Hey, so im new to this type of thing. But thought id give a small backstory.
All my life ive tried to get a girlfriend. I talked to a girl in highschool. Went on a date, she ghosted me. Went to prom, she left me to dance on other guys. After that, was in a serious talk with a girl, she ghosts.
Same thing over and over. Meanwhile, ive been pretty addicted to porn for a while, but nothing crazy.
Until recently (about 1 year ago), i found a black dildo in my sisters room.
This sent me down the spiral.
When i found it my heart was beating so fast, i came within a few seconds if touching my cock. Also keep in mind, our fam including parents are pretty racist.
Where im going with this is, ive been stroking to exclusively bbc porn for the past 6 months. And its the only thing that gets me hard, along with the thought of my sister getting blacked.
But everytime, im left with feelings of wanting a wife and kids someday. As well as im not able to bring myself to actually submit and give myself to a hungry black cock bull.
How do i get around these feelings?
Anyone able to guide me?
All my life ive tried to get a girlfriend. I talked to a girl in highschool. Went on a date, she ghosted me. Went to prom, she left me to dance on other guys. After that, was in a serious talk with a girl, she ghosts.
Same thing over and over. Meanwhile, ive been pretty addicted to porn for a while, but nothing crazy.
Until recently (about 1 year ago), i found a black dildo in my sisters room.
This sent me down the spiral.
When i found it my heart was beating so fast, i came within a few seconds if touching my cock. Also keep in mind, our fam including parents are pretty racist.
Where im going with this is, ive been stroking to exclusively bbc porn for the past 6 months. And its the only thing that gets me hard, along with the thought of my sister getting blacked.
But everytime, im left with feelings of wanting a wife and kids someday. As well as im not able to bring myself to actually submit and give myself to a hungry black cock bull.
How do i get around these feelings?
Anyone able to guide me?