than I'd believed. Then again, it does help to have a positive state of mind!

Our talk on Saturday was nice but what struck me most was Suzanna keeping on apologizing for her new desire. She said ‘sorry’ several times for her desires taking a ‘different direction’ than she thought they would and it maybe being something I didn't want. I hugged her and told her it was okay and that I was having fun with her new desires.

We'd started a bottle of wine and she teased me until I slid her jeans and panties off and she let me start to lick her. That seemed to relax her and as I licked around she reminded me, "the outside only please," which was sweet. After a few moments and another glass of wine, she told me how sensual and empowered she feels with me agreeing to use condoms with her until she goes away with him. I asked her what Ray thinks is going on and she said that he just thinks that she is horny and wants more of him before they go away; she says she has not told him of what we are doing, that is, me not cumming in her.

I also asked if Ray is still the same or if his own desires are perhaps growing at all? She looked at me and said that it was good that I was always horny for her or she'd be doubting her own sexuality from the way Ray responds. She did say that he's been a bit more aroused this past week so maybe that's something in a positive direction but she sounds disappointed that he's not hornier for her. She says that when she gets to his place that she feels she has to take the lead in getting them in bed. Once they're there she says he's up to the task but that she still feels he just doesn't care if he has more sex with her or not so I know that’s a bit disappointing for her.

I asked in a round-about way whether he's said anything about their weekend away and she just says that he's psyched to go away with her. I asked what he thinks about me in all of this and she giggled and said that, "he thinks I'm too much for you" (meaning me). That made me laugh.

She also described how she felt knowing what she was doing. This caught my ear and I looked up at her and took a break from licking her. She said that she didn't think it was possible to feel any more aroused until she came to be able to express her wish for me to not cum in her.

She said that ever since doing so, and she held my hand and paused for a moment, but she looked at me and said that since I'd stopped, that she thought she was feeling much more fulfilled when she has sex with Ray.

It was so intense to hear her talk about it so calmly and as if it was just another conversation. She said she didn't know what it was, whether it was for real or if it was just something in her head. She held my hand again as she told me how she feels when she cums with him.

My cock was hard and I moved up next to her. Seizing the moment I asked her if she felt good about it and she smiled and said that hearing my calm voice and knowing I wasn't upset, that she said she felt okay about it.

I think she wanted my reassurance that I was truly okay with it so I asked her if it's like when she and I go away and I can make her delirious with sex.

She kissed me and said, "Yes, that's what I want most from next weekend, to feel like that..." and she held my hand tightly and whispered, "... sorry".

I pulled her to me and she got a little teary and said again that she was sorry that she wanted this. I was suddenly pulled from one feeling to another and I could see she was going to get upset quickly so I hugged her and I said something like, "don't be sorry, remember, this is what I wanted too".

She pulled back and looked at me and I couldn't tell what she was thinking but then she leaned forward and said, "it's the first time anyone else has made me feel this way since you".

We had a tender moment where she wanted me to tell her that it was okay. When I did she tilted her head up at me and said, "it’s what I want next weekend" and then kissed me again and then she said it, she said, "I think I could even feel more, maybe".

I will admit that I felt a little humbled at that moment. I know how she feels when she can truly let loose like that and it gave me the most erotic feeling thinking that she's able to give herself to him so fully.

Now, we'd had a bottle of wine between us and I was sure that accounted for some of her emotional swings back and forth but it also reduced her inhibitions and a moment later she said she wondered whether it was from me not cumming in her.

I asked her what she meant and she took a deep breath or two and then started to tell me that she was thinking about some of what I'd said about her when we first met and she said to me that, "I used to cum like that with almost everyone... " and she suddenly looked up at me and said, "... oh, I didn't mean it like that". She then proceeded to say how she used to cum like that almost all the time and she ,"wondered is it because I wasn't seeing just one guy back then?"

I gave a cautious supportive laugh and said, "I remember."

She said, "well, it's been like 30 years since then .... maybe I need a break from you?" in a voice that was half-serious and half-joking.

I answered quickly with something like, "for a while" and she leaned in and hugged me and started to kiss me.

That moment led into some exquisite moments, we were both totally naked within seconds and it was obvious that I was totally turned on. She let me push into her bare and enjoy her for a while but then she looked up at me and that was when I saw that look in her eyes and I knew she was too.


Last night was when I used condom #3 with her. She came to me and said, "You should have me tonight".

I was a bit curious and she said that she's going to want to see Ray again next week and she said in an honest voice, "it'll be your last chance for over a week... " and she reached down and cupped my cock and balls, “... you'll have plenty of time without me." She giggled, "use me while you still can".

In a fun moment I quipped back, "I wouldn't want to wear it out" and she punched me gently and said, "well, if you feel that way ..."

Before she could get another word out I interrupted and said, "It’s a date at 10:30pm".

So last night at 10:30pm, whether she really was in the mood or had just felt like she wanted me to have sex with her, she made herself available for me. She sucked me while she played with one of her toys. I loved watching her and soon she told me to, "suit up and get ready" while she lay back and enjoyed her solo time. When she felt me kneel between her legs she got up on her elbows and I could tell from the flush that came over her neck and breasts that when she saw my cock in a condom that the sight turned her on. Her pussy squelched as she pushed her toy in deeper and with that I took her hand off it and I took control of it.

Of course seeing her spread like this so turned on and ******* turned me on incredibly. Knowing she was hot and horny like this with me was making me wicked hard and for a bit there I'd forgotten about the condom, that is until I reached down and stroked my cock up and down between her spread pussy lips. At that moment the reality that I wasn't going to feel her till next week hit me. At the same time I looked down and saw her toy buried in her and as I pulled it gently back out of her the next thought that went through my mind was of Ray doing this same thing to her.

The thought and knowledge that he was going to do so bare and he was going to cum in her (unlike me in my condom) it turned me on incredibly, amazingly so. I reached into her night-stand and took out some lubricant and put it on the condom and with that I pushed into her gently.

She moaned that she needed me to go slow and I will also admit that it bothered me that I couldn't feel how hot and swollen she must have right then. I sensed she was feeling a little weary but she moaned nonetheless and a moment or two later she pulled her knees back for me and closed her eyes. Within a few more moments her pussy became very slick as I felt her body shake a bit under me and I realized she must have just cum. As she did, her pussy opened up and if there is a feeling that the word heaven comes close to, it's how her pussy felt at that moment.

She moaned things but they didn't register, my brain was too focused on thinking of her being like this away with him. It was that thought plus the awesome feel of her pussy that pushed me over and, damn, if I didn't cum like a fountain again! I’d hooked her legs around my arms and I knew she'd cum from how limp she was under me and the look on her face as she opened her eyes and looked up at me. We shared the moment together.

As soon as I could catch my breath, she knew I needed to pull out of her. We could both see the condom tip was full and it was oozing back up the sides as I pulled out of her before I softened up. After that kind of orgasm, there's no way my cock was staying hard for long.!

She giggled when she saw the mess left when I pulled it off my cock and said, "if I didn't know any better I'd think you were enjoying this" and with that she pushed me off her.

We lay there together before she took the used condom from me and leaned over and sucked clean my cock. I certainly didn't expect that and I got up on my own elbows as she gently licked up as much of my cum as she could. She kissed me and snowballed for moment before amidst laughs and giggles from both of us she said, "we ought to get cleaned up".

What I can add from Sunday night is that we slept naked together and that I know we felt very close with each other which really was great. Before we nodded off she whispered in my ear, "are you going to be okay this week?" Before I could answer she said, "I suppose you could have a quickie on Thursday."

All I could say was, "that would be nice".

After 3 pretty intense nights of sex in a row, I'm very happy to take tonight off.


She surprised me today when she told me she'd taken a long lunch and had met Ray during that time. She giggled when she told me about it and said that she wanted to be playful and to have a ‘nooner’.

I was a bit surprised and asked, "Ahem; How did you manage all afternoon?"

She smiled, "you know me, always resourceful" and then she added that the ladies room at work still have things for that time of the month.

I am a bit surprised at how forward and uninhibited she is becoming. I don't know if I'm going to last till Thursday....


For now though she's off to bed and I'm feeling wired about it all. It all seems kind of surreal right now, as if it's all a mix of everything all at once in my head. I thought I would be much more up-tight about it but, if anything, I feel even more calm than the last time they went away. It's weird to think that in a way I want her to do it and to then come home and let me know how it was and tell me everything.

I can't deny that there's the other, negative, side of this. I don't fear the extreme but of course there is a bit of angst at knowing what she wants from him. I suppose there is a certain amount of anxiety at thinking what a more desiring guy might encourage and bring out in her.

All I know is that I want to wait for her tomorrow night instead of giving into my urges right now. She told me she will see him again tomorrow but that will be it until they arrive in Atlantc City on Friday afternoon; her sharing that thought before she went to bed is why I'm awake right now....


It’s 11:30pm and Suzanna kicked me out of the bedroom as she wanted to get to sleep and I was restless and wired. I shouldn't say kicked, it was more like 'suggested' that I leave but as I left she called out that when I was ready to sleep I should come back in and snuggle up with her.

She had given me a recap of when she did see Ray in the afternoon, as she'd said she would. I knew I'd be horny knowing that and I expected it would certainly help my getting off later on. She teased me about, "Ray having me so much" that by the time we got into bed and would begin our Wednesday night routine, I was ready to burst.

As we kissed she took my hand and put it on her pussy and pushed my finger towards her wet hole. As I slid it all around she teased me asking me if I could feel the mess Ray left in her earlier. The last time she'd let me play with her pussy she asked me to stay on the outside but not last night. As I licked and probed her pussy with my finger she said in this sexy voice, "you can push inside if you want" and so I did.

It was a really weird moment for me. Her pussy felt so wet and open and it sort of hit me that it was all from Ray and that both really gave me this sick feeling in my stomach, the thought of my shy wife of just a few years ago now having a regular lover, it just struck me and for a moment I was lost in my own thoughts. I would like to say that it turned me on but, honestly, at that moment, it was just a weird feeling. She moved up on her elbows and I guess saw my look on my face seeming like I was lost in thought and she whispered, "come up here and kiss me".

That took me out of my little trance and a moment later I climbed up onto her and we began kissing passionately. After a moment her t-shirt was bunched up just below her breasts and I'd slid off my boxers and the tip of my cock was enjoying the wet feeling toying with her pussy.

What surprised me totally was when I pushed up from her on my outstretched arms, she reached over and pulled out a condom and handed it to me and said, "I want to be with you tonight, I want to feel you".

I loved hearing that and as I got the condom open and started she added, "I want you to feel how I feel".

A moment later even through the condom I could feel what felt like a slippery glove. At that moment I felt intoxicated. She felt it too, she pulled me close to her and with my cock buried in her we kissed again passionately for what seemed like minutes before just a moment later that we were in the midst of a frantic fuck. It took but a moment and I was feeling her writhe in pleasure beneath me, spurring me on and in seconds we both came almost simultaneously. It was totally intense to let loose in her and to feel her follow.

Afterwards she said even through the condom she could feel me cum. I thought she was going to say more so I just said, "... and?"

She took a deep breath and said, "Thinking of you like that was what made me cum with you".

I just held her deeply and all I said was, "make sure you come home afterwards, okay?”

She knew what I meant and just said, "Always and forever" which I loved to hear as a spontaneous answer.

I asked her what was up with us having sex on a Wednesday and she said, "I thought you'd appreciate it." then she added, "I want you again tomorrow (Thursday) too". I rolled over to her and said it wasn't necessary and that I'd be okay waiting if that’s what she wanted. Her reply was, "well, if you don't ..." to which I interjected, "no - I didn't say that".

Her response was a giggle and a hug and a whisper, "tomorrow will be good for you too".


This evening, after we'd come home from having eating dinner out with a bottle of wine, we spent some time with our ******** and we all caught up on the day. Once again I reminded her about mom going away to see her old college roommate. She gave the usual teenage response saying, “Uh huh,” before going off to her bedroom to busy herself in homework.

Suzanna and I went upstairs and I thought we were going to possibly have sex earlier or something but instead she asked me if I wanted to help her pack saying, "... and then, mmmm, then we can have some fun".

For the next 20-30 minutes she went through what she thought she'd need to take with her. She'd picked out a few camisoles, some plain panties and some shirts and pants. I thought she'd spare me from showing off the lingerie but I was wrong. She held up several pairs of very skimpy or lacy panties against her waist and asked me "how do you think these look on me?”

I suggested she try them on and she giggled and nodded and for the next half an hour she went in and out of our bathroom literally putting on each piece of lingerie and asking my opinion of them. It was very sexy to see her come out 4 or 5 times in a row with a different pair of panties on.

In the end, with me sitting with a bloated cock showing my approvals, together we selected what she'd pack or, rather, what she selected with me conveying my thoughts as a yea or a nay. I think she brought 4 skimpy/sexy panties including one of which has a front that is completely open lace. She picked out one bra that reveals most of her nipples when she wears it and I know there was a Teddy or two which she teased me about how, “... they snap in the crotch for easy access".

I was actually starting to think maybe we weren't having sex tonight as I saw that it was now after 10pm but no sooner had we said good night to our ******** it was almost comical how we both responded when we closed our bedroom door! Clothes went flying and Suzanna handed me a condom and told me to, "Have fun baby".

I was all excited at first but then I will say that my head was going in the wrong direction as I started to think of her going away with him and all that time they'll be together again. She must have felt me lose track a little bit and she pulled me back in a positive direction when she whispered in my ear, "I'm going to miss you too."

With her saying just that one little thing, I knew she understood where my head was and that made a huge difference to me. She pulled me closer to her and whispered, "I want to cum with you again; make love to me".

Does she know me or what? At that moment, hearing her say that gave me such an awesome feeling and a moment later we found a rhythm; oh boy, did we find a rhythm? There were cries of ‘more more’ and to be honest for a big part of our time together it mattered not that I had a condom on as I think we both just lost track of it and were much more focused on each other. I'd thought she'd have wanted me to be gentle with her but it was actually a bit of the opposite; she wanted passionate physical lovemaking. Once I realized that, our rhythms meshed perfectly till once again, we both came almost simultaneously with her following me shortly afterwards.

I stayed in her as long as I could until she ‘sneezed me out’ which brought giggles from both of us and, again, she hugged me deeply and kissed me. After we broke the kiss she sat up and quickly offered to help take the condom off of me. I knew what she wanted and wasn't surprised to hear her comment on, "how much you're cumming these last few times," and "oooh it's so warm, even hot".

We lay there afterwards and talked a bit and she again told me that this is just something she wants to do for herself. I hugged her and repeated my earlier wishes about her coming home afterwards and she repeated her reply of ‘always and forever’.

After a few minutes of TV I knew she was dozing off and when I moved or changed the TV channel, she booted me out!


I think I feel a little numb to it all right now. Not sure if that makes sense. I know the thought of my wife going away with her lover for 3 nights should make me feel differently than it does but it doesn't. I am most definitely turned on thinking about the sexual part of it but I thought I'd perhaps feel more angst than I do. I guess that not feeling threatened by Ray is probably a big part of it.

I'm sure that come this time tomorrow night I'll be up late for a different reason but, right now, I think I am finally feeling tired and am now going to turn in and cuddle up with her as she'd suggested.


Last night was so nice; this morning was a bit awkward and I could tell Suzanna wanted to have some time with me before she left. She reminded our ******** of the plans for the weekend and once again got a vague, "oh yeah, is that this weekend?" reply. It was just after our ******** was off for school, Suzanna sat next to me and we talked for a few minutes. She seemed genuinely concerned that I was going to be okay. I told her and eventually convinced her that I'd be okay. Her conversation immediately went to thanking me for letting her do this. I hugged her tight and told her that I hoped she'd find what she was looking for and then I kissed her and added, "be sure to bring some home to share with me!” I said it without really thinking about it as I was thinking to bring home her enjoyment but I immediately realized what it must have sounded like. She smiled in response and said, "I'm sure you'll share with me baby".

We went back up to the bedroom and as she went about her business we talked a bit more. She told me a little more of their schedule and they are going to do something other than stay in the room all weekend. She said he got tickets for some shows for 2 of the nights and she showed me a nicer dress she was going to bring. Nothing too sexy but she will look nice in it and I admit I got a erotic feeling thinking of her getting ready and getting dressed with him instead of me.

I guess I was lost in my own daydream world for a bit when she confused me by coming to sit next to me on the bed and asked, "should I leave them home this time?"

I didn't realize what she was talking about until I saw her hand outstretched and her rings glinting in the light. I gave a start, swallowed deeply and said, "what do you think?" but before she could answer added, "I am okay if you do."

I guess she saw I was smiling as I said it and she moved over next to me and said, "okay, you take them off me".

I swear I had a hard-on as I took her hand in mine and pulled her rings off. As I slid them off her finger all the way I told her in as calm a voice as I could, "have a good time".

I know I had, like always, second thoughts about this but I will say that as I closed my hand around them, I was incredibly turned on by it. In my head, just as I'm sure in Suzanna's, it was clear that from that moment on, she was his. Is it possible that she looked even more sexy after I kissed her; did she suddenly seem more curvy; were her breasts that big a minute before; did she have that sexy look in her eyes?

I knew she was going to be leaving in just a few minutes and that I was about to get dressed but I waited. I sat there looking at her as she fidgeted in the bathroom and picked out the makeup she wanted to take and, sure enough, a few minutes later she stood in front of me like a different person. No longer my wife but instead this sexy beautiful woman who was off for a weekend of sex with her lover and the crazy thing was at that moment I so wanted her to go. Not because I wanted her to leave but because I wanted to hear from her while she was away and, mostly, because I wanted her standing in front of me like this on Monday so I can undress her and she can be mine again. Crazy that all of that flashed through my head in the few seconds she stood before me.

I admit it wasn't easy watching her finish packing her bag and putting in the last few items and then closing it. When she left, the last kiss was tough too. No matter how much I love her fucking Ray and what it's done for us, that moment was still hard for me.

Well, that's it, I’ve just watched out of the bedroom window to see her pulled out of the driveway to head over to Ray’s and what's the first thing I see, even before I start writing this? It's the used condom in the trash in the bathroom. Oh wow, did that get my head to swirl even more.


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Time to begin a new book.

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