I was fidgeting in the closet, wasting time as I was looking out into the bathroom watching Lori put her thong on over her bare, bald pussy. I was hard, embarrassed, yet very turned on. I found the shoes I was looking for and walked out. She was now just in her thong, looking into the mirror, looking at her makeup and touching it up with her pinkie. I had made a mental note on her panties, to look at them later tonight in the hamper. Childish I know.
At 38, she looked great. She had lost about 40 pounds over the last year and was just amazing to look at. She was 5ft 5in about 140, long blond hair and 34D. her areolas were pink, about quarter size and eraser sized nipples. It always amazed me how her nipples seemed small for her breast, but I loved them anyway. Her breasts did sag some but still looked great for having two kids.
She was dressing to see her lover in an hour or so. She had just spent an hour showering, shaving, getting ready. She was meeting him at her gf’s condo. Her gf let her use it to meet with men, well, I should say meet him. Her girlfriend was a sneaky bitch, I never trusted her. My wife’s lover was married, and an older guy, I don’t know for sure, but recall Lori saying he was 59 or 60. He was a janitor at a local college. Lori was a VP at a national manufacturing company. Nathan, her lover, on the other hand, was tall, maybe 6ft 3in, but big, at least 300lb, and black. An older fat black guy, and a younger white attractive wife. I mean, fuck.
I was not thrilled she was going to see him, but at the same time, I was very turned on, and it excited me. How did I get here you ask, well let me back up two years and bring you up to speed.
It was two years ago and honestly, I think we were ok, but marred about 15 yrs at that point and for some, well us, we were on auto pilot. My wife had a very good job, VP of client relations and I was doing fine in my IT position. We had the kids, they were 13 and 10 then, so we were running them places and busy working and I guess neither of us found that much time for the other. Our sex got to be mundane and infrequent at best, maybe once a month or every other month. I had gained a little weight, as had Lori. I still found her attractive and loved her as my wife, but that spark, well, it was barely there.
Lori has a very good gf that she has known since college, Candi. The name should say it all really. Who names their kid Candi? Candi and I just never hit it off. I can’t tell you why, but she is one of those that I could never just accept. I don’t know why. I tried, I tried to be pleasant when she was around, but it was clear, she felt the same was about me. Candi did very well for herself too and had inherited some money and lived a nice life. She was professionally single I like to call it.
Candi always had a guy she was dating when it mattered. Most times she showed up with one, but a few times she was alone. There were a lot of guys over the years, but she never married one. Candi was very attractive; I will give her that. VERY attractive. She was maybe 5ft 3in, 110 blond with a perfect 34C about, just a hot body and very pretty face. She worked out some too and had some great definition on her arms and legs. But some of the guys she was with were questionable I thought, but again, she was not my problem, yet.
Over the next few months Candi was getting Lori to go out with her more and more and maybe it was coincidental, but Lori and I were not getting along well. It just kept mushrooming into bigger and bigger arguments and fights. It got to a point that we barely spoke if not arguing. There was zero sex for about 6 months at this point.
Finally, one day and I don’t recall how it happened, but we were at it again and Lori said she had enough. She was going to move in with Candi for a while, that we needed space. I knew this was not a Lori idea, but clearly had been put in her head by Candi. You don’t just come up with that. I was pissed, but at the same time a bit concerned. I told her that was not a good idea, thinking she listened to this crazy woman enough, let alone spending all her free time with her.
Lori had already decided, that was it. She took a few days to collect things, she talked to the kids, worked out with me I would stay and within 6 days had moved out. I was pissed. I was hurt, but more pissed, it was like she took away my ability to talk to her, to reason with her. This had Candi written all over it.
Candi had this hold over Lori that I could never understand. Both were very smart women, but Candi pulled all the strings. At work, my wife was a wizard, but with Candi around, she was clearly the follower. I never understood it.
So many days went by that I picked the phone up to call her and stopped, knowing she was not going to answer or would be curt, making me wonder how this was going to play out. She called the kids, we worked out times for them to visit her or I would take some trips on weekends and she would come back to the house to be with them.
We barely talked for weeks and weeks other than to talk about kids needs. It was probably 4 months that she was gone that I had to get her to sign something, so I went over there and she was not there, so Candi was there, let me in. I just wanted to drop it off and leave, but Candi started talking and being nice, which was a huge red flag.
She asked how I was doing and asked if Lori and I talked. I said not a lot. She asked me if I was ok with Lori dating so much. Until that moment, the dating part didn’t even cross my mind. Sure, I had thought about dating some, me, but then said to myself no, we will work this out and that will become an issue so put it out of my mind. I must have had that dumb look on my face as I saw hers light up.
“Oh, she has not told you? Well, she has been one busy girl. I am keeping her on a steady diet of men to replace you. I will find one sooner or later”. As I said before, she never liked me, so this was her goal. Find a replacement husband for Lori. Hmmm. “what do you mean? “ I asked, knowing it was a mistake to engage her. “oh it’s at least 3 dates a week, and most of those, those guys get lucky!” I wanted to yell and scream, but just didn’t say much and left.
As I was going home, I was trying to process what she said. Three guys a week, that’s 12 a month, and if only half got lucky, that’s her fucking 6 guys a month. No, that could not be right. Lori was picky, and she had only been with 3 guys before me. Candi was fucking with me again.
It was a probably two weeks later before I saw Lori again. She was at the house to see the kids. We were alone for a minute so took the opportunity to ask her. It had been bothering me ever since Candi told me she was dating.
“So Candi tells me you are dating. Is that true?” I asked. She was looking in her purse and stopped and looked up at me. “ I am not sure that’s your business, we are separated you realize. But if you must know, yes, I have been on a few dates. “ I was frozen, I wanted to say so many things, but could not when she continued. “You should date too. We need to find out if its us or if we should look outside. But I am not ready to talk about all this yet.” And that was it, we didn’t talk.
As I looked at her, I could see something different. She was the same person, don’t get me wrong, but I could tell she was open to exploring I guess, and the I noticed, how could I have missed this, she had lost some weight. She looked good. We didn’t talk any more and I had determined ok, I guess I should date too.
A few more months passed, we barely talked, but when we did it seemed more civil, I guess enough time had passed we were not angry anymore, and honestly, I had not really understood why we were arguing all the time anyway at this point.
I had been on a few dates, one woman 3 times, she blew me on our last date in the car and then proceeded to tell me that I was unavailable and to call her when I was. I was confused, I guess mentally I was still hoping for reconciliation but that didn’t seem to happen. The other women I dated, well the 2 others, lasted all of one date and nothing.
It was all I could think about honestly was the thought of Lori fucking other guys. I was jerking off almost every day to that thought.
We had been apart about 9 months at this point when I had to again go over there and drop something off for Lori. I show up to the condo and she lets me in, and Candi is there. The last thing I really wanted, but figured I would ignore her and talk with Lori and get out quick.
Candi could be very crass, but usually she knew how and when to attack. She was very smart in that way. Lori and I had talked about something about the kids and were almost done when Candi said that I might want to hurry up, that they had dates coming, unless I wanted to meet them.
Lori just rolled her eyes and didn’t respond. As I said before, their dynamic was crazy, like Lori had no spine around her, and I could never understand it.
Lori went to her room to get something, and Candi took the opportunity to talk a bit more direct to me. “You know, she is getting fucked at least twice a week, some weeks every day! I make sure to keep her on dates with guys just hoping she will find someone better than you. You might not want her back she is so well used at this point.” And she laughed.
As Lori came back out of the room, Candi looked at her and said “Tell him Lori, you have had a lot better dick over the past few months than what he has. “ Lori said, “Candi, please, don’t be like that.”
Candi said “tell him how much cock you get; I don’t think he believes me. Tell him, its at least 2 new cocks every week, right, tell him.”
Lori just lowered her head, she was not going to deny it, but she was not going to engage. That was typical Lori, if it were true, she just would never say anything. If it were wrong, she would jump in and make sure you knew it was wrong.
Then Candi said, “tonight it’s a few college guys we have dates with, the best part about college guys, you can remember back then, right Tom, college guys can go again and again and again! “
Candi went on “ there was a banker last night, you wife didn’t really want him, I could tell, but when we got back from the date, I pushed her and him into her bedroom telling him not to come out until he put a big smile on her face, and then I threw some condoms at them. That was midnight, when did he leave? 3am? “ I was floored, but I could see how Candi had that power over Lori, telling her to fuck guys she never really wanted to, Candi could do that. Lori just looked away, not arguing. My mind was reeling, the image of her being pushed into the room, once in there with the guy she had really no desire to bed, but now doing it for Candi, or peer pressure, whatever reason, spreading her legs for any reason besides her own desire. I was blown away. Lori was never easy, and at home, It was much more respect, never an expectation.
I stood up, said it was time for me to leave, and walked out. I could not unhear all that. I thought ok, maybe some is not tree, but Lori not arguing, made me think that most was. As I was walking to the car, another one had pulled up and two very young guys had gotten out and were passing me on the sidewalk. Both tall, lanky, fit, good looking young white guys. The College kids. Fuck!
I could not get that image out of my mind for days and days, my imagination was running rampant. I was jerking off at least once a day, many days more times. It was crazy.
We were separated 10 months when she suggested we meet for dinner one Thursday night. I agreed and we met at a nice Italian place. She looked amazing. As I had noticed before, she had lost weight, but it was considerable, she was in a form holding sun dress, and looked great. It had spaghetti straps over her shoulder, and the hint of her nipples told me no bra, which made me wonder if she had any panties on. My mind was all over the place, as we talked, and I tried to not stare. There were times I could clearly see her nipples protruding, and others where they had softened and were barely seen. The dress was thin, short and showed a lot of leg when she sat and stood, her bare legs were a huge turn on as was the whole package!
We had some small talk, then she said we should talk about our future, if there was one. I was a bit taken on that last statement but let her continue. She went on to say we should talk about what we want, that if I were open, she could see us getting back together, that we had kids, and she loved them and still loved me, but that we would have things we needed to work on. But that was her view, and she wanted to know what I thought.
I was so surprised; this came out of nowhere. I replied I would be very open the same, that I loved her, wanted her to come home, and asked how she saw that happening, and when. That I could help her get her stuff when she was ready.
We had eaten and were finishing the drinks when she said that she wanted to find a counselor, and that it would not be quick, that we should plan a few dates, like this, to get back connecting, and we would see how it played out, that it could take a few months.
I said great, although I had hoped for sooner than months, but said, I can go with that. As we finished, I walked her out and said I would walk her to her car. She said no, she had Ubered and was meeting a date at the bar next door. I was a little deflated, but thought I would be nice, and asked if she has been seeing him long. She replied no, it was just another on the endless dates Candi had set her up on.
The bar was not an upscale bar, but more just a neighborhood hangout. She said Candi picked it, since we would be next door and it would be easier for him to meet her there for a drink and then later meet Candi at some club. We didn’t kiss, I wanted to, but we agreed to talk more, and date, as she put it. I watched her walk away, thinking how sexy she looked and wondering what the rest of her night would be like, compared to my going home alone.
She entered the bar as I walked away to my truck. Thinking all the way about who she was meeting. I was in the truck, leaving the parking lot as I was driving round the block thinking I should go home, but then also wanting to see who she was seeing this time, was it another young college kid? I found a parking spot on the street 2 blocks away. Far enough I would not be noticed, but still close enough I could see when she left. It was about 20 minutes later when she came out, followed by some tall black guy. I could not tell his age, but from everything I could see, I was guessing 30 to 40. They walked to the street where a car was waiting, probably another Uber.
He had his hand on her lower back and as they got to the car, it clearly grabbed her ass.
Lori had never found black men attractive before, but again, as she said, another of Candi’s dates. I got almost an instant hard on. I was floored that Lori was so easily manipulated by Lori. I mean even if you had naked pictures of someone you could not manipulate them this much, the two had this wild connection.
I wanted to see more, a ton more, but knew it would be a rabbit’s hole, so drove home. I could barely sleep thinking, wondering what she was doing with him. I had thought about going by the condo and being a peeping tom, but ruled that out. I jerked off a few times and finally fell asleep.
I had called her a few times for dates, but she was busy or out of town, till finally a few weeks later she said ok. It was just dinner and we had a good time, I took her back to the condo and we kissed, but she said she was not ready for sex just yet. I said ok and dropped her off.
It was two weeks later we had another date, which was about the same, but it was good to talk, connect again. I did want sex, but was waiting.
It was the next week she called, said she had an open night and wanted to see I wanted to meet, I said sure. It was a Wednesday, but what the heck. We had a good dinner and then back at the condo she did invite me in. Said I had to promise to ignore Candi, I said sure.
In the condo, we said hello to Candi, and Lori lead me to her room, as she was closing the door, Candi yelled, “watch the wet spot”. Lori frowned, said ignore her and I didn’t say much. We kissed, undressed, I got to see her now much more trim body and wow, she looked great! Soon I was sucking her breasts and nipples, and then I was going down on her. I had done this many times before, but as I got to her pussy, it was now bald, I had never seen her like this and sat up a little, to get a better look.
She said, “what’s wrong?”
I said “nothing, I just have never seen you this trimmed, it’s very sexy, I like it” and then I went down and started licking her, wondering just when was the last time she was with someone, how busy was Candi keeping her, but it just turned me on more as I licked her clit and pussy all over. As I was licking her my hands were up, playing with her breasts, nipples while my tongue worked on her clit, god she tasted great.
I could feel her breathing getting faster and faster, her moans louder and knew she was getting close. I kept up the licking, flicking of her clit, over and over, pinching and rolling her nipples, and soon she had this guttural groan and her hips arched and she was in the middle of and orgasm!
I knew how she loved to cum from oral, I knew she could only take so much on her clit and after a few seconds stopped and used my hand to cup her pussy, pushing hard on her mound, feeling her pushing back, I moved up and now sucking on her nipples, licking her tits as she had the orgasm roll through her body for another minute or two. Finally feeling her hips relax and she body relax from the orgasm; I moved my hand. I had thought about trying for a second one, but knew that only worked in maybe a handful of times over the years, that she really like just enjoying the one and then relaxing a minute.
I was hard as a rock and let her enjoy it for a while. A few minutes passed and I moved over her and started to kiss her neck, and let my hands rub up and down her side, and then as I found my cock, I pointed it at her wet pussy, I slid it up and down her slit and as I was about to push it in, felt her legs close, and heard her start to say something.
“Honey, before you do that, I , this is awkward, but we are dating, and I have and you have and well, there are condoms in the drawer over there, please use one.” I think I was in shock for a minute, but then just said, “sure”. I rolled off her and over to the nightstand, I opened the drawer and there were two boxes, one magnums and one regular trojans. I grabbed the trojans box and I know now it was a box of twelve, but it was open but seemed full, I didn’t count them, just grabbed one and put it on. Soon I was back on top, and fucking her but I didn’t last long, I never did. The condom did help me last a bit longer, but not much. Soon I was filing the condom with what cum was left in my balls from all the masturbating I was doing at home.
Later we talked, she said she preferred to play safe if she could, and hoped I understood for now. She got up and went to the bathroom and came back and told me I had to leave, that she had to get up early, and she was not trying to be rude, but knew too I had the kids waiting at home. I agreed, we kissed and I walked out into the living room.
As I was walking out, leaving, Candi chirp up “ leaving so soon, no sex?” I just gave her a look, knowing I should never engage her.
Candi said “ most of the guys have her screaming, the good ones anyway”. I just left, hearing Lori admonishing her for saying things to me. But it made me think, a whole box of condoms and magnums. My mind reeled some more, but from the recent orgasm, getting off, I was just riding the high as I went home.
It was two weeks later before we had another date, then back to her place, again, knowing the ‘rules’ I got a condom out, this time it was a different brand. I might not have noticed but the packaging was different, so it stood out. But the previous box was almost full, I just could not faham they were all used between then and now, I mean let’s say there were 10, and its been like 12 days, really? And the magnum box was still there, unopened. I stopped thinking about them for a while, while I fucked her. But later as I was leaving, again, Candi sitting there on the sofa with some guy, as I was leaving had to get her comments in.
Candi says, “leaving so soon, didn’t get it up or what? Most guys spend a few hours, make sure she is completely satisfied, right Lori, be honest, no way he got you off like you are used to in that short a period. Hell most spend the night and keep her exhausted” She giggled, I knew not to engage her, and really didn’t know how to respond anyway. I left thinking of the condoms, then realizing with what she said, and my flawed logic from before, that is someone did spend the night, they would use at least 2, maybe, god, maybe more. Shit
The next week we had another date, and thankfully Candi was not home to hear her BS. I had to know those, so looked at the condoms again as I grabbed one, and shit, there was only 2 left. Just a week ago there was a full box almost. I felt my cock get harder and harder thinking how many times my lovely wife is getting fucked and by gods know who.
It was a week or so later, a Saturday, that I had to run some errands. There was one of the kids papers that Lori needed to sign so I thought I would just stop over and see, it was 10am, so figured it was safe. I Knew better than to just drop in normally, but again, it was a Saturday and 10am. But to be safe, I text first, but didn’t get an answer so I was almost there and just kept going. I knocked on the door and Candi answered.
“What do you want?” she asked,
“ I have papers for Lori, she home or can I just leave them here?”
Candi said, “she is in there asleep still, she had a very long night and didn’t get much sleep, the neighbors could hear her”, she said with a smile. “you can go in”.
So I walked down the hall to bedrooms and just opened the door and froze. Laying on his back, on the bed, naked, was this large, very large, black man. Lori was to his side, laying on his arm, naked too. My opening the door awoke them both. He just grinned, Lori took a minute and then just exploded. “What the fuck are you doing here? “ I was still in shock. I stammered and tried to talk but just turned around and closed the door and walked out.
Candi was laughing as I got to the kitchen to leave, saying “did I forget to tell you she had company? Oh I am sorry. But its time they got up, he must have fucked her 4 or 5 times last night, seriously, my neighbors are going to boot me out because of her.” She was laughing the whole time.
I got out, sat in the truck for a minute, processing it all, totally embarrassed, humiliated. Seeing him, the man was huge, very black, I could not tell how old, but at least her age, maybe older, but big, a big belly, and a cock, my god, it was over his huge thigh, hanging on the other side, it had to be 6 maybe 7 inches and was soft. And it was thick. My god, that man’s cock was huge. He was bigger soft than I get hard. My mind seeing Lori, her left breast visible as she was laying next to him. Her ass clearly visible. I was almost hyperventilating but then realized too, I had a massive hard on.
I started the truck and was a block away when my phone rang. It was Lori. I didn’t want to answer, but did.
”What the fuck” was all I heard. I wanted to say, ask, say so many things, but finally said “look, I am sorry, Candi said you were sleeping, how the fuck was I supposed to know.” With that Lori knew it was not my fault, but still, I should have confirmed before just dropping in. New imagines I would never get out of my head.
We continued to date some till she said ok, she thinks we should talk about her moving home. We were at my place, well our place, the kids were gone to friends for the night so we had it to ourselves. We were sitting on the couch talking. So we had the discussion, she had found a counselor and felt it was time, if I was open to that. I said sure, asked her who the counselor was and when we should book an appointment. She said she had gone a few times alone, to work out some things and that I should plan to join in about 3 weeks or so. We talked dates and had it pretty well worked out.
She said it would be good to be home, she didn’t want to deal with Candi’s dates any more…. Although.. and she let it just hang there for a minute.
She said, “remember when you ‘dropped’ by?” I said yes.
She said “that was Nathan. Nathan is older, 59, and he is married. With him its not dating, being married and all he can’t go on dates and honestly he is not my type to date anyway, not that it ever mattered to Candi who my type was, she would bring home guys that I .. oh, I am sorry, I didn’t mean… anyway. Nathan, with Nathan, it’s about the sex. That’s all it is. He is exceptional in bed, and I am not trying to compare anyone, just saying”, she said then paused.
“so what I am trying to say, is, I want to keep seeing him. I know this is not what you want probably and not how you expected, but when I come home, you will have me there. We will still need to date, you and I, and get used to each other again, but I want us to work. I really do. “
She paused, I think expecting me to say something but I was just waiting for the rest of it. I had it figured out, but needed to hear her say it.
“So, ok, this is it, I want to keep seeing Nathan. I would only be 2 or 3 times a month. Not at the house, well probably not. I will use Candi’s place, be very discreet and it is just sex. A few hours every month, that’s it. “
I said “really, that’s all? “
I could tell that was not the answer she wanted, and it made her almost take a step back.
Lori said “ok, I get it, I know it was a lot to ask, but he is not a threat to you, I promise. Think about it , don’t say yes or no yet. Please just think about it “ as her hand went to my lap, finding my limp dick.
Soon she was undoing my belt, then my pants and had my dick in her hand, playing with it, soon stroking it and as we looked at each other, she lowered her head and went down on me!
I was in heaven, she had not blown me in, hell, probably 5 yrs if not longer. She was doing well, and I was enjoying it a lot. She had never been this good before, and I was not complaining as I was getting very close to cumming over the next few minutes. Soon I was at the edge, and I tried to pull her away, saying, “ I am going to cum’, but she never stopped. She kept sucking and soon I was cumming in her mouth, something that has been over a decade, and I am not kidding, and only a handful of times.
She slowed in sucking, her head going slower, my dick getting softer, but still in her mouth. I was in awe, that was like something you would expect from a PRO. Finally, she lifted her head, licking her liips, and I realized she had to have swallowed my cum. From all the jerking off, I knew there could not have been a lot, but still, this was amazing.
We have been together, either dating or married for over 19 yrs, and she has only ever sucked me maybe a total of a dozen times. And those times almost always she told me to not cum in her mouth or if I had, she has spit it out. Only once before had she ever swallowed.
She left shortly after. I kept thinking, what just happened, what world did I just jump in and out of. Days went by before we talked again. It as a call about one of the kids and was ending when she asked if I had give any more thought to her proposal to move back home. I know I should have thought more about it, but the weak guy in me wanted her back. I wanted her back for me, and for the kids. I said I had, and that if it were just him, then ok. But we should talk more about how, when, discretion and all that. She was almost giddy, and said great, we would.
It would be another 3 months before she was ready to move back home. We dated once in that time frame but talked a lot more. Her being home was a bit strange at first, like you thought things would instantly be back to normal, but they were, well, awkward at best. But we worked at it, the kids were happy, so we moved forward one foot at a time.
Of course maybe it was awkward because of what more I found out during the move. Lori didn’t initially take a lot of things, but over time had accumulated quite a bit at Candi’s condo. I of course was sent over to get most she had already packed while she had to be at some work event. Candi was there, which I dreaded, but I decided I was not going to engage. I had taken one load of boxes to the truck and was back when she confronted me.
She said, “you know I don’t like you right?” I said “ you have made that clear throughout the years, yes.”
She said, “You think that wife of yours is so holy, sit down, let me tell you how holy she is.” I said, “Candi, really, I don’t have time for this”
She said, “Sit, it won’t take long. Has she told you how many guys she had sex with? ” I didn’t answer, since no, I had no idea.
She went on “ from my count and that’s the ones I know I brought home for her, its close to 50. Has she told you all the guys that you know that she fucked? “
From the look on my face, she knew I had no idea, she laughed.
“Oh I kept her busy, no doubt, but she had found guys all on her own too. You think it was all me, but it was not. And Nathan, did she tell you how that happened? He is special. A truly great fuck, I have been with him for many years, but happy to let her have him for now.”
I know I should have got up and left, but this was to much to walk from, it was like a moth to a flame, I could get burned knowing to much but I just could not stop listening and sat down.
“Let me tell you what you don’t know about her, maybe you will finally understand her” she said.
“Back in college she was ***** one night. Before then she was pretty normal, and had a spine. But after that night, she put on a good face, but something in her snapped, and she can be, almost desires to be, very sub. I know it, but probably only a few people have ever known it. She wants that, but it takes the right guy to bring it out in her.”
“ I happened to let Nathan know, so he knew just what to do. But before you think I betrayed her, she wanted it, needed it, and loves it.”
“first, a list of guys you might not know have been between her legs, ready? You know the Italian restaurant you all go to all the time? Sergio, the owner, he has been here quite a few times, as has son, the dorky one. They don’t now of each other. Sergio seduced her, but I brought the kid. Then there is her boss, again, another married man, he has been here a few times. Then there is your yard guy” she burst out laughing.
“ Oh the look on her face when I brought him in. Good thing I speak Spanish and she does not, she would be even more mortified of how I painted her to him. But on the bright side, I never have to pay him to do my yard again. You on the other hand, will still have to pay him”
“The list is long, with all the guys I brought home for her, and her list, its well over 50. I would bring guys home 3 and 4 nights a week. She really didn’t want to fuck any of them usually. But she knew I wanted her to. So she would. She would take them in her room, and some she was just a cum dump for, but others, oh my, your wife can be a screamer, did you know? I doubt it, you never made her scream when you fucked her here. She has told me you have a very talented tongue, guess that’s code for your dick sucks.”
“then there was the time not to long ago, some guy spent the night with her and in the morning, could hear him taking her again, she was screaming, moaning, she was enjoying herself. He came out soon and left. It was about 8am. About noon, I had the college guys over and talked her into letting the one fuck her, she really did not want to, but she went in there with him, and man, she was screaming again. But that’s not the end, that night, there was another guy, so 3 all in one day.”
It was getting humiliating sitting and listening, but I let her go on.
“ oh the nights I heard her say no, no, then minutes later be screaming yes yes. That **** in college really fucked her up for life. The rougher a guy was with her the more she could cum, it was hot to listen if I do say so myself. It’s a shame we didn’t realize this in college, I could have had her experience great sex back then rather than waiting till now. “
“I told Nathan all about her past. I told him just how to do it, and helped him. She is hooked on him, not as a lover, but she loves the sex, but he holds her mind. She is not in love with him at all, but she needs him. You will never be him or be able to hold that spot for her. She will know Nathan till he dies, you will see.”
“He was here with me, that’s how she met him. From the start, he would boss her around. She was ***** by a black man, so when he barked, she jumped. He would have her watch us fuck, asking her if she ever had sex like that before, which she never did. He made her masturbate watching us. He would bring guys to fuck her, she resisted, but gave in. Most of the black guys were the of the No, no, then the YES YES.” She was smiling, watching my face, my mind just beyond belief how she could have treated, tormented my wife.
“When he would come over, we made her our little slave. She would get us drinks, suck hm to get him hard for me. And after, she had to lick his cum from my pussy. You know, you remember that she and I hooked up in college a few times, I know she told you. She still has it, she has a great mouth, I love her so much, I know you think I don’t, but I do, I see what she needs, and you can never give it to her, I can.”
“See you don’t push her limits, you are a doormat, she needs me, needs me to push her, make her realize who she is and treat her like she wants. “ I could not believe this, she was insane, but at the same time, I could see how much of it could be true. Sure, Therapy might seem like the more logical choice to so many people, including me, but this woman knew what my wife wanted it seemed.
I said “From everything you said, it sounds like therapy would be a better choice and let her heal”. She burst out laughing and said “ but what fun would that be? “
“did you know you were almost a daddy? “ I know my eyes must have bulged out. “yea, a few months ago she missed her period, she took the test, she was pregnant. It was Nathans. You could be raising a little mixed baby! Just think your girls could have a younger sister or brother. Lucky you though, she miscarried 2 months later.”
I was in shock, but she went on “you see, when she would watch us, cum with her hands watching us, suck his cock, and eat his cum from my pussy, it just made her want him more and more. UP to that point the rule was condoms! But, when the time came for Nathan to fuck her, well, we made her beg him. I had to take her aside, tell her that he didn’t feel like she wanted him bad enough, she was literally going to have to beg him to fuck her. So she did. It was so cute to see. “
“And this was all her, I could not have orchestrated it better myself. He was in bed with her, and this is her telling me later, but Nathan told me too. She was in bed, he had put on the condom and was about to fuck her when she stopped him, said no, and reached up and pulled the condom off, and told him she wanted him to fuck her bare, she wanted his cum in her. “
I was in shock, visualizing that scene. I could not blame Candi anymore, I mean I could, but Lori did that, did that on her own? Wow. How did I never see that side of her, how could this very same woman be the wife I know? But her story has explained so many things now. I always though there was something lurking in her head at times, now I get it. Well, no, I don’t get it, but I can accept Lori has issues, and probably will for life.
I think I was stunned, and just sat there for a few minutes, neither of us spoke for a while. Then she broke the silence with “ you love her, she loves you, she will never do for you what she will for others who don’t love her. She will do almost anything for those that just use her.”
“It was your wife who made me this way. In college I had been a parties and was sewing my oats a lot, but never with a black boy, and when she was *****, I was the one she came to. She told me over and over of how it happened, how embarrassed she was, how humiliated she was. But her story, the sex, my god, it never left my mind. I might as well have been used and abused too, but no, I wasn’t, I am not saying I was, but her graphic tales sent my head spinning. She said the two of them picked her up near the little store in town and was going to bring her back to the dorm. She thought she knew the one but turns out she didn’t. They drove her to some abandoned building just a few blocks away. “
I was in shock, she went on “ She said they initially were just tormenting her as she tried to leave, blocking her every way, soon she was crying and one of them, walked over to her and slapped her hard, knocking her down. She said she realized then they were serious. They told her to get naked, she didn’t, they hit her again. Sobbing she said she did undress. The one guy then pushed her back and was soon on top of her.”
“She said they used condoms, but that initially she tried to just lay there and block it out as he fucked her. She told me the whole time he was laughing, they both were, laughing at her, saying things like yea, that wont work, but you keep trying, and she said he was fucking her like slow, in no hurry, she wanted him to hurry, finish, get off her. “
“She never told you any of this did she? “ She asked. I said no.
“she told me the were saying it will happen. soon enough, it will. She had no idea what they were talking about, and she said it seemed like an hour, but she knew it was only 5, maybe 10 minutes, that as hard as she tried to think of other things or him stopping or anything, her mind more and more was on how her pussy was getting moist. How she was lubricating for him. She said she was humiliated; she was starting to enjoy it.”
“I won’t go on forever,” she said, “ I can see I have already excited you. “ I was not even aware, talk about embarrassed, yes, I had a hard on. holy fuck. I felt bad, how could I be hearing how someone was so abused in life, my wife even.
She went on “ they kept her there all day and all night, just leaving her there the next day when they left. After they made her cum the first time, she told me they never forced her again, that she was willing, she had never had an orgasm from intercourse before then, she was confused, but the pleasure was amazing. When the first guy kept fucking her she came more . When he was done and the other one wanted her, she got on top, she fucked him, multiple times. It has fucked her up ever since. “
I was in total shock. I didn’t know what to do, say or even think. I stood up, said ‘I have to go” She laughed, said ‘Good luck, your wife will be back here you know, she can’t stay away.“
I grabbed the rest of Lori’s stuff and packed the truck and went home. It was all I could think about. How Candi talked about her, How Candi seemed to know her so differently than I did. Lori came home an hour later and kissed me on the cheek, saying thank you for picking up her stuff. The kids were home so we didn’t talk till later that night.
I wanted to ask so many things, but didn’t know how to bring it up. As we got into bed we were kissing and soon I was licking her nipples and enjoying her body! As I kissed her all over and worked my way down to her bare pussy, I marveled again how great it looked bare. Thinking this is not for me, was never for me, but that only made me harder as I ate her to an orgasm. I let her rest as I moved up, kissing on her, letting her enjoy the orgasm for a few minutes.
As I started to pay attention again to her, she was rubbing on me, and then asked ‘Did you bring the condoms? “ I was like stunned... thinking... what? And said, “no, I thought…” when she said, “remember, we agreed to ‘date’ still for a while, I don’t want to just jump into this and not want it, I hope you can understand, I want to be here, but we need to work at it, do you have any condoms here?”
I said “no, I don’t.” then she said “ok lets do this, I know you like it when I play with your nipples.. ‘ so she got on top of me.. she positioned her pussy lips over my cock and started to rock back and forth, her pussy was still very wet from me eating her and she soon started to slide easily back and forth. I reached up to play with her breasts while her hands found my nipples, twisting them and pulling on them. We did this for about 3 or 4 minutes, when she asked “ is this ok? Can you cum? “
I was enjoying it a ton, but it was not going to happen soon and told her, saying how yes, I love it, but keep going, so she did for a while, then after about 5 minutes she stopped and rolled off to one side.
She had reached down and started to stroke my dick and moved so her mouth could suck my nipples. I loved that too, I was close, when she used her other hand to pull my hand to my cock, and soon had me stroking it, while she sucked some. Soon she was sitting up with her hands now playing with my nipples, she leaned down and started to talk.
‘That’s it baby.. you can cum… think how I want you in me when you can, think how good that will be, I want you to cum.” Soon she was just laying next to me, talking to me, no longer playing with me at all, but I had not noticed, I was hearing her and into it, just jerking off, and soon I was cumming. The whole event was amazing, it was days later before I realized I had just jerked off. I mean it was more than that, but still. That whole event played back in my mind, we had never done that, she was never usually the one to decide or control things like that.
I purchased condoms the next day, but it was week later before I got to use them. Life was busy, we were not really connecting like I wanted. It was not forced, but not comfortable yet and I didn’t want to make her uncomfortable either by pushing things.
I was looking forward to the weekend and thought we would have more time to connect with no work and one of the kids would be gone for the weekend.
When we went to bed Friday night I thought mentally it was a good space and started touching her holding her and kissing her, and she responded, but then after a few minutes she stopped me, and said she wanted to make sure I realized it would be one way sex that night. I was a bit stunned but that was becoming normal, so then asked her what she meant.
She said, “ ok oh, maybe its my fault, I know we talked about this, but you agreed I could see Nathan again, and I don’t want to bring him up in bed, but we also talked about dating and things and maybe I did forget to tell you I was seeing him tomorrow. I know we talked about the space between you two, right. I want to be clean for him and I want to be clean for you, so no sex tonight, and then no sex Sunday then I can be clean for him tomorrow and clean for you all next week. I mean I hope you understand this, honey, I know it’s a lot, I am sorry, but for now, I think this is what I need. Can you understand?”
I just looked at her, I was mad, but I tried to hold back, yes we had talked about all that, but she failed to tell me about tomorrow, till now. So I told her. “ I am not thrilled, I will be honest, but if you could give me a bit more warning or whatever, keep me informed a little bit more in advance that would be good. And what do you mean one way, I am confused.” She smiled and said, well I want to be clean, and I want to be mentally in the mood too, but if you wanted to go down on me, that is all I would be willing to do. I love you; you know I do, but for me to please you in anyway, mentally its weird for me knowing tomorrow I will be with him. I guess its not just being clean, but thinking who I am with, and I know this is going to come out wrong, but if I make you cum, it would be like cheating on him, and if I make him cum tomorrow and you Sunday, it would be like cheating on you. “
We both stared for a while, and I was just numb, thinking did that make sense?? I said” ok... I don’t think your analogy got it, but I think I understand.”
So we laid there and she turned the light off and it was maybe 10, 15 minutes, my mind was just running through the things Candi told me, what they would be doing tomorrow, how he would be fucking her and it was all to much, my cock was hard as a rock, I know looking back it was a bad move, but I pushed the covers down and went between her legs and ate her to an intense orgasm, I could tell.
I then pulled out some tissues and jerked off next to her. When I had finished, she moved over next to me, curled up with me and kissed my ear, saying thank you that was so sweet and how she loved me for understanding.
I had plans the next day and didn’t see her much before she left, but it was all I could think about. What was she doing, how, when, where, the usual. She was home about 6pm and we had dinner with the kids and watched a movie, Later in bed, she was exhausted and fell asleep quickly. I stared at her for 15 minutes, just looking, my mind going over what her day might have entailed.
I got up and went to the bathroom, I was going to jerk off when I saw the hamper and went to it, looking for her panties. They were under a shirt I had worn that day. Taking them out, I felt like a child, but wanted to see. Opening them it was clear they were the ones. I looked for others and found the ones from the previous day and did a comparison. Today's were a mess, a huge white crusty stain in the crotch. And mans cum, leaked from her pussy into her panties. I had the biggest hard on. I put them both back and then went and jerked off and went to bed.
The next time we made love was similar, but I know the gnawing feelings I had as I was kissing her and sucking her nipples, and licking her pussy, but just about her with him, my mind was racing with self-created images of her sucking his cock, being fucked in multiple positions, his huge cock buried in her, seeing her face contort as she orgasmed from him. I had made her cum from licking her pussy, clit and was putting on the condom when I noticed I was not fully hard. I managed to get it on and was fucking her but could tell I was not fully hard. My mind just thinking about how he makes her cum and I don’t fucking her, how she must be thinking of him when I am doing this and how disappointed she must be feeling this in her now.
I tried to then think how irrational they were, and that she could and would separate the two events and not compare us. The more I thought about his cock in her, I finally did cum, filing the condom. Then my mind went to how I just did that, why did he get to fill her pussy and I get to fill a condom. I took it off and threw it in the trash, we went to sleep.
The next weekend arrived and she told me Thursday that she would be seeing Nathan on Saturday again. This time was home and just around the house when she was getting ready in the morning. It was a long pampering session for her, it was clear she wanted to see him and was enjoying the process of getting ready. She showered, shaved, lotioned and picked a few different outfits. Nothing wild, it was a Saturday afternoon after all. As she stood naked in front of the mirror I was in the bedroom, trying to watch, but not be so obvious. She had picked out a pair of bikini panties and I watched her slip them in her purse. Then she slipped on a lace bra, and a button down thin cotton top, and slip up a short, but not overly short nasty skirt. Here big breasts clearly dominating my vision and then her bare legs. I had a hard on.
I went downstairs before she walked out and it was about 15 min later when she came down. I told her how nice she looked and she thanked me. She talked to the kids some, said she would be shopping and home later. When it was just us, I looked and it was only 11am, and said she was going early. She said she did have some shopping to do and was getting her nails done before going to Candi’s. She had that glimmer in her eye when she said going to Candi’s.
That night again, she was tired, and I went to the bathroom. I looked again and found the panties she had stuffed into her purse in the hamper, full of his cum again. I smelled them, a very strong mucky odor. I put them back and jerked off before going to bed.
We didn’t have sex for another 2 weeks. Mostly me, I thought about it 24/7, but was jerking off so much it was taking care of my need. I did keep asking her questions here and there, which she would not answer so much.
It was the 2 month mark of her being home where we had sex one night, and as I put the condom on I latterly just went limp. I had been having issues as I described before, but this time, was much more obvious. She was watching, but there was nothing I could do. The visual in my mind of him stretching her out to fuck her, and me not, just fucked with my mind to much.
She could see the issue and said “ that’s ok honey, another night, lay here. “ I hadn’t really wanted to stop, I wanted to cum, but let her lead. This was becoming pretty common. She would ‘suggest’ we try other things over the past few weeks, where we didn’t fuck as much. Once she grinded on me, the other time I fucked her tits.
She was home 3 months when one night I said we need to talk, this not talking about things was bothering me. She was open and we sat down. I told her I wanted to know more, why was she still dating him, what was it about him.
She was not mad, and it kinda was good to see she was finally going to talk. She said “honey, its not dating. It is just sex. I know it might not seem fair. I get it. I can’t fully explain why I need both of you, but I do, and I want you to know I need you, and want you. He is a very good lover and has shown me I can orgasm in ways I never have, and I love that feeling. I don’t know what else to tell you, its pure sex.”
I asked, “so he is bigger? Lasts longer? What? “ She said, “yes, all that, he is very thick, and I can feel the difference immediately and then there is his length, its like, how do I say this. Its like I have a small clit deep in me. Its never been touched before, but with him, as he is fully in me, its like he is pushing that button or clit deep in me and sending shock waves throughout my body, allowing me to orgasm in ways I never knew. I know its not a clit, but you get the idea. And yes, he can last, most times too long. I have to beg him to finally cum.”
I was hard hearing her tell me details finally. It was intimidating to hear, but she was kind, not trying to compare us, just explaining.
She went on “ he can go 2 or 3 times too, its amazing, I mean its just fucking when we are together at Candi’s.” I asked, “so no oral?” I saw a look on her face, she took a second, and then said “ I won’t lie to you, yes, I suck him, once a week, it’s the least I can do for the pleasure he gives me.”
I was in shock, when I asked, I meant did he not eat her, but this was totally unexpected. Lori didn’t do oral, I mean in our 20 yrs together, it was like 6 times, she hated it.
“Wait, what?” I said. “you blow him? Once a week? Where, how?”
She had this almost reluctant look on her face, but said “ I know, I don’t like oral as you know, but somehow, with him, its different. I don’t fully love it, but it’s like I feel I want to do that for him, since he asked for it. He will come by and pick me up and we drive around or I have been to the college and he has a room that is private where I do that for him.”
“oral is not sex honey, but I understand you might be upset. Know he is the only one I have ever done this with. I didn’t do it with any others while separated, and don’t see doing it with anyone else but him.”
“including me” I said.. finishing her sentence.
“please don’t be like that” she said, sensing my sarcasm and hurt and ting of anger.
“so you swallow too” I said. “yes” she said. “again, with him, its just different, I am not sure how to explain it”
I was beside myself. I could not believe this, I mean I was mad, but also had a hard on. I could not understand my own emotions at this point, why did it turn me on, she wasn’t sucking me!
I left it at that, I knew if we kept talking, I would say more things I might regret, I was mad, I wanted blowjobs, but thought I needed to think this through more and see how I could make this work for me somehow.
A week later we were having sex, I had just eaten her to an orgasm and she had come down, I had each over and was putting on the condom when she said I didn’t have to, that I was her husband and didn’t have to do that any longer. I then slipped my dick into her and fucked her for a minute before filling her with the little cum left in my balls since I jerked off so much.
That’s our life to this point, how I ended up watching her get ready for her date with Nathan. I don’t know where it will go, but don’t see it stopping any time soon. As long as Candi is around, I sense she will be pushing Lori more as she did before we separated, getting her to possibly fuck more men, but I don’t know. Knowing what I do now, learning what happened to Lori in college, I don’t know what to think. But it has told me I should let her explore, let her be her, and just be there for her.
Being in second place was never my idea, but it seems the role I am going to be in for a while. If things change, I will let you know.
At 38, she looked great. She had lost about 40 pounds over the last year and was just amazing to look at. She was 5ft 5in about 140, long blond hair and 34D. her areolas were pink, about quarter size and eraser sized nipples. It always amazed me how her nipples seemed small for her breast, but I loved them anyway. Her breasts did sag some but still looked great for having two kids.
She was dressing to see her lover in an hour or so. She had just spent an hour showering, shaving, getting ready. She was meeting him at her gf’s condo. Her gf let her use it to meet with men, well, I should say meet him. Her girlfriend was a sneaky bitch, I never trusted her. My wife’s lover was married, and an older guy, I don’t know for sure, but recall Lori saying he was 59 or 60. He was a janitor at a local college. Lori was a VP at a national manufacturing company. Nathan, her lover, on the other hand, was tall, maybe 6ft 3in, but big, at least 300lb, and black. An older fat black guy, and a younger white attractive wife. I mean, fuck.
I was not thrilled she was going to see him, but at the same time, I was very turned on, and it excited me. How did I get here you ask, well let me back up two years and bring you up to speed.
It was two years ago and honestly, I think we were ok, but marred about 15 yrs at that point and for some, well us, we were on auto pilot. My wife had a very good job, VP of client relations and I was doing fine in my IT position. We had the kids, they were 13 and 10 then, so we were running them places and busy working and I guess neither of us found that much time for the other. Our sex got to be mundane and infrequent at best, maybe once a month or every other month. I had gained a little weight, as had Lori. I still found her attractive and loved her as my wife, but that spark, well, it was barely there.
Lori has a very good gf that she has known since college, Candi. The name should say it all really. Who names their kid Candi? Candi and I just never hit it off. I can’t tell you why, but she is one of those that I could never just accept. I don’t know why. I tried, I tried to be pleasant when she was around, but it was clear, she felt the same was about me. Candi did very well for herself too and had inherited some money and lived a nice life. She was professionally single I like to call it.
Candi always had a guy she was dating when it mattered. Most times she showed up with one, but a few times she was alone. There were a lot of guys over the years, but she never married one. Candi was very attractive; I will give her that. VERY attractive. She was maybe 5ft 3in, 110 blond with a perfect 34C about, just a hot body and very pretty face. She worked out some too and had some great definition on her arms and legs. But some of the guys she was with were questionable I thought, but again, she was not my problem, yet.
Over the next few months Candi was getting Lori to go out with her more and more and maybe it was coincidental, but Lori and I were not getting along well. It just kept mushrooming into bigger and bigger arguments and fights. It got to a point that we barely spoke if not arguing. There was zero sex for about 6 months at this point.
Finally, one day and I don’t recall how it happened, but we were at it again and Lori said she had enough. She was going to move in with Candi for a while, that we needed space. I knew this was not a Lori idea, but clearly had been put in her head by Candi. You don’t just come up with that. I was pissed, but at the same time a bit concerned. I told her that was not a good idea, thinking she listened to this crazy woman enough, let alone spending all her free time with her.
Lori had already decided, that was it. She took a few days to collect things, she talked to the kids, worked out with me I would stay and within 6 days had moved out. I was pissed. I was hurt, but more pissed, it was like she took away my ability to talk to her, to reason with her. This had Candi written all over it.
Candi had this hold over Lori that I could never understand. Both were very smart women, but Candi pulled all the strings. At work, my wife was a wizard, but with Candi around, she was clearly the follower. I never understood it.
So many days went by that I picked the phone up to call her and stopped, knowing she was not going to answer or would be curt, making me wonder how this was going to play out. She called the kids, we worked out times for them to visit her or I would take some trips on weekends and she would come back to the house to be with them.
We barely talked for weeks and weeks other than to talk about kids needs. It was probably 4 months that she was gone that I had to get her to sign something, so I went over there and she was not there, so Candi was there, let me in. I just wanted to drop it off and leave, but Candi started talking and being nice, which was a huge red flag.
She asked how I was doing and asked if Lori and I talked. I said not a lot. She asked me if I was ok with Lori dating so much. Until that moment, the dating part didn’t even cross my mind. Sure, I had thought about dating some, me, but then said to myself no, we will work this out and that will become an issue so put it out of my mind. I must have had that dumb look on my face as I saw hers light up.
“Oh, she has not told you? Well, she has been one busy girl. I am keeping her on a steady diet of men to replace you. I will find one sooner or later”. As I said before, she never liked me, so this was her goal. Find a replacement husband for Lori. Hmmm. “what do you mean? “ I asked, knowing it was a mistake to engage her. “oh it’s at least 3 dates a week, and most of those, those guys get lucky!” I wanted to yell and scream, but just didn’t say much and left.
As I was going home, I was trying to process what she said. Three guys a week, that’s 12 a month, and if only half got lucky, that’s her fucking 6 guys a month. No, that could not be right. Lori was picky, and she had only been with 3 guys before me. Candi was fucking with me again.
It was a probably two weeks later before I saw Lori again. She was at the house to see the kids. We were alone for a minute so took the opportunity to ask her. It had been bothering me ever since Candi told me she was dating.
“So Candi tells me you are dating. Is that true?” I asked. She was looking in her purse and stopped and looked up at me. “ I am not sure that’s your business, we are separated you realize. But if you must know, yes, I have been on a few dates. “ I was frozen, I wanted to say so many things, but could not when she continued. “You should date too. We need to find out if its us or if we should look outside. But I am not ready to talk about all this yet.” And that was it, we didn’t talk.
As I looked at her, I could see something different. She was the same person, don’t get me wrong, but I could tell she was open to exploring I guess, and the I noticed, how could I have missed this, she had lost some weight. She looked good. We didn’t talk any more and I had determined ok, I guess I should date too.
A few more months passed, we barely talked, but when we did it seemed more civil, I guess enough time had passed we were not angry anymore, and honestly, I had not really understood why we were arguing all the time anyway at this point.
I had been on a few dates, one woman 3 times, she blew me on our last date in the car and then proceeded to tell me that I was unavailable and to call her when I was. I was confused, I guess mentally I was still hoping for reconciliation but that didn’t seem to happen. The other women I dated, well the 2 others, lasted all of one date and nothing.
It was all I could think about honestly was the thought of Lori fucking other guys. I was jerking off almost every day to that thought.
We had been apart about 9 months at this point when I had to again go over there and drop something off for Lori. I show up to the condo and she lets me in, and Candi is there. The last thing I really wanted, but figured I would ignore her and talk with Lori and get out quick.
Candi could be very crass, but usually she knew how and when to attack. She was very smart in that way. Lori and I had talked about something about the kids and were almost done when Candi said that I might want to hurry up, that they had dates coming, unless I wanted to meet them.
Lori just rolled her eyes and didn’t respond. As I said before, their dynamic was crazy, like Lori had no spine around her, and I could never understand it.
Lori went to her room to get something, and Candi took the opportunity to talk a bit more direct to me. “You know, she is getting fucked at least twice a week, some weeks every day! I make sure to keep her on dates with guys just hoping she will find someone better than you. You might not want her back she is so well used at this point.” And she laughed.
As Lori came back out of the room, Candi looked at her and said “Tell him Lori, you have had a lot better dick over the past few months than what he has. “ Lori said, “Candi, please, don’t be like that.”
Candi said “tell him how much cock you get; I don’t think he believes me. Tell him, its at least 2 new cocks every week, right, tell him.”
Lori just lowered her head, she was not going to deny it, but she was not going to engage. That was typical Lori, if it were true, she just would never say anything. If it were wrong, she would jump in and make sure you knew it was wrong.
Then Candi said, “tonight it’s a few college guys we have dates with, the best part about college guys, you can remember back then, right Tom, college guys can go again and again and again! “
Candi went on “ there was a banker last night, you wife didn’t really want him, I could tell, but when we got back from the date, I pushed her and him into her bedroom telling him not to come out until he put a big smile on her face, and then I threw some condoms at them. That was midnight, when did he leave? 3am? “ I was floored, but I could see how Candi had that power over Lori, telling her to fuck guys she never really wanted to, Candi could do that. Lori just looked away, not arguing. My mind was reeling, the image of her being pushed into the room, once in there with the guy she had really no desire to bed, but now doing it for Candi, or peer pressure, whatever reason, spreading her legs for any reason besides her own desire. I was blown away. Lori was never easy, and at home, It was much more respect, never an expectation.
I stood up, said it was time for me to leave, and walked out. I could not unhear all that. I thought ok, maybe some is not tree, but Lori not arguing, made me think that most was. As I was walking to the car, another one had pulled up and two very young guys had gotten out and were passing me on the sidewalk. Both tall, lanky, fit, good looking young white guys. The College kids. Fuck!
I could not get that image out of my mind for days and days, my imagination was running rampant. I was jerking off at least once a day, many days more times. It was crazy.
We were separated 10 months when she suggested we meet for dinner one Thursday night. I agreed and we met at a nice Italian place. She looked amazing. As I had noticed before, she had lost weight, but it was considerable, she was in a form holding sun dress, and looked great. It had spaghetti straps over her shoulder, and the hint of her nipples told me no bra, which made me wonder if she had any panties on. My mind was all over the place, as we talked, and I tried to not stare. There were times I could clearly see her nipples protruding, and others where they had softened and were barely seen. The dress was thin, short and showed a lot of leg when she sat and stood, her bare legs were a huge turn on as was the whole package!
We had some small talk, then she said we should talk about our future, if there was one. I was a bit taken on that last statement but let her continue. She went on to say we should talk about what we want, that if I were open, she could see us getting back together, that we had kids, and she loved them and still loved me, but that we would have things we needed to work on. But that was her view, and she wanted to know what I thought.
I was so surprised; this came out of nowhere. I replied I would be very open the same, that I loved her, wanted her to come home, and asked how she saw that happening, and when. That I could help her get her stuff when she was ready.
We had eaten and were finishing the drinks when she said that she wanted to find a counselor, and that it would not be quick, that we should plan a few dates, like this, to get back connecting, and we would see how it played out, that it could take a few months.
I said great, although I had hoped for sooner than months, but said, I can go with that. As we finished, I walked her out and said I would walk her to her car. She said no, she had Ubered and was meeting a date at the bar next door. I was a little deflated, but thought I would be nice, and asked if she has been seeing him long. She replied no, it was just another on the endless dates Candi had set her up on.
The bar was not an upscale bar, but more just a neighborhood hangout. She said Candi picked it, since we would be next door and it would be easier for him to meet her there for a drink and then later meet Candi at some club. We didn’t kiss, I wanted to, but we agreed to talk more, and date, as she put it. I watched her walk away, thinking how sexy she looked and wondering what the rest of her night would be like, compared to my going home alone.
She entered the bar as I walked away to my truck. Thinking all the way about who she was meeting. I was in the truck, leaving the parking lot as I was driving round the block thinking I should go home, but then also wanting to see who she was seeing this time, was it another young college kid? I found a parking spot on the street 2 blocks away. Far enough I would not be noticed, but still close enough I could see when she left. It was about 20 minutes later when she came out, followed by some tall black guy. I could not tell his age, but from everything I could see, I was guessing 30 to 40. They walked to the street where a car was waiting, probably another Uber.
He had his hand on her lower back and as they got to the car, it clearly grabbed her ass.
Lori had never found black men attractive before, but again, as she said, another of Candi’s dates. I got almost an instant hard on. I was floored that Lori was so easily manipulated by Lori. I mean even if you had naked pictures of someone you could not manipulate them this much, the two had this wild connection.
I wanted to see more, a ton more, but knew it would be a rabbit’s hole, so drove home. I could barely sleep thinking, wondering what she was doing with him. I had thought about going by the condo and being a peeping tom, but ruled that out. I jerked off a few times and finally fell asleep.
I had called her a few times for dates, but she was busy or out of town, till finally a few weeks later she said ok. It was just dinner and we had a good time, I took her back to the condo and we kissed, but she said she was not ready for sex just yet. I said ok and dropped her off.
It was two weeks later we had another date, which was about the same, but it was good to talk, connect again. I did want sex, but was waiting.
It was the next week she called, said she had an open night and wanted to see I wanted to meet, I said sure. It was a Wednesday, but what the heck. We had a good dinner and then back at the condo she did invite me in. Said I had to promise to ignore Candi, I said sure.
In the condo, we said hello to Candi, and Lori lead me to her room, as she was closing the door, Candi yelled, “watch the wet spot”. Lori frowned, said ignore her and I didn’t say much. We kissed, undressed, I got to see her now much more trim body and wow, she looked great! Soon I was sucking her breasts and nipples, and then I was going down on her. I had done this many times before, but as I got to her pussy, it was now bald, I had never seen her like this and sat up a little, to get a better look.
She said, “what’s wrong?”
I said “nothing, I just have never seen you this trimmed, it’s very sexy, I like it” and then I went down and started licking her, wondering just when was the last time she was with someone, how busy was Candi keeping her, but it just turned me on more as I licked her clit and pussy all over. As I was licking her my hands were up, playing with her breasts, nipples while my tongue worked on her clit, god she tasted great.
I could feel her breathing getting faster and faster, her moans louder and knew she was getting close. I kept up the licking, flicking of her clit, over and over, pinching and rolling her nipples, and soon she had this guttural groan and her hips arched and she was in the middle of and orgasm!
I knew how she loved to cum from oral, I knew she could only take so much on her clit and after a few seconds stopped and used my hand to cup her pussy, pushing hard on her mound, feeling her pushing back, I moved up and now sucking on her nipples, licking her tits as she had the orgasm roll through her body for another minute or two. Finally feeling her hips relax and she body relax from the orgasm; I moved my hand. I had thought about trying for a second one, but knew that only worked in maybe a handful of times over the years, that she really like just enjoying the one and then relaxing a minute.
I was hard as a rock and let her enjoy it for a while. A few minutes passed and I moved over her and started to kiss her neck, and let my hands rub up and down her side, and then as I found my cock, I pointed it at her wet pussy, I slid it up and down her slit and as I was about to push it in, felt her legs close, and heard her start to say something.
“Honey, before you do that, I , this is awkward, but we are dating, and I have and you have and well, there are condoms in the drawer over there, please use one.” I think I was in shock for a minute, but then just said, “sure”. I rolled off her and over to the nightstand, I opened the drawer and there were two boxes, one magnums and one regular trojans. I grabbed the trojans box and I know now it was a box of twelve, but it was open but seemed full, I didn’t count them, just grabbed one and put it on. Soon I was back on top, and fucking her but I didn’t last long, I never did. The condom did help me last a bit longer, but not much. Soon I was filing the condom with what cum was left in my balls from all the masturbating I was doing at home.
Later we talked, she said she preferred to play safe if she could, and hoped I understood for now. She got up and went to the bathroom and came back and told me I had to leave, that she had to get up early, and she was not trying to be rude, but knew too I had the kids waiting at home. I agreed, we kissed and I walked out into the living room.
As I was walking out, leaving, Candi chirp up “ leaving so soon, no sex?” I just gave her a look, knowing I should never engage her.
Candi said “ most of the guys have her screaming, the good ones anyway”. I just left, hearing Lori admonishing her for saying things to me. But it made me think, a whole box of condoms and magnums. My mind reeled some more, but from the recent orgasm, getting off, I was just riding the high as I went home.
It was two weeks later before we had another date, then back to her place, again, knowing the ‘rules’ I got a condom out, this time it was a different brand. I might not have noticed but the packaging was different, so it stood out. But the previous box was almost full, I just could not faham they were all used between then and now, I mean let’s say there were 10, and its been like 12 days, really? And the magnum box was still there, unopened. I stopped thinking about them for a while, while I fucked her. But later as I was leaving, again, Candi sitting there on the sofa with some guy, as I was leaving had to get her comments in.
Candi says, “leaving so soon, didn’t get it up or what? Most guys spend a few hours, make sure she is completely satisfied, right Lori, be honest, no way he got you off like you are used to in that short a period. Hell most spend the night and keep her exhausted” She giggled, I knew not to engage her, and really didn’t know how to respond anyway. I left thinking of the condoms, then realizing with what she said, and my flawed logic from before, that is someone did spend the night, they would use at least 2, maybe, god, maybe more. Shit
The next week we had another date, and thankfully Candi was not home to hear her BS. I had to know those, so looked at the condoms again as I grabbed one, and shit, there was only 2 left. Just a week ago there was a full box almost. I felt my cock get harder and harder thinking how many times my lovely wife is getting fucked and by gods know who.
It was a week or so later, a Saturday, that I had to run some errands. There was one of the kids papers that Lori needed to sign so I thought I would just stop over and see, it was 10am, so figured it was safe. I Knew better than to just drop in normally, but again, it was a Saturday and 10am. But to be safe, I text first, but didn’t get an answer so I was almost there and just kept going. I knocked on the door and Candi answered.
“What do you want?” she asked,
“ I have papers for Lori, she home or can I just leave them here?”
Candi said, “she is in there asleep still, she had a very long night and didn’t get much sleep, the neighbors could hear her”, she said with a smile. “you can go in”.
So I walked down the hall to bedrooms and just opened the door and froze. Laying on his back, on the bed, naked, was this large, very large, black man. Lori was to his side, laying on his arm, naked too. My opening the door awoke them both. He just grinned, Lori took a minute and then just exploded. “What the fuck are you doing here? “ I was still in shock. I stammered and tried to talk but just turned around and closed the door and walked out.
Candi was laughing as I got to the kitchen to leave, saying “did I forget to tell you she had company? Oh I am sorry. But its time they got up, he must have fucked her 4 or 5 times last night, seriously, my neighbors are going to boot me out because of her.” She was laughing the whole time.
I got out, sat in the truck for a minute, processing it all, totally embarrassed, humiliated. Seeing him, the man was huge, very black, I could not tell how old, but at least her age, maybe older, but big, a big belly, and a cock, my god, it was over his huge thigh, hanging on the other side, it had to be 6 maybe 7 inches and was soft. And it was thick. My god, that man’s cock was huge. He was bigger soft than I get hard. My mind seeing Lori, her left breast visible as she was laying next to him. Her ass clearly visible. I was almost hyperventilating but then realized too, I had a massive hard on.
I started the truck and was a block away when my phone rang. It was Lori. I didn’t want to answer, but did.
”What the fuck” was all I heard. I wanted to say, ask, say so many things, but finally said “look, I am sorry, Candi said you were sleeping, how the fuck was I supposed to know.” With that Lori knew it was not my fault, but still, I should have confirmed before just dropping in. New imagines I would never get out of my head.
We continued to date some till she said ok, she thinks we should talk about her moving home. We were at my place, well our place, the kids were gone to friends for the night so we had it to ourselves. We were sitting on the couch talking. So we had the discussion, she had found a counselor and felt it was time, if I was open to that. I said sure, asked her who the counselor was and when we should book an appointment. She said she had gone a few times alone, to work out some things and that I should plan to join in about 3 weeks or so. We talked dates and had it pretty well worked out.
She said it would be good to be home, she didn’t want to deal with Candi’s dates any more…. Although.. and she let it just hang there for a minute.
She said, “remember when you ‘dropped’ by?” I said yes.
She said “that was Nathan. Nathan is older, 59, and he is married. With him its not dating, being married and all he can’t go on dates and honestly he is not my type to date anyway, not that it ever mattered to Candi who my type was, she would bring home guys that I .. oh, I am sorry, I didn’t mean… anyway. Nathan, with Nathan, it’s about the sex. That’s all it is. He is exceptional in bed, and I am not trying to compare anyone, just saying”, she said then paused.
“so what I am trying to say, is, I want to keep seeing him. I know this is not what you want probably and not how you expected, but when I come home, you will have me there. We will still need to date, you and I, and get used to each other again, but I want us to work. I really do. “
She paused, I think expecting me to say something but I was just waiting for the rest of it. I had it figured out, but needed to hear her say it.
“So, ok, this is it, I want to keep seeing Nathan. I would only be 2 or 3 times a month. Not at the house, well probably not. I will use Candi’s place, be very discreet and it is just sex. A few hours every month, that’s it. “
I said “really, that’s all? “
I could tell that was not the answer she wanted, and it made her almost take a step back.
Lori said “ok, I get it, I know it was a lot to ask, but he is not a threat to you, I promise. Think about it , don’t say yes or no yet. Please just think about it “ as her hand went to my lap, finding my limp dick.
Soon she was undoing my belt, then my pants and had my dick in her hand, playing with it, soon stroking it and as we looked at each other, she lowered her head and went down on me!
I was in heaven, she had not blown me in, hell, probably 5 yrs if not longer. She was doing well, and I was enjoying it a lot. She had never been this good before, and I was not complaining as I was getting very close to cumming over the next few minutes. Soon I was at the edge, and I tried to pull her away, saying, “ I am going to cum’, but she never stopped. She kept sucking and soon I was cumming in her mouth, something that has been over a decade, and I am not kidding, and only a handful of times.
She slowed in sucking, her head going slower, my dick getting softer, but still in her mouth. I was in awe, that was like something you would expect from a PRO. Finally, she lifted her head, licking her liips, and I realized she had to have swallowed my cum. From all the jerking off, I knew there could not have been a lot, but still, this was amazing.
We have been together, either dating or married for over 19 yrs, and she has only ever sucked me maybe a total of a dozen times. And those times almost always she told me to not cum in her mouth or if I had, she has spit it out. Only once before had she ever swallowed.
She left shortly after. I kept thinking, what just happened, what world did I just jump in and out of. Days went by before we talked again. It as a call about one of the kids and was ending when she asked if I had give any more thought to her proposal to move back home. I know I should have thought more about it, but the weak guy in me wanted her back. I wanted her back for me, and for the kids. I said I had, and that if it were just him, then ok. But we should talk more about how, when, discretion and all that. She was almost giddy, and said great, we would.
It would be another 3 months before she was ready to move back home. We dated once in that time frame but talked a lot more. Her being home was a bit strange at first, like you thought things would instantly be back to normal, but they were, well, awkward at best. But we worked at it, the kids were happy, so we moved forward one foot at a time.
Of course maybe it was awkward because of what more I found out during the move. Lori didn’t initially take a lot of things, but over time had accumulated quite a bit at Candi’s condo. I of course was sent over to get most she had already packed while she had to be at some work event. Candi was there, which I dreaded, but I decided I was not going to engage. I had taken one load of boxes to the truck and was back when she confronted me.
She said, “you know I don’t like you right?” I said “ you have made that clear throughout the years, yes.”
She said, “You think that wife of yours is so holy, sit down, let me tell you how holy she is.” I said, “Candi, really, I don’t have time for this”
She said, “Sit, it won’t take long. Has she told you how many guys she had sex with? ” I didn’t answer, since no, I had no idea.
She went on “ from my count and that’s the ones I know I brought home for her, its close to 50. Has she told you all the guys that you know that she fucked? “
From the look on my face, she knew I had no idea, she laughed.
“Oh I kept her busy, no doubt, but she had found guys all on her own too. You think it was all me, but it was not. And Nathan, did she tell you how that happened? He is special. A truly great fuck, I have been with him for many years, but happy to let her have him for now.”
I know I should have got up and left, but this was to much to walk from, it was like a moth to a flame, I could get burned knowing to much but I just could not stop listening and sat down.
“Let me tell you what you don’t know about her, maybe you will finally understand her” she said.
“Back in college she was ***** one night. Before then she was pretty normal, and had a spine. But after that night, she put on a good face, but something in her snapped, and she can be, almost desires to be, very sub. I know it, but probably only a few people have ever known it. She wants that, but it takes the right guy to bring it out in her.”
“ I happened to let Nathan know, so he knew just what to do. But before you think I betrayed her, she wanted it, needed it, and loves it.”
“first, a list of guys you might not know have been between her legs, ready? You know the Italian restaurant you all go to all the time? Sergio, the owner, he has been here quite a few times, as has son, the dorky one. They don’t now of each other. Sergio seduced her, but I brought the kid. Then there is her boss, again, another married man, he has been here a few times. Then there is your yard guy” she burst out laughing.
“ Oh the look on her face when I brought him in. Good thing I speak Spanish and she does not, she would be even more mortified of how I painted her to him. But on the bright side, I never have to pay him to do my yard again. You on the other hand, will still have to pay him”
“The list is long, with all the guys I brought home for her, and her list, its well over 50. I would bring guys home 3 and 4 nights a week. She really didn’t want to fuck any of them usually. But she knew I wanted her to. So she would. She would take them in her room, and some she was just a cum dump for, but others, oh my, your wife can be a screamer, did you know? I doubt it, you never made her scream when you fucked her here. She has told me you have a very talented tongue, guess that’s code for your dick sucks.”
“then there was the time not to long ago, some guy spent the night with her and in the morning, could hear him taking her again, she was screaming, moaning, she was enjoying herself. He came out soon and left. It was about 8am. About noon, I had the college guys over and talked her into letting the one fuck her, she really did not want to, but she went in there with him, and man, she was screaming again. But that’s not the end, that night, there was another guy, so 3 all in one day.”
It was getting humiliating sitting and listening, but I let her go on.
“ oh the nights I heard her say no, no, then minutes later be screaming yes yes. That **** in college really fucked her up for life. The rougher a guy was with her the more she could cum, it was hot to listen if I do say so myself. It’s a shame we didn’t realize this in college, I could have had her experience great sex back then rather than waiting till now. “
“I told Nathan all about her past. I told him just how to do it, and helped him. She is hooked on him, not as a lover, but she loves the sex, but he holds her mind. She is not in love with him at all, but she needs him. You will never be him or be able to hold that spot for her. She will know Nathan till he dies, you will see.”
“He was here with me, that’s how she met him. From the start, he would boss her around. She was ***** by a black man, so when he barked, she jumped. He would have her watch us fuck, asking her if she ever had sex like that before, which she never did. He made her masturbate watching us. He would bring guys to fuck her, she resisted, but gave in. Most of the black guys were the of the No, no, then the YES YES.” She was smiling, watching my face, my mind just beyond belief how she could have treated, tormented my wife.
“When he would come over, we made her our little slave. She would get us drinks, suck hm to get him hard for me. And after, she had to lick his cum from my pussy. You know, you remember that she and I hooked up in college a few times, I know she told you. She still has it, she has a great mouth, I love her so much, I know you think I don’t, but I do, I see what she needs, and you can never give it to her, I can.”
“See you don’t push her limits, you are a doormat, she needs me, needs me to push her, make her realize who she is and treat her like she wants. “ I could not believe this, she was insane, but at the same time, I could see how much of it could be true. Sure, Therapy might seem like the more logical choice to so many people, including me, but this woman knew what my wife wanted it seemed.
I said “From everything you said, it sounds like therapy would be a better choice and let her heal”. She burst out laughing and said “ but what fun would that be? “
“did you know you were almost a daddy? “ I know my eyes must have bulged out. “yea, a few months ago she missed her period, she took the test, she was pregnant. It was Nathans. You could be raising a little mixed baby! Just think your girls could have a younger sister or brother. Lucky you though, she miscarried 2 months later.”
I was in shock, but she went on “you see, when she would watch us, cum with her hands watching us, suck his cock, and eat his cum from my pussy, it just made her want him more and more. UP to that point the rule was condoms! But, when the time came for Nathan to fuck her, well, we made her beg him. I had to take her aside, tell her that he didn’t feel like she wanted him bad enough, she was literally going to have to beg him to fuck her. So she did. It was so cute to see. “
“And this was all her, I could not have orchestrated it better myself. He was in bed with her, and this is her telling me later, but Nathan told me too. She was in bed, he had put on the condom and was about to fuck her when she stopped him, said no, and reached up and pulled the condom off, and told him she wanted him to fuck her bare, she wanted his cum in her. “
I was in shock, visualizing that scene. I could not blame Candi anymore, I mean I could, but Lori did that, did that on her own? Wow. How did I never see that side of her, how could this very same woman be the wife I know? But her story has explained so many things now. I always though there was something lurking in her head at times, now I get it. Well, no, I don’t get it, but I can accept Lori has issues, and probably will for life.
I think I was stunned, and just sat there for a few minutes, neither of us spoke for a while. Then she broke the silence with “ you love her, she loves you, she will never do for you what she will for others who don’t love her. She will do almost anything for those that just use her.”
“It was your wife who made me this way. In college I had been a parties and was sewing my oats a lot, but never with a black boy, and when she was *****, I was the one she came to. She told me over and over of how it happened, how embarrassed she was, how humiliated she was. But her story, the sex, my god, it never left my mind. I might as well have been used and abused too, but no, I wasn’t, I am not saying I was, but her graphic tales sent my head spinning. She said the two of them picked her up near the little store in town and was going to bring her back to the dorm. She thought she knew the one but turns out she didn’t. They drove her to some abandoned building just a few blocks away. “
I was in shock, she went on “ She said they initially were just tormenting her as she tried to leave, blocking her every way, soon she was crying and one of them, walked over to her and slapped her hard, knocking her down. She said she realized then they were serious. They told her to get naked, she didn’t, they hit her again. Sobbing she said she did undress. The one guy then pushed her back and was soon on top of her.”
“She said they used condoms, but that initially she tried to just lay there and block it out as he fucked her. She told me the whole time he was laughing, they both were, laughing at her, saying things like yea, that wont work, but you keep trying, and she said he was fucking her like slow, in no hurry, she wanted him to hurry, finish, get off her. “
“She never told you any of this did she? “ She asked. I said no.
“she told me the were saying it will happen. soon enough, it will. She had no idea what they were talking about, and she said it seemed like an hour, but she knew it was only 5, maybe 10 minutes, that as hard as she tried to think of other things or him stopping or anything, her mind more and more was on how her pussy was getting moist. How she was lubricating for him. She said she was humiliated; she was starting to enjoy it.”
“I won’t go on forever,” she said, “ I can see I have already excited you. “ I was not even aware, talk about embarrassed, yes, I had a hard on. holy fuck. I felt bad, how could I be hearing how someone was so abused in life, my wife even.
She went on “ they kept her there all day and all night, just leaving her there the next day when they left. After they made her cum the first time, she told me they never forced her again, that she was willing, she had never had an orgasm from intercourse before then, she was confused, but the pleasure was amazing. When the first guy kept fucking her she came more . When he was done and the other one wanted her, she got on top, she fucked him, multiple times. It has fucked her up ever since. “
I was in total shock. I didn’t know what to do, say or even think. I stood up, said ‘I have to go” She laughed, said ‘Good luck, your wife will be back here you know, she can’t stay away.“
I grabbed the rest of Lori’s stuff and packed the truck and went home. It was all I could think about. How Candi talked about her, How Candi seemed to know her so differently than I did. Lori came home an hour later and kissed me on the cheek, saying thank you for picking up her stuff. The kids were home so we didn’t talk till later that night.
I wanted to ask so many things, but didn’t know how to bring it up. As we got into bed we were kissing and soon I was licking her nipples and enjoying her body! As I kissed her all over and worked my way down to her bare pussy, I marveled again how great it looked bare. Thinking this is not for me, was never for me, but that only made me harder as I ate her to an orgasm. I let her rest as I moved up, kissing on her, letting her enjoy the orgasm for a few minutes.
As I started to pay attention again to her, she was rubbing on me, and then asked ‘Did you bring the condoms? “ I was like stunned... thinking... what? And said, “no, I thought…” when she said, “remember, we agreed to ‘date’ still for a while, I don’t want to just jump into this and not want it, I hope you can understand, I want to be here, but we need to work at it, do you have any condoms here?”
I said “no, I don’t.” then she said “ok lets do this, I know you like it when I play with your nipples.. ‘ so she got on top of me.. she positioned her pussy lips over my cock and started to rock back and forth, her pussy was still very wet from me eating her and she soon started to slide easily back and forth. I reached up to play with her breasts while her hands found my nipples, twisting them and pulling on them. We did this for about 3 or 4 minutes, when she asked “ is this ok? Can you cum? “
I was enjoying it a ton, but it was not going to happen soon and told her, saying how yes, I love it, but keep going, so she did for a while, then after about 5 minutes she stopped and rolled off to one side.
She had reached down and started to stroke my dick and moved so her mouth could suck my nipples. I loved that too, I was close, when she used her other hand to pull my hand to my cock, and soon had me stroking it, while she sucked some. Soon she was sitting up with her hands now playing with my nipples, she leaned down and started to talk.
‘That’s it baby.. you can cum… think how I want you in me when you can, think how good that will be, I want you to cum.” Soon she was just laying next to me, talking to me, no longer playing with me at all, but I had not noticed, I was hearing her and into it, just jerking off, and soon I was cumming. The whole event was amazing, it was days later before I realized I had just jerked off. I mean it was more than that, but still. That whole event played back in my mind, we had never done that, she was never usually the one to decide or control things like that.
I purchased condoms the next day, but it was week later before I got to use them. Life was busy, we were not really connecting like I wanted. It was not forced, but not comfortable yet and I didn’t want to make her uncomfortable either by pushing things.
I was looking forward to the weekend and thought we would have more time to connect with no work and one of the kids would be gone for the weekend.
When we went to bed Friday night I thought mentally it was a good space and started touching her holding her and kissing her, and she responded, but then after a few minutes she stopped me, and said she wanted to make sure I realized it would be one way sex that night. I was a bit stunned but that was becoming normal, so then asked her what she meant.
She said, “ ok oh, maybe its my fault, I know we talked about this, but you agreed I could see Nathan again, and I don’t want to bring him up in bed, but we also talked about dating and things and maybe I did forget to tell you I was seeing him tomorrow. I know we talked about the space between you two, right. I want to be clean for him and I want to be clean for you, so no sex tonight, and then no sex Sunday then I can be clean for him tomorrow and clean for you all next week. I mean I hope you understand this, honey, I know it’s a lot, I am sorry, but for now, I think this is what I need. Can you understand?”
I just looked at her, I was mad, but I tried to hold back, yes we had talked about all that, but she failed to tell me about tomorrow, till now. So I told her. “ I am not thrilled, I will be honest, but if you could give me a bit more warning or whatever, keep me informed a little bit more in advance that would be good. And what do you mean one way, I am confused.” She smiled and said, well I want to be clean, and I want to be mentally in the mood too, but if you wanted to go down on me, that is all I would be willing to do. I love you; you know I do, but for me to please you in anyway, mentally its weird for me knowing tomorrow I will be with him. I guess its not just being clean, but thinking who I am with, and I know this is going to come out wrong, but if I make you cum, it would be like cheating on him, and if I make him cum tomorrow and you Sunday, it would be like cheating on you. “
We both stared for a while, and I was just numb, thinking did that make sense?? I said” ok... I don’t think your analogy got it, but I think I understand.”
So we laid there and she turned the light off and it was maybe 10, 15 minutes, my mind was just running through the things Candi told me, what they would be doing tomorrow, how he would be fucking her and it was all to much, my cock was hard as a rock, I know looking back it was a bad move, but I pushed the covers down and went between her legs and ate her to an intense orgasm, I could tell.
I then pulled out some tissues and jerked off next to her. When I had finished, she moved over next to me, curled up with me and kissed my ear, saying thank you that was so sweet and how she loved me for understanding.
I had plans the next day and didn’t see her much before she left, but it was all I could think about. What was she doing, how, when, where, the usual. She was home about 6pm and we had dinner with the kids and watched a movie, Later in bed, she was exhausted and fell asleep quickly. I stared at her for 15 minutes, just looking, my mind going over what her day might have entailed.
I got up and went to the bathroom, I was going to jerk off when I saw the hamper and went to it, looking for her panties. They were under a shirt I had worn that day. Taking them out, I felt like a child, but wanted to see. Opening them it was clear they were the ones. I looked for others and found the ones from the previous day and did a comparison. Today's were a mess, a huge white crusty stain in the crotch. And mans cum, leaked from her pussy into her panties. I had the biggest hard on. I put them both back and then went and jerked off and went to bed.
The next time we made love was similar, but I know the gnawing feelings I had as I was kissing her and sucking her nipples, and licking her pussy, but just about her with him, my mind was racing with self-created images of her sucking his cock, being fucked in multiple positions, his huge cock buried in her, seeing her face contort as she orgasmed from him. I had made her cum from licking her pussy, clit and was putting on the condom when I noticed I was not fully hard. I managed to get it on and was fucking her but could tell I was not fully hard. My mind just thinking about how he makes her cum and I don’t fucking her, how she must be thinking of him when I am doing this and how disappointed she must be feeling this in her now.
I tried to then think how irrational they were, and that she could and would separate the two events and not compare us. The more I thought about his cock in her, I finally did cum, filing the condom. Then my mind went to how I just did that, why did he get to fill her pussy and I get to fill a condom. I took it off and threw it in the trash, we went to sleep.
The next weekend arrived and she told me Thursday that she would be seeing Nathan on Saturday again. This time was home and just around the house when she was getting ready in the morning. It was a long pampering session for her, it was clear she wanted to see him and was enjoying the process of getting ready. She showered, shaved, lotioned and picked a few different outfits. Nothing wild, it was a Saturday afternoon after all. As she stood naked in front of the mirror I was in the bedroom, trying to watch, but not be so obvious. She had picked out a pair of bikini panties and I watched her slip them in her purse. Then she slipped on a lace bra, and a button down thin cotton top, and slip up a short, but not overly short nasty skirt. Here big breasts clearly dominating my vision and then her bare legs. I had a hard on.
I went downstairs before she walked out and it was about 15 min later when she came down. I told her how nice she looked and she thanked me. She talked to the kids some, said she would be shopping and home later. When it was just us, I looked and it was only 11am, and said she was going early. She said she did have some shopping to do and was getting her nails done before going to Candi’s. She had that glimmer in her eye when she said going to Candi’s.
That night again, she was tired, and I went to the bathroom. I looked again and found the panties she had stuffed into her purse in the hamper, full of his cum again. I smelled them, a very strong mucky odor. I put them back and jerked off before going to bed.
We didn’t have sex for another 2 weeks. Mostly me, I thought about it 24/7, but was jerking off so much it was taking care of my need. I did keep asking her questions here and there, which she would not answer so much.
It was the 2 month mark of her being home where we had sex one night, and as I put the condom on I latterly just went limp. I had been having issues as I described before, but this time, was much more obvious. She was watching, but there was nothing I could do. The visual in my mind of him stretching her out to fuck her, and me not, just fucked with my mind to much.
She could see the issue and said “ that’s ok honey, another night, lay here. “ I hadn’t really wanted to stop, I wanted to cum, but let her lead. This was becoming pretty common. She would ‘suggest’ we try other things over the past few weeks, where we didn’t fuck as much. Once she grinded on me, the other time I fucked her tits.
She was home 3 months when one night I said we need to talk, this not talking about things was bothering me. She was open and we sat down. I told her I wanted to know more, why was she still dating him, what was it about him.
She was not mad, and it kinda was good to see she was finally going to talk. She said “honey, its not dating. It is just sex. I know it might not seem fair. I get it. I can’t fully explain why I need both of you, but I do, and I want you to know I need you, and want you. He is a very good lover and has shown me I can orgasm in ways I never have, and I love that feeling. I don’t know what else to tell you, its pure sex.”
I asked, “so he is bigger? Lasts longer? What? “ She said, “yes, all that, he is very thick, and I can feel the difference immediately and then there is his length, its like, how do I say this. Its like I have a small clit deep in me. Its never been touched before, but with him, as he is fully in me, its like he is pushing that button or clit deep in me and sending shock waves throughout my body, allowing me to orgasm in ways I never knew. I know its not a clit, but you get the idea. And yes, he can last, most times too long. I have to beg him to finally cum.”
I was hard hearing her tell me details finally. It was intimidating to hear, but she was kind, not trying to compare us, just explaining.
She went on “ he can go 2 or 3 times too, its amazing, I mean its just fucking when we are together at Candi’s.” I asked, “so no oral?” I saw a look on her face, she took a second, and then said “ I won’t lie to you, yes, I suck him, once a week, it’s the least I can do for the pleasure he gives me.”
I was in shock, when I asked, I meant did he not eat her, but this was totally unexpected. Lori didn’t do oral, I mean in our 20 yrs together, it was like 6 times, she hated it.
“Wait, what?” I said. “you blow him? Once a week? Where, how?”
She had this almost reluctant look on her face, but said “ I know, I don’t like oral as you know, but somehow, with him, its different. I don’t fully love it, but it’s like I feel I want to do that for him, since he asked for it. He will come by and pick me up and we drive around or I have been to the college and he has a room that is private where I do that for him.”
“oral is not sex honey, but I understand you might be upset. Know he is the only one I have ever done this with. I didn’t do it with any others while separated, and don’t see doing it with anyone else but him.”
“including me” I said.. finishing her sentence.
“please don’t be like that” she said, sensing my sarcasm and hurt and ting of anger.
“so you swallow too” I said. “yes” she said. “again, with him, its just different, I am not sure how to explain it”
I was beside myself. I could not believe this, I mean I was mad, but also had a hard on. I could not understand my own emotions at this point, why did it turn me on, she wasn’t sucking me!
I left it at that, I knew if we kept talking, I would say more things I might regret, I was mad, I wanted blowjobs, but thought I needed to think this through more and see how I could make this work for me somehow.
A week later we were having sex, I had just eaten her to an orgasm and she had come down, I had each over and was putting on the condom when she said I didn’t have to, that I was her husband and didn’t have to do that any longer. I then slipped my dick into her and fucked her for a minute before filling her with the little cum left in my balls since I jerked off so much.
That’s our life to this point, how I ended up watching her get ready for her date with Nathan. I don’t know where it will go, but don’t see it stopping any time soon. As long as Candi is around, I sense she will be pushing Lori more as she did before we separated, getting her to possibly fuck more men, but I don’t know. Knowing what I do now, learning what happened to Lori in college, I don’t know what to think. But it has told me I should let her explore, let her be her, and just be there for her.
Being in second place was never my idea, but it seems the role I am going to be in for a while. If things change, I will let you know.
