Hello everyone,
It may sound strange to some, but I've tried for years to suppress the fact that I have a small penis.
I always told myself that I had an average penis and that it was women's fault if they didn't have an orgasm from me. In retrospect, that was unfair to the women and unfair to myself.
I've been on porn sites a lot in the last few years and that's where I accidentally discovered SPH videos and captions. I didn't know what to do with it at the beginning, but I was curious.
In most of the videos and pictures the penises are similar in size to mine and at some point I started to ask myself whether I might be poorly endowed rather than just on the lower side.
I started thinking back to my old relationships and what sex was like there. Until then I always had good memories of it, but suddenly I remembered moments where the picture I had of myself was scratched a bit.
I had big problems getting an erection with my first girlfriend. Although she showed understanding at the beginning, she ended the relationship after a few weeks for no reason at all.
I had no problems with my erection with my second girlfriend. We even had sex often. But she once said that her ex-boyfriend had a much bigger penis than me.
My third girlfriend wanted to have sex a lot in the first few weeks of our relationship, but suddenly she didn't want sex at all. Even though we only saw each other on weekends, she often told me that she had migraines and didn't feel like having sex.
My fourth girlfriend told me several times that her ex-boyfriends had larger penises and that her last boyfriend in particular was particularly well endowed. At one point in the relationship she was safe and at another time she was probably cheating on me.
I've been married for a few years now. We have a great relationship but the sex became less and less. We have been having sex between 1-5 times a year for almost 10 years. I put it down to the length of the relationship, you always read that sex becomes less in a long-term relationship.
My wife confessed to me a few days ago that she didn't want to hurt my feelings and that she just doesn't enjoy sex with me and that she has never had an orgasm vaginally (except orally).
It's unpleasant to find out something like that from the woman you love, but I also know that it has no effect on the relationship. Somehow I subconsciously expected it, felt it. It hurt less than expected. Almost the opposite.
Because I was dealing with SPH and reading more and more about it, the idea that it wasn't so bad to have a small penis began to occur to me. It's hard to describe, but it feels like I'm making a virtue out of necessity.
My wife and I have talked for several hours about our sexuality, our wishes and ideas. I was very nervous because I'm a completely different, confident man in real life, but she was very understanding and open. We found a common way to make the best of it.
The conversation was also the decisive point why I can accept my penis size as it is. All the pressure of having to perform, of having to prove something to women (my wife) is gone. It just feels fantastic to no longer have to be someone you can't be.
Of course, I'm also lucky that my wife is very understanding and vaginal sex isn't so important to her that it has a negative impact on the relationship. I don't take that for granted because I know a woman in my circle who thinks completely differently.
It may sound strange to some, but I've tried for years to suppress the fact that I have a small penis.
I always told myself that I had an average penis and that it was women's fault if they didn't have an orgasm from me. In retrospect, that was unfair to the women and unfair to myself.
I've been on porn sites a lot in the last few years and that's where I accidentally discovered SPH videos and captions. I didn't know what to do with it at the beginning, but I was curious.
In most of the videos and pictures the penises are similar in size to mine and at some point I started to ask myself whether I might be poorly endowed rather than just on the lower side.
I started thinking back to my old relationships and what sex was like there. Until then I always had good memories of it, but suddenly I remembered moments where the picture I had of myself was scratched a bit.
I had big problems getting an erection with my first girlfriend. Although she showed understanding at the beginning, she ended the relationship after a few weeks for no reason at all.
I had no problems with my erection with my second girlfriend. We even had sex often. But she once said that her ex-boyfriend had a much bigger penis than me.
My third girlfriend wanted to have sex a lot in the first few weeks of our relationship, but suddenly she didn't want sex at all. Even though we only saw each other on weekends, she often told me that she had migraines and didn't feel like having sex.
My fourth girlfriend told me several times that her ex-boyfriends had larger penises and that her last boyfriend in particular was particularly well endowed. At one point in the relationship she was safe and at another time she was probably cheating on me.
I've been married for a few years now. We have a great relationship but the sex became less and less. We have been having sex between 1-5 times a year for almost 10 years. I put it down to the length of the relationship, you always read that sex becomes less in a long-term relationship.
My wife confessed to me a few days ago that she didn't want to hurt my feelings and that she just doesn't enjoy sex with me and that she has never had an orgasm vaginally (except orally).
It's unpleasant to find out something like that from the woman you love, but I also know that it has no effect on the relationship. Somehow I subconsciously expected it, felt it. It hurt less than expected. Almost the opposite.
Because I was dealing with SPH and reading more and more about it, the idea that it wasn't so bad to have a small penis began to occur to me. It's hard to describe, but it feels like I'm making a virtue out of necessity.
My wife and I have talked for several hours about our sexuality, our wishes and ideas. I was very nervous because I'm a completely different, confident man in real life, but she was very understanding and open. We found a common way to make the best of it.
The conversation was also the decisive point why I can accept my penis size as it is. All the pressure of having to perform, of having to prove something to women (my wife) is gone. It just feels fantastic to no longer have to be someone you can't be.
Of course, I'm also lucky that my wife is very understanding and vaginal sex isn't so important to her that it has a negative impact on the relationship. I don't take that for granted because I know a woman in my circle who thinks completely differently.
