Nikkicd-tv
I'm a Gurl in the wrong body, who loves black men
Frankly, I am shocked to report this, but it actually works!
I listen to hypnosis "boosters" for about 5-10 minutes, and then pick a subject. Usually it is either shrinking my clitty, or hormonal changes, and even weight-loss. I listen for an hour or two, and take a break, and then re-boost and go at it again. So far, I can feminize my voice to what sounds pretty feminine to me, and my clitty has lost an inch when aroused, and when erect. Fully hard I am now at 4 inches, down an inch or so. I also can no longer maintain hardness. I find this progress very satisfying and will continue my efforts!
Before people start bashing me, yes, I know, in order for hypnosis to work, the recipient has to want it to work. Well, this works in my favor because I really want to become a female! Not a sissy or ABDL gurl, but a true woman. But this is going to be vastly difficult for some reasons:
First, I've come out to my wife as bi-sexual. Her tone was frosty, and while she accepted it, I was pretty much warned about being with a man considered as cheating. All the while, she is ok with a sexless marriage (it has been 4 years since last intercourse) and yet I am stuck, filled with physical needs. In my case, it is the need to be a female. She is ******* of the goals I have, and the times I have tried to broach them, she shuts them down very hard. But I will endure this, even if it becomes an insurmountable obstacle, because despite everything in the physical realm, I love her beyond all measure and time emotionally. What I long for is a man to make me feel like the woman I am.
I came upon my feminization realization due to some aspects of my life starting in childhood. From sexual abuse by a neighbor, to emotional abuse by my mother, I was emasculated and lived a mostly feminine life starting at age 9. I've been dressing most of my life and have had sex as a woman as early as age 10 (the sexual abuse part). What I came to find is that I enjoy the attentions I get as a woman. I also find that I LOVE wearing women's clothing. Panties, skirts, blouses, dresses, pants, lingerie and heels, all of it. My satin fetish is damn near all-consuming. So to further these aims, I turned to feminization videos I found through Fet, and have had some remarkable (to me at any rate) results!
Second, most of my vids are on YouTube, which is a battle, in that the really good ones tend to get shut-down for some reason, and so I continually search for new, effective content. I have found a couple on Hypnotube as well.
Third is career. I can't come out as who I am inside, until I can get my ******-situation squared away. Then I can look into it. But for now, I still need income, and in my industry (videography) there are so few females, cis- or trans, so to make it successfully will be an uphill battle. I would do porn shoots, if asked, as I have the equipment and can do a modest job on my own. But real production crews are hard to come by and no one wants to hire that expense. Plus the invention of OnlyFans and the like have made for real competition.
So for now, I will continue to feminize, and listen to my hypnosis playlists. All in hopes that one day, I will make my dream come true!
I listen to hypnosis "boosters" for about 5-10 minutes, and then pick a subject. Usually it is either shrinking my clitty, or hormonal changes, and even weight-loss. I listen for an hour or two, and take a break, and then re-boost and go at it again. So far, I can feminize my voice to what sounds pretty feminine to me, and my clitty has lost an inch when aroused, and when erect. Fully hard I am now at 4 inches, down an inch or so. I also can no longer maintain hardness. I find this progress very satisfying and will continue my efforts!
Before people start bashing me, yes, I know, in order for hypnosis to work, the recipient has to want it to work. Well, this works in my favor because I really want to become a female! Not a sissy or ABDL gurl, but a true woman. But this is going to be vastly difficult for some reasons:
First, I've come out to my wife as bi-sexual. Her tone was frosty, and while she accepted it, I was pretty much warned about being with a man considered as cheating. All the while, she is ok with a sexless marriage (it has been 4 years since last intercourse) and yet I am stuck, filled with physical needs. In my case, it is the need to be a female. She is ******* of the goals I have, and the times I have tried to broach them, she shuts them down very hard. But I will endure this, even if it becomes an insurmountable obstacle, because despite everything in the physical realm, I love her beyond all measure and time emotionally. What I long for is a man to make me feel like the woman I am.
I came upon my feminization realization due to some aspects of my life starting in childhood. From sexual abuse by a neighbor, to emotional abuse by my mother, I was emasculated and lived a mostly feminine life starting at age 9. I've been dressing most of my life and have had sex as a woman as early as age 10 (the sexual abuse part). What I came to find is that I enjoy the attentions I get as a woman. I also find that I LOVE wearing women's clothing. Panties, skirts, blouses, dresses, pants, lingerie and heels, all of it. My satin fetish is damn near all-consuming. So to further these aims, I turned to feminization videos I found through Fet, and have had some remarkable (to me at any rate) results!
Second, most of my vids are on YouTube, which is a battle, in that the really good ones tend to get shut-down for some reason, and so I continually search for new, effective content. I have found a couple on Hypnotube as well.
Third is career. I can't come out as who I am inside, until I can get my ******-situation squared away. Then I can look into it. But for now, I still need income, and in my industry (videography) there are so few females, cis- or trans, so to make it successfully will be an uphill battle. I would do porn shoots, if asked, as I have the equipment and can do a modest job on my own. But real production crews are hard to come by and no one wants to hire that expense. Plus the invention of OnlyFans and the like have made for real competition.
So for now, I will continue to feminize, and listen to my hypnosis playlists. All in hopes that one day, I will make my dream come true!
