I have been divorced for around 10 years now. I knew my husband had been cheating on me. I didn't tell him because I liked it and didn't want him to know. When he would message me saying he'd be late coming home or not coming home at all. I knew he was with her and I would masturbate thinking of them together. I didn't know at the time about cuckqueaning. So he divorced me for the woman he was cheating with. I found out about cuckqueaning like 5 years after the divorce. I have not been on a date or had sex since my marriage. But I have done a lot of masturbating. I constantly follow their facebooks/Instagrams/twitter accounts. I sometimes feel like maybe they know. It's almost like they are cucking me still in a way.