Journal of a Journey - Book 85

I lay in bed last night stroking myself and enjoying the arousal at trying to think of how to tell Paul. In the end, I decided to just go for it and tell him that we enjoy denial-play a lot and that as part of it, that I'll be using condoms with her. In my head I'm going to play it up that this is something that excites me to give to Suzanna because I am aware it excites and intensifies what she's doing.

I'm hoping to keep it simple without going too far, also I'm hoping that once I start that it becomes easier to say or, better, that Suzanna joins the conversation and helps ease it along. Also, I'm not sure but I guess I'm going to stick around Paul's place while they have some fun together. I wish I could 'see' how that is going to be after I/we tell him what she wants me to tell him.

I guess I knew this day was approaching and now it's here.

As the time to tell gets closer I am also growing more and more aware of the date. We have always shared a Christmas-eve-fuck so I am figuring at least two times over this weekend, then (and I'm actually a little nervous typing this) I am hoping for two more times on New Year’s Eve as being our final time bare for now. So I'm figuring that is just five more time I'll have her bare before the new year gets here.


I'm not completely sure of how I am hoping Paul will be after I tell him. I don't particularly see him taking an aggressive/dominant or being more of a bull-type. That would probably be good for me, but at the same point I can say that I wouldn't be upset if he did so a bit as I think I could appreciate/enjoy it a bit. It's actually Suzanna's attitude I'm more curious about and how she'll evolve as part of this. I know that she started to push a bit more in terms of what she shares with me like she has mentioned the stuff that I formerly found 'icky' to hear about. I think she knows that in some ways those parts are uncomfortable but also at the same time incredibly arousing to me. I hope that I find it easier as I do want to hear it more from her but I also hope that she finds a way to do it, tease or taunt, that doesn't hurt. I'd like her to feel like she can share more of what is going on with me, especially as a way of, in my head, supplementing to bring us that closeness and excitement/angst/tension that I am loving.


I'm getting a bit nervous. Suzanna should be home in about another hour or so and we'll then head up to Paul's. She's said that it'll be good for me to get to know him better and see where he lives and such before I get around to telling him too. I think that as long as we present it as something we both want to do, that should hopefully make it all easier.


Last night was awkward at first but Suzanna really eased the conversation and I told him that as it is something that turns both of us on, that I'm going to begin using condoms with her in the new year. I actually started it out by saying that I found myself turned on by feeling a bit jealous and envious at being denied and told him it was something we'd done before but now that we felt comfortable with him, that we both wanted to try it again.

He was a bit puzzled at first until she told him that, "giving you something he doesn't get to have turns him on." She explained a bit more about how it makes her feel to know that I am wanting and enjoying this (her emphasizing that it's what I wanted). He said something about it wasn't what he expected but as he thought about it and Suzanna turned to him and added, "it'll make things really hot between us" and he came back and sort of said, "if that's what you guys want".

She waited until after the awkward discussion was over before she left to go and, as she put it, "get more comfortable". As we opened our beers we both knew what she would come back wearing. At one point he said a 'thank-you' to me and said he thought it mustn't have been easy. I told him it was something that seemed to intensify things between Suzanna and I and he said that he could see that since coming to see how the two of us are together. He laughed and said that he hadn't met 2 people who were as open-minded sexually as we seemed to be. It did ease the talking and he seemed to get more comfortable telling me how hot he thought it was that Suzanna would be so open to being with him and said that he thought it was crazy that she was going to come down almost naked and hang out with us. I told him what he already knew, that it helped her get in a totally sexual mood for him and that it turned me on to see it happen to her. He called me 'quite a husband' as she came back down but when she came in we went speechless for a moment.

She stood there, yes, with just his dress-shirt on but only 2 buttons buttoned such that her breasts were almost on display and that the shirt just came together to barely cover her pussy. As she walked towards us, we could see all of her. She giggled at our open-mouthed silence and said, "Carry on, don't let me stop you".

I don't have time for all the details but suffice to say that I watched Paul pleasure Suzanna until she was limp and motionless beneath him after he brought her to an intense writing post-cum orgasm that may have even eclipsed what she's felt with me. I suspect the whole evening had really let her let go.

She lay there afterwards limp and almost barely breathing. Paul looked at me and said, "that was awesome" and she responded with a barely audible 'uh huh' just laying there letting both of us look at her.

It was an awkward moment for both of us and I was actually kind of concerned about what he might say at that moment but he turned to me and I was relieved when he said, "as long as you're cool with this, I'm okay man". At that moment Suzanna seemed to struggle to rise up onto her elbows and as she still laid there she deliberately spread her legs so that I could see Paul’s cum ooze out of her.

I brought her home after they'd had another round together about 1:30am. She was barely awake but at the same time was eager to offer me 'one more time with her'.

I know, that meant maybe only 4x more.


Yesterday after we had shared with Paul what we wanted he responded with some distance and seemed to give the initial impression that it's a 'if that gets you off, it's okay with me' kind of response so I'm not totally sure that he fully understands the 'gift' he's being given just yet.

On the other hand, he surely enjoyed himself with Suzanna. She's even commented on how intensely she felt him that night and suggested that I had a role in that whether he consciously responded or not. She giggled and said, "… whatever, it felt awesome!"

I know that I probably shouldn't have bothered her but she genuinely wanted me when we got home and I was honestly nervous undressing her. Fortunately our son was out and our ******** was asleep. She was quite messy but when I went to go down on her she pulled me up and said, "Be quick, I've only have enough for one more time".

I know that I probably should have left her alone and waited but, honestly, I was too horny and she seemed to genuinely want me. She told me she wanted me to feel good and that she probably wouldn't cum with me but that she wanted me to. She teased me about how she felt and how much Paul had cum in her; she knew it turned me on to hear.

It didn't take me long, especially when she said she was serious that I should just be quick. It sort of turned me on that this might be how it is in the not too distant future. She knew what I was thinking about and reminded me that I should enjoy it

I knew it was a trade-off when on that Christmas Eve she confirmed she was surely too sore and 'tired down there' to think of having more sex with me but she did promise that other than seeing (hopefully) him again next Tuesday, "just like this past one" that she wouldn't turn me down if I wanted her and she told me she wanted it to be good for me.

She offered to keep me company and 'help"' if I wanted to masturbate but I told her that I would rather enjoy fucking her as much as I can. Keeping her promise, she was quite the partner last night and, yes, at the end as we lay in bed last night enjoying the last of another Christmas day which ending having sex, she did turn to me and tell me again that I should enjoy myself, "these last few times".

We talked more today about her seeing him next week and she says that she thinks I should be happy that she wants to see him, "especially if he's the one who's going to be pleasuring me in the future". She pulled me close and kissed me and giggled when she felt my cock had gotten harder and said, "we'll talk about it later".


I have felt again different in my relationship with Suzanna. I know that I have said it before but I enjoy how I feel now that I've begun to reveal this more openly to them both. She's said that she wants us to get together again next Tuesday evening and she's already telling me that I should tell Paul more and open up more; she says she can sense a difference between us that she is enjoying feeling. When I asked her to tell me more she just said that she is enjoying relating with me without having to assume sex will be a part of it. I asked her to explain more but she just said that she is sorting things out in her head and that she is enjoying what is happening. Again, she's been very open about things in general, even about next Tuesday, I was surprised by last week's request but now am ready to see him again and to see how things go.


It's interesting the perspective that I have conveyed as it's not what I truly felt. I thought that with what I told him that Paul understood that this denial was something we enjoyed but it seems it's something that perhaps he can't yet get his arms around. I suggested to Suzanna that maybe I should find some Penthouse stories that might show a scene or situation that I would enjoy. She thought it was a good idea so perhaps later tonight we'll look together and maybe even read some stories during foreplay.

She's made it quite clear also that tonight will leave me with two or maybe three more times bare with her and she took a lot of pains to start to ask me about how I am comfortable with this happening. At first I didn't know what she was asking but now I am starting to think she is thinking the same as I am, how do I want the 3 of us to interact with each other? In this sense, yeah, if Paul was a more dominant kind of guy, it might be a lot easier as he'd simply assume the alpha-role and things would happen from there.

Paul's response so far, even confirmed by Suzanna, is that he's still taking a 'whatever you guys are into' attitude so I am sure that is partly why Suzanna wants to do Tuesday with me again. I am getting the feeling that she wants to tell him more than just the condom-thing.

That said, I can now say that since coming-out more to them (Paul especially, last week) that I feel again much more at ease sexually. I can't fully explain it but for me knowing it is going to happen has made it a lot less of a weight. I know that come midnight Wednesday night that I will be giving up feeling my wife bare for the indeterminate future. My cock is continually dripping pre-cum whenever I let myself think about it. I already know that it's going to be a bit more emotional this time too than the last time so I'm getting myself ready for that too.


I know she wants me to enjoy these last few times bare with her and I have the most intense arousal at thinking about it. I cannot describe feeling what I do knowing what we are going to do other than to say that everything makes me feel so much more aware and conscious about things. I have begun to take exquisite notice of our touches as I begin to feel her getting wet as we fuck and then to feel the changes in her as her own arousal grows, the wetness and the stickiness of her own juices. It is an incredible feeling knowing there are just 3 nights left but it makes it so much more arousing, seeing and feeling it, knowing I won't be feeling it in the future. It just does something to me, something as crazy as this that I am giving this up with her because it turns me on. Crazy maybe, but it does.

The last thing that I think has now come full-circle is that she's definitely backed away from the edge in terms of how our talk about full-denial will work. As I've said I now feel more secure in her mentions of about truly and fully giving herself to Paul has changed. She now seems to talk about it as something that will happen intuitively when it is natural to do so but it will also be limited in time. Just the way she's talking about still needing to feel connected to me is part of it, but she's also said that she understands the fulfilment I feel using condoms and she says that she doesn't want to take that away from me.

I will say that hearing us now able to talk more openly and calmly about this stuff is nothing new as I've felt this way before but it always feels new to me when I guess it's new things that we are able to share and talk about.

I think what's helping me along is that she too is opening up about things and letting me know things about herself, that's making it seem like we're in this together.


I had some fun earlier this afternoon looking at some videos online and I came across one that left me very much feeling like I was watching Suzanna and Paul. There are some similarities in the woman in the video to Suzanna including her overall size and demeanour but also very much in terms of how she sounds and that the woman liked 'missionary' best. The way they kiss as they fuck and how into it was very much how Suzanna is with Paul including how comfortable she is at the end, calm after he's cum in her. I haven't been quite this close to the action but close enough that it could be Suzanna as her pussy is very similarly shaped and equally hairless and looks just as luscious when it's wet. The woman looks very similar facially too, her hair is a bit straighter and her face has a younger look but they look so so similar as she cums with him in the video and just how Suzanna is in general with Paul.

The cameraman taking the video speaks to them all the while giving encouragement; I can't say I've ever done that, speaking to them as he does, but it's something I'd like to try and be comfortable with as things continue.

Needless to say, I will enjoy this video in the future.


The plan is for us to repeat last Tuesday. Suzanna all but admitted last night that even after an active weekend with me in bed that she still wanted to see him today. She told me it wasn't that I hadn't left her satisfied, but more that she wanted to be with Paul and wanted to give him a 'present' for New Years just as she'd done for Christmas. When we talked about it she teased me that I would want to wait till Wednesday night anyway and she kissed me and said, "besides, you'll be that much hornier for me this way" … and she's right.

Plus, I will admit that I want to talk to him a bit more too. I’m not sure that I'm going to disclose everything, but I would like to make sure things are cleared up. To be honest, one thing I want to be sure about is that Paul realizes the opportunity and the situation that he is now in.

Suzanna said that he seems to still be a little distant about what all of this means and it hasn't helped that they haven't been together to talk in person since last Tuesday. I've thought about what I want to tell Paul and what I want to convey is that we both trust him to not so much fulfil a role but to understand what is going on and what Suzanna and I are both looking for.

I'm not sure I want to tell him outright that he will eventually assume the alpha-role with her but I do want to convey that we both want to experience her desiring him more and me less. Whether I get to the 'eventually' part is something I'm not sure about just yet.


Suzanna says that she's told him about our earlier fun with condoms when she was seeing Robert; I don't know in what detail but she did tell him that we've played like this before. She said he still doesn't quite realize things, that he still didn't 'get it' and added the tease to me, " … you know, like me really cumming with him hard like that" and him to know that she will only be feeling that with him.

What she has said is that he likes that we are playful and open sexually and that he told her that he had, "always wanted to do something like this", not so much cuckolding, but him having a very open-minded girlfriend. So, at least from that perspective, I thought it answered some of the questions about what he's thinking.


It's funny as at one point I was considering sending her over his place without me tonight but after seeing that video the other day and hearing the 'husband' talking to the other guy, it did sort of help me identify what I would like to be able to say and do with Paul. I'm not sure if I want to or if we'll ever get to the point where we'll be talking as he's actually fucking her but I would like it to be more relaxed and far more open between us and for him to more openly talk and even do more with Suzanna. It may sound weird but I would so love to see the 2 of them start out on his living room couch and to see and watch their passions rise to the point where they'd move to the bedroom. I don't know if that will happen; I just enjoy knowing that she is so horny with him.

It's interesting that, at least in my head, I see changes in Suzanna's desires as maybe being related to my own, that maybe my being more relaxed and confident about what we're doing is making her feel the same way; perhaps time has just provided more clarity for us both. I'll say it again, that I don't know why denying myself like this turns me on, but I will no longer question that it does.


I did think about whether I should begin to use a bit of medical help, you know, like Cialis? To be honest, I know it is going to sound crazy but a part of me wants to feel my hard cock start to soften after sex with her tomorrow night (maybe after the 2nd round!). I know it sounds weird and crazy but a part of me so wants to feel my cock start to go limp and slip out of her this one last time. Man, does that get me horny to think about that.


I know that we will have at most two more times when we'll fuck bare. It has me hard right now thinking about it. I see the box of condoms in her night-stand virtually every day and I know that just 36 or so hours from now may be the last time I feel her pussy bare for a while. I haven't told her as it scares me to think about it but a part of me wonders if she might or we might go all of next year without me going bare with her. I don't know, there are just so many ways it can go. I will say that I really want to try to keep track of it, how many times I have sex with her and how many times he does. I get so horny when I think about it....

I don't know where it's all going - we have sort of agreed to that, not trying to over-think things in terms of the future. I've thought of lots of things as I'm sure she has but I think we know that there's not much point to trying to plan anything. Perhaps one day we will talk about it all but for now we are comfortable in what we've told each other and even about things that are a bit beyond that. I know she's thought about lots of possibilities.

For me, I've thought about 'what if', what if Paul stays in the picture and becomes more than a friend-with-benefits in a relationship that goes on for more than the year-and-a-half-max that I've seen from Suzanna for the past 7 years with other lovers. What if he's around for years?

Is that where Suzanna's comments about 'many couples use condoms all their lives...' comes from? If and when she may want to do more denying me (we talked about maybe by the summer) but what-if the kids do come home this summer; what if she likes truly denying me; what if I like it? Then there's always the 'what-ifs' about Paul, what if he does become a bit more aggressive or dominant?

But without having a road-map for any of that, all Suzanna and I are focused on is tonight and tomorrow night.


It is 4:30pm and she just texted me that she's leaving work in a few minutes. That should put her home just after 5pm and after grabbing a bite on the way (she mentioned pizza) we'll be at Paul's by about 6:30pm.

I have been horny all day long thinking about this. Horny thinking of that and about a million other thoughts.....


I shared some thoughts with Suzanna while we drove. I suggested that he may still be a bit freaked out, ".. so why not just tell him that we have talked a lot about things and I am going to step back a bit so she can enjoy him on a different level? Why not just tell him he can feel free to treat her more as his girlfriend and not just a friend he hooks up with?" I said that by being less direct and beating around the bush (no pun intended) with Paul, we might be doing more harm than good. I suggested that she can then fill him in on the specifics during their alone time so when we get there why don’t I introduce; let her close the deal.

She was very receptive to this idea of how we portray the situation. She still felt it was important that I lead the way as she is sure it is what's given Paul the level of comfort that we all seem to have, she is convinced that my being up front with Paul is what's led him to relax about everything as she said he was quite anxious early on about how things would be with me. She assured me that she would be right there with me and that she also recognized after my comments that she wanted him to know that this isn't just my desires too.

We shared a bite to eat on the way and I was surprised that I was even hungry as I had a knot in my stomach and a hard-on in my pants the whole time.

We got to Paul's maybe about 6:45pm. He was very cordial at the door, shook my hand and wished me a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year and as I passed him he stopped Suzanna and gave her quite the greeting that really left me feeling like maybe he's coming up to speed with all of this. He was far from reserved in how he kissed and hugged her and how she responded! I actually felt a bit odd standing there for a second waiting until they ended their kiss and he said he'd take our coats. What did turn me on was that he acted as if it was nothing to passionately kiss Suzanna like that. It made me feel better about what I hoped to tell him.

Paul poured us all some wine and we talked about the holidays. As we shared what we'd done, who we'd seen, what presents we'd each gotten. I joked with him about having gotten his present early from us the week before which did sort of break the ice and shifted our conversation to have a more sexy overtone.

Paul asked if I'd been a good-boy and I told him that Santa-Suzanna had surely taken care of me very well. It was funny at the moment and definitely made us all feel more at ease with each other. Over snacks and some hor-d'oevures we continued to drink a little more and Suzanna shared how she was wearing some of the clothes that I'd bought her and she seemed thrilled about the pocketbook I bought her as if it were something so significant. I know Paul and I looked at each other and rolled our eyes at not understanding what she was excited about. He showed us some of the toys he'd received and how his kids had bought him a new TV thing that let him do some internet stuff without a computer; he said it was good when he travelled.

After about 45 minutes of idle talk, there was a somewhat noticeable rise in sexual tension in the room. While Suzanna was out of the room for a moment I told Paul that she'd been talking a lot about him and that she seemed happy. He said something like, "she's made me very happy too". I was going to say more to him and get things started when Suzanna came back sooner than I expected only this time she sat next to him on the arm of the chair he was sitting in instead of next to me on the couch. She casually touched his back and neck and he put his hand on her leg as we continued to talk about plans for the next few days and we shared that our kids would likely be back sometime on Thursday and that we were having some of Suzanna's ****** over for dinner. He shared a bit of his plans and I watched his hand as we talked about the weather and it getting colder and hopefully skiing soon.

After she'd sat next to him like that for about 5-10 minutes, it was clear that they were getting into it. His hand had risen a bit higher on her thigh and she had hers in his hair and was giving him a somewhat sexy massage as we talked. I was going to start 'the talk' with him when she announced that she was again going to, "leave you boys alone while I go get comfortable".

It actually was a great segue for me. We both knew where she was going and how she was going to be dressed (or undressed) when she came back. So while she was out of the room I turned to Paul and started 'the talk'.

We followed up on my suggestion on the opener and I told him that Suzanna and I had talked and just that, just as was mentioned from the prior week, that I was going to continue to step back and let Suzanna better focus on enjoying him. I told him that it wasn't an easy or an overnight decision but something we'd talked about and yes, I said it, I told him that it was something I'd wanted to experience. I said it to him, "… her really wanting another guy sexually".

I was surprised I said it so calmly and easily. He kind of sat back and his body language definitely indicated his surprise. He asked what I meant and I told him that I didn't mind it if he did more with Suzanna and I came out and told him that it turned me on that she was so horny for him. Before she came back in the room I continued and told him that we were going through with what we told him the prior week in terms of condoms and I told him that was like what I meant, that it was something that I knew would make her feel more with him.

He was all questions; What did I mean about doing more? I told him that it was really up to Suzanna but that I was okay if their time together was a bit more intense and I alluded to him fulfilling her more sexually. He asked me about what I was thinking and started to ask me if he could ask her to go out with him on a date somewhere.

I told him yes, again as long as it's what she wanted.

He asked me if he could take her places or to events? I asked him what he meant and mentioned that we still needed to be discrete but that there was nothing wrong with 2 friends doing things. He laughed and said he understood but asked me again if he could, for example, ask her to join him for dinner or out to the movies, etc. It was my turn to laugh and I said, "yeah, if she'd ever do that with you or if she'd rather just stay here". We both laughed at that and I do think it was a huge step forward.

He did ask me about what I meant by stepping back and it was a moment when I steeled my courage up and I actually came out and told him that it would mean her focusing her sexual desires on him more than me. Yes, I said, "more than me" and not, "instead of me". I realized this after I'd said it but just didn't back and change it. He smiled at me and said something about, "okay …. I can see that".

I had just told him again that I really enjoyed seeing her with him and he was saying that he was still getting used to that when she came back in the room and again she struck us both speechless. This time she hadn't changed into one of his shirts; she came back in wearing just a thin stretchy camisole that came down to just over her butt. Her nipples were not only clearly visible colour-wise through the thin white top but, my god, were they every so hard. The top clung to her enough that you could not just see her nipples but also the raised bumpy areolas around them. As she sat next to Paul on the chair's arm again I had a clear view of her pussy on display. Paul couldn't see it from where he sat but when he moved his hand up her thigh, as his hand touched her bare pussy she moaned softly and leaned downward towards him. She looked at me and said, "so, what are my hunky guys talking about behind my back?" and then she turned to Paul and said in a sexy voice, "… what's my honey getting used to?”

I was the one who answered, "that I like seeing you two together". She looked up at me and said, "oh, like this?" and smiled and turned such that she slid off the arm of the chair into his lap ending up sitting sideways on him with her legs over the arm of the chair and her arms now around him as she pulled him in for another kiss.

I was speechless!!! Honestly, the thought in my head was, "don't say a thing … let this play out".

As they embraced he leaned down and their kiss became more passionate and within a matter of what was probably just a few seconds she slowly spread her legs apart and as they kissed, he simply reached out and began touching her pussy. She never broke the kiss with him as she slid about on his lap which I then realized was to give him more access! It wasn't until I heard her moaning that I realized he had his hand totally on her pussy and had at least one finger inside her. For a moment I don't think either of them remembered I was there at all.

When their kiss ended she turned to me and said, "we're going to the bedroom" and as if it were nothing, she stood up and put her hand out to pull Paul up with her. The camisole had bunched up when she sitting on his lap and it didn't drop back down when she stood so she was naked from the waist down as she walked out of the room. Paul turned to me and said, "you are cool with this?" and then smiled and said, "… maybe give us a few minutes?”

I said, "sure" and then I realized it was the first time he'd taken the lead.

I sat in Paul's living room and watched the two of them go upstairs to his bedroom. I could hear their commotion, Suzanna laughing, words that I couldn't make out and then more laughing. The next few moments went from laughing to the sounds of movement and then when I listened carefully, I thought I could hear the sounds of their fun starting.

I came up to the bedroom and was stunned to find Suzanna spread eagle on his bed and Paul's face buried in her pussy with one of her hands on the back of his head. Both were naked and he was hard already but what really struck me was just how natural the two of them looked, as if it was nothing at all out of the ordinary for my wife to have her lover's face buried in her pussy. The thought passed through my mind that in many ways, I guess if it isn't normal, that it will be in the future.

I got undressed and I was wicked hard but I didn't do more than just gently stroke my cock as I watched the two love-birds. She moaned and he looked up at her and she at him with her glassy 'about to cum' eyes and, sure enough, a moment later I watched as she orgasmed as he licked away at her. I was so horny hearing him say things like, "you taste so good .." and something about, "....liking making you cum like that...." I later realized he knew I was there and was saying things at Suzanna's encouragement that she’d told him, "he doesn't mind, actually really likes that". Again I felt that incredible moment of pride when he pulled away from her and I saw just how beautiful she looked beneath him, her pert breasts, flat (well, flatter) stomach and then her pussy spread wide and drenched from her sweetness and his tongue. What really turned me on was how it was just so obvious that she was his completely at that moment.

My focus was drawn back as I heard her say, "come on baby" and then I distinctly heard her say softly, "let him watch" or something like that.

Paul turned to me and didn't say anything but as he looked at me I managed to say, "you heard her, go for it".

It was like watching my own private porn show. My wife eagerly pulled her legs back making the target clearly visible even from where I sat. The dark pinkness of her pussy was so captivating and then, watching him rub that obscenely huge head of his cock up and down her gash, hearing her moan as he did so just right, pushing it gently into her and then bringing it up and rubbing it at her clit, each time he moved it up and down she looked wetter and wetter.

If they had been talking I hadn't noticed it but I did notice her gasps of breath as he began to push into her more and more each time. From where I was I could actually see him stretching her open (just as in that video) and as it went on I could see him pushing into her more and more until one time I watched as the head of his cock simply pushed into her and she let out a loud moan when she felt it. It looked so erotic as he'd pull back each time and I could see her pussy lips stretching and then he'd push back into her and her lips would come together around the more slender shaft.

By the time I took my eyes off of her being penetrated, they were in a deep passionate kiss and the thought of him fucking her while he French kissed her is something that really got to me. I'd been gently stroking myself and I was hugely hard but I knew that this was their time and that I would have to, and would want to, wait.

I can't tell everything that happened; she cried out several times how good it was and as she became more vocal so did he. For the first time I heard him moaning, "sooo good …" to her and then, becoming more explicit, "… so fucking good … you're soooo wet" and then to hear him say "... I love feeling you cum..." was just incredible to me. She did look over at me with glazed eyes but she did smile when she saw me and looked and saw that I was hard but she almost immediately closed her eyes and lay her head back against his pillow. If anything, she even seemed to give herself more to him, whether it was pulling her knees back more or subtly pushing up at him each time he fucked into her.

As with many of the times I have been with them, I have no idea how long they were at it. I knew she'd cum at least 2-3 times by the time I started to pay closer attention to them. She was grunting with each deep thrust he was taking and I watched him keep himself buried deep in her a bit longer and longer with each thrust. Every time I heard him moan along with her I could almost see him thrusting a bit harder and deeper each time. I am guessing I'd been there for at least 15-20 minutes by then and now, even I could tell that he was getting close. She began to say things to him like 'deeper' and 'harder' and at one point I chimed in, "yeah, give it to her". Neither responded to what I'd say though.

I could have jerked-off and cum at any point and if I wasn't hard and horny enough already, seeing, hearing and, yes, smelling them was only making it worse, but I didn't. I barely touched my cock, instead I let myself go and enjoy the moment of seeing my wife pleasured yet again. As their fucking continued they both began to get more vocal, not so much words but grunts and moans. I could see the shaft of his cock was getting wetter as I watched and I knew that she was responding. I just knew that when I saw him slam into her hard enough that I could hear his balls slap against her butt, that he was buried in her as deep as he could be. I don't know what I specifically was thinking about but I know that at that moment, thinking about him being literally balls-deep in her, that it turned me on incredibly. But, as I said, even I could tell he was getting close and soon enough, it was obvious that Suzanna knew too. It was so erotic to see her reach her hand around beneath her and to see her fingers caressing his balls and shaft that I was captivated and I held my breath watching him take one last plunge into her and then stay buried deep; I watched his back arch and his butt clench at least 4 or 5 times and fortunately I'd taken my hand off my cock or I'd have probably cum right along with her. I've said it before and I do mean it, I felt a tear or two in my eyes as I saw Suzanna respond intensely to him cumming in her.

It was obvious that he's well practiced now because while previously he may have held somewhat still in her as he came in her, a moment later I watched him now really start to thrust deeply into her and continue! Her pussy became a frothy mess and sure enough, a moment later with him now in a passionate rhythm with her, I moved a little closer when I realized she was about to cum herself, again. With his last few thrusts into her she let loose into a gut-wrenching scream that accompanied an orgasm that for a second left both Paul and I even a bit scared at how she trembled and shook beneath him as he continued to gently fuck her.

I felt my own cock throbbing but left it alone and instead, focused on Suzanna and the aftermath of her climax. Paul looked at me a bit sheepish as she lay there almost unmoving with his cock still buried in her. I smiled at him and said, "looks like you made her happy" to which he smiled back at me and leaned down to hug her and hold her.

I stayed there almost motionless, I didn't want to interrupt a thing, but finally I saw life returning as she kissed him back gently and a moment later move up onto his outstretched arms. He turned to me and said, "she said you wanted to be here for this" and with that he began to move his body away from hers still buried in her pussy.

Her eyes finally opened and she moaned loudly as he pulled out of her and he leaned back to let me look at her. He pulled back and there was nothing other than the shaft of his cock visible at first until he pulled back further which brought a dribble of cum out of her and then, my god, when he pulled all the way out I could see her pussy was filled with whitish cum all around.

Once he pulled out of her he lay on her far side with his wet cock against her upper thigh. She lay there with one leg flat on the bed and the other pulled back leaving her just-fucked pussy on display for us, well, me mainly. I guess I was staring at it in all its glory because when I looked up, both of them were looking at me. Suzanna spoke and said, "did you enjoy that baby?" and when I groaned a 'yes' she ran her finger down around her pussy and said in an incredibly sexy voice, "you'll have to wait till tomorrow to have your last time with me won't you?"

I nodded and just said, "yes," and then in a moment of extreme confidence and exuberance I added, " … that's what I want....”

They rolled towards each other and into a kiss. Her legs came together and she moved against him lying side-by-side and they embraced and kissed, again as if I wasn't even there.

They caressed each other and I felt like a 3rd-wheel again. Their kisses went from just superficial to deep French-kissing with his hand running through her hair and her moaning in response. It was still all a bit surreal, having been with them just then, and now, their being so engrossed with each other. I could see wetness on the back of her thighs up near her butt and the reality that he'd just filled her with cum set in and I just got very worked up about the reality of her lying there kissing him passionately right after he'd fucked her like that.

I was going to leave the room and give them some time alone when they ended their kiss and Suzanna rolled back onto her back. I heard her say something to him like, "... should I?"... and when he nodded yes she turned her head to me and slowly spread her legs and she asked me, "do you want to feel it?" and a second later she motioned for me to come closer to her.

I climbed onto the bed and when I lay next to her opposite Paul she took one hand and pulled my face to hers and she gave me a gentle but very intense kiss and at the same time she took my left hand and placed it on her pussy and then whispered to me, ".... see how hot I feel....." It was my turn to focus on her and not look up at Paul as I kissed her I pushed my middle finger on my left hand deep inside her. Oh my god, she was SOOOO wet inside but, even more so, she felt gaping open inside!! Her pussy lips were still tight but once my finger was inside, all I could think about was that it was his cock that had stretched her out and I struggled to keep my arousal in check. I felt all around in her, even pushed in a second finger until I could take it no longer and I knew that I'd either need to stop right then or that I was either going to fuck her or jerk-off all over her.

I guess she felt the same way because just as I thought that I felt her hand reach down and take my fingers out of her and she giggled and said, "you said you'd wait till tomorrow...." and with that she turned back to Paul and pulled him in for another kiss. This time when their kiss ended it was Paul who spoke to me, "I know this turns you on and that's cool, but I was now wondering if you'd maybe leave us alone for a while". I picked up my clothes, left them to it and went downstairs.

This time I did not go back up to watch them for their second time. I heard them talking, I watched the TV for a short while figuring they knew I'd find something to do with myself or maybe, more to the point, that they didn't care. Sure enough, maybe 30-45 minutes later, I became aware of a eerie quiet from upstairs. When I walked closer to the bottom of the steps I was rewarded with hearing them get started for their second time. I'd had gotten dressed again already but as I heard them I admit that I slid my pants down and stood there at the bottom of the stairs gently stroking my cock to the muffled sounds I was hearing.

Within a little bit the sounds got louder and louder and it was soon obvious they were fucking again. I guess I felt fulfilled because this time I stood there listening but not giving into the urge to go up there and watch. No, instead, I watched them in my head and with each new sound or grunt or movement I swear I painted the most erotic picture in my head of what was going on.

Again, not sure long I stood there, I did finally hear what I thought was them getting closer and closer. I'd heard Suzanna shriek several times accompanied by Paul’s moans, I knew they were getting close and then I heard him let go with a huge grunt and even I could hear the bed moving with the last few thrusts. By then, I could hear the sounds of motion going on and sure enough, a second or two later I heard Suzanna let out the most guttural moan I've heard from her in ages and I swear I could hear the bed shaking as she let herself go into an incredible post-fuck orgasm with him. It even gave me a moment of pause amidst my arousal.

A moment later, it was quiet again. All I could think about was that this was probably how it was when she spent the night here with him and my brain focused on the two of them lying naked in bed just after they'd finished fucking with his cum filling her most intimate places.

I again fought the urge to jerk-off and I honestly had no idea what was going to happen next. I saw it was after 9pm already and yet the lights were out upstairs without even the TV on. I wondered if maybe they'd fallen asleep and I was just about to head up there when I got a text message on my phone from Suzanna. It said "give us a little more time, want to get cleaned up a bit" and so I sat back down on the couch and waited patiently with the TV on.

I heard water-running and then even the shower running. My mind was racing, were they showering together; was he soaping up her breasts; was she cleaning off his cock? When the water went off it went quiet for a while and it turned me on even more to think about them getting dried off and then dressed. Again, visions of what likely had happened in the morning following her overnight.

I guess I had let the thoughts really go and to be honest, some of them were bringing me down a bit. Then the hallway light came on and when I looked up, Suzanna was coming out of his bedroom and now walking down the stairs. She hugged me and asked if everything was okay.

I nodded and she replied, "Paul says he understands now". I wasn't sure what she was saying but she looked at me and said, "... he understand that he's the only one that I'll be doing this with in the future....”

I was confused at what she said and managed to somehow say, "what do you mean?" and she looked at me and kissed me and she giggled a tiny bit and then said, "he knows that I'll only be cumming like that with him..... he realizes that now.....".

Sure enough, just as she finished saying that to me, Paul came out of the bedroom in just his bath-robe. I was still somewhat speechless at what she'd said to me as he came down the stairs and he reached out to shake my hand. Still in a daze I held out my hand and as I shook his hand he said, "wanted to wish you a Happy New Year ...... and to tell you that I will take good care of her for you!"

She smiled at me and turned to kiss him passionately again before turning her attention to me once more and announcing, " … we should get going, baby...."

We followed Paul into the foyer where our coats where hanging up and he handed me mine and helped Suzanna on with her. I told him that I was sure we'd see him soon and again wished him a happy holiday. I turned to walk out and then turned back to find Suzanna again kissing him passionately and then I heard her tell him that they'd talk over the weekend.

The first thing she said in the car was 'thank you' to which I replied, "thanking me isn't necessary, I should be thanking you.".

We were quiet for a while in the car on the way home until she started to talk and she said that she'd told Paul some more about us after I'd started things. She said she basically told him that I wanted her to, at some point, only to get her sexual pleasure from him. She said he asked a few questions but then seemed to just accept it. She turned to me and reached over and felt my hard cock in my pants and said, "I'll bet you're going to be horny for me tomorrow!" to which I replied, "definitely".

She asked me, "do you still really want to wait?" and I replied to her that a part of me would love to throw her in the back-seat and ravage her but that the other part of me wants to wait and make tomorrow as awesome as it can be. She smiled and said, "Right answer; I expected that".....


I don't know how she had the energy to get up and go into the office for today. I could barely sleep thinking about everything and now it's almost 2:30pm and she should be out of work by 3pm, an early out before a holiday.

Every time I think about having her tonight my cock starts to throb and I can just feel my balls getting tighter and heavier. I soooo want this to be intense for both of us tonight.

And, yes, my god, anytime I think about my going for seconds tonight and that it maybe being the last time I'll get to feel her bare, well, it's just crazy.


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