I need advice. Sorry for the long post, I would really appreciate it if you read it. I don’t know how to get out of this situation! I’m writing this post because basically I’m lost. I don’t know what to do. I am a 42 year old woman. What is wrong with me? Six months ago we moved to my husband's hometown. We were forced to move from the suburbs to my husband's hometown due to financial constraints. My husband business venture collapsed.We lost our home.Settling into our new home was hard. My husband is depressed. His depression is hurting our day-to-day life, and I admit to feeling very frustrated sometimes. I love my husband dearly, but I’m having a really hard time feeling 100% respectful of him right now, and I hate that feeling. My husband and I have been married for 14 years and have a 13year old daughter! .
On June 1st i started working at this accounting firm. It is all female workplace. Other 14 employees are women in their 40s and 50s. Other women there, my coworkers, think that i am stuck up and arrogant upper middle class snob. I feel like these women don't really like me.I am considered by most of other women my coworkers to be very serious, arrogant, and stuck up.It sucks to see your coworkers do group lunches everyday and not be included. And it's not just lunches that I'm not included in. These women my coworkers are the most gossipy, nitpicking, backstabbing group I have ever come across. They are so quick to tattletale on you for some of the most minor things and chastise you. One woman group member has described me as a snob on about half a dozen occasions. I still don't really know why. I know on one of those occasions it was because I turned down the offer to go to a coffee with her after work. How not wanting to go somewhere makes me a snob, I don't know. One woman coworker always comments on my clothing saying that i am always overdressed in satin and silk clothes and glammed up.
I am 5ft10 tall heterosexual curvy hourglass shaped brunette. I am blessed with very large breasts, child bearing hips and big butt. I am always on high heels and full make up on. I have learnt to dress for my shape. I look best when I'm dressed up, 1950's style dresses, satin pencil skirts and other related nice office wear look good. I wear clothes that fit me properly. Most of my outfit are satin pant and skirt suits,satin patterns, satin coats and satin and silk blouses. I am dressing like this since i graduated college and got my first office job. It is my whole wardrobe. Its how i like to dress myself and that is my style. .
Only one woman my coworker is friendly with me. She is skinny really short like 5 ft 3 wrinkled face thin lips green eyes gray haired masculine 55 year old woman. She is motivated and highly competent at work.She is very enthusiastic, competent and helpful.She happens to be very good at her job. But she is extremely touchy feely. She started touching me on my third day there. On my third day she came up behind me while I was at my desk and started rubbing my shoulders. She always touches me, hugs me, holds my hand, places her arm around my waist.She puts her arms around me when we're standing side-by-side and talking and she randomly comes by at my office and gives me shoulder and back massages.She is always constantly patting my lower back and touching my hair.She is always hugging me around my waist.Sometimes several hugs in a row.She also always place her hand on my butt when i stand beside her.
Also because she is really short and i am tall always when she is hugging me she is pressing her face on my breasts and she is coping a feel of my butt. Also when no one is around this woman my friendly colleague touches my butt and breasts. She routinely slaps or rubs my butt. She loves to squeeze or jiggle my breasts and tell me how soft and squishy they are. She thinks they are toys.For the past four months she have touched my boobs quite a lot.Also she is constantly patting and rubbing my ass. She often hugs me around my waist and then proceeds to hump me (From behind usually but sometimes from the front).
Usually it happens in the restroom, in the hallway, by the watercooler or on the parking lot when no one is around. She never touches my breasts in front of other women coworkers. This short skinny weird woman says that because her face is at level with my breasts and I am rather large she finds touching, squeezing, rubbing, and patting them and resting her head on them comforting.She said that she finds great comfort doing this when she's stressed..
Please understand.There is a state I get into that I am struggling to understand.There are some things I don't know how to describe to you.I've been reading everything I can find about the freeze response, but it doesn't quite fit. What is wrong with me? Is this a normal reaction to getting attacked...to disappear into your head and go limp or rigid? I've never heard anyone say they did this and I'm so ashamed that I can't even say no or push her away.Usually when this short skinny ugly woman who shouldn't be touching me try to...I just kinda... let her do the touching,rubbing and hugging , but I basically just sit/stand pretty stiffly. It is all my fault.I am physically stronger than her i am 5ft10 tall well built well endowed and curvy.She is like 5ft3 tall skinny.I am always on high heels she is always in flat shoes.Standing next to me she looks like a midget.Any time I'm even within arm's reach of her, I feel her caressing me.As far as having intimacy with a woman? That's just something that I haven't done and will probably not do so.Im a straight woman never got turned on by a women..
This weirdo "friendly" woman colleague is totally controlling me. I feel like a fool, but i totally freeze up.I know it's really weird and probably sounds ridiculous. When she is groping me touching me hugging me pressing her face on my breasts I just want her to finish and leave.I am frozen to the ground.I am totally paralyzed while she is groping me,touching me or humping me.I don't know why it happens.Suddenly, I am unable to speak coherently.I'm going "ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm" "errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr" for ages and ages trying to think of what to say.Sometimes I just collapse into myself.Why would I scream my head off if a man did it but I can’t verbalize a succinct “NO” to this short skinny old woman . Am i under her spell?
Am i a victim of a Mind Control Spell? Is this woman groper colleague an expert at manipulation and mind control? I can't discuss about this situation verbally with anyone. I just can't. Suddenly, I am unable to speak coherently. I can't even talk to my husband about this. When this short masculine old skinny woman who shouldn't be touching me try to...I just kinda... let her do the touching the groping hugging or whatever, but I basically just sit/stand pretty stiffly and then start breathing again when she is done. I hate that i have grown accustomed to it. I have no idea how to stop it from happening in the first place. I wish I did..I'm practically defenceless against her.Is it possible that i am under a spell ?Is it possible to put a mind control spell on someone?
This creepy short skinny woman hasn't pushed me into having sex so far. It's just the obsessive touching me and groping me. Like she can't keep away from me. She is taking advantage of me, and i am afraid that she will just go even further. What is wrong with me? I am a straight woman, I love men, simple! I am straight and I am completely 100 percent straight. I have never been attracted to a woman sexually. I am STRICTLY hetero. Even the thought of eating out a vagina makes me gag. I've never had any desire to do anything sexual with a female.
I can't just quit this job. This is a smallish town. There aren’t many job opportunities. I fear I won’t be able to find work. I really need this salary. My husband is unemployed since his company declared bankruptcy in December 2017. We lost our home. The bank foreclosed on our house. All the while, he has done our finances and never really was open to my having access to them. I think it was a control issue at first and later he didn't want me to know. That is why we had to move here in his hometown.
I am like totally paralyzed while she is touching me and groping me.Mouth is open but no words come out of it.I am so confused about what is happening to me!Whether or not it is my fault or not!I feel so ashamed.When she places her hands on me i can't move my hands and legs and i can't speak.She has power over me.I'm just lost. Should I even be upset?I'm SO embarrassed.I can't relax and its constantly on my mind, I can't sleep.It is very frustrating.I can't report her to HR because I don’t think I can discuss this verbally with anyone.It was really hard for me to write this.I am a 42year old woman.I feel embarrassed and ashamed of myself.I'm confused and my mind doesn't stop. I really worry that I'm going to lose myself completely!
On June 1st i started working at this accounting firm. It is all female workplace. Other 14 employees are women in their 40s and 50s. Other women there, my coworkers, think that i am stuck up and arrogant upper middle class snob. I feel like these women don't really like me.I am considered by most of other women my coworkers to be very serious, arrogant, and stuck up.It sucks to see your coworkers do group lunches everyday and not be included. And it's not just lunches that I'm not included in. These women my coworkers are the most gossipy, nitpicking, backstabbing group I have ever come across. They are so quick to tattletale on you for some of the most minor things and chastise you. One woman group member has described me as a snob on about half a dozen occasions. I still don't really know why. I know on one of those occasions it was because I turned down the offer to go to a coffee with her after work. How not wanting to go somewhere makes me a snob, I don't know. One woman coworker always comments on my clothing saying that i am always overdressed in satin and silk clothes and glammed up.
I am 5ft10 tall heterosexual curvy hourglass shaped brunette. I am blessed with very large breasts, child bearing hips and big butt. I am always on high heels and full make up on. I have learnt to dress for my shape. I look best when I'm dressed up, 1950's style dresses, satin pencil skirts and other related nice office wear look good. I wear clothes that fit me properly. Most of my outfit are satin pant and skirt suits,satin patterns, satin coats and satin and silk blouses. I am dressing like this since i graduated college and got my first office job. It is my whole wardrobe. Its how i like to dress myself and that is my style. .
Only one woman my coworker is friendly with me. She is skinny really short like 5 ft 3 wrinkled face thin lips green eyes gray haired masculine 55 year old woman. She is motivated and highly competent at work.She is very enthusiastic, competent and helpful.She happens to be very good at her job. But she is extremely touchy feely. She started touching me on my third day there. On my third day she came up behind me while I was at my desk and started rubbing my shoulders. She always touches me, hugs me, holds my hand, places her arm around my waist.She puts her arms around me when we're standing side-by-side and talking and she randomly comes by at my office and gives me shoulder and back massages.She is always constantly patting my lower back and touching my hair.She is always hugging me around my waist.Sometimes several hugs in a row.She also always place her hand on my butt when i stand beside her.
Also because she is really short and i am tall always when she is hugging me she is pressing her face on my breasts and she is coping a feel of my butt. Also when no one is around this woman my friendly colleague touches my butt and breasts. She routinely slaps or rubs my butt. She loves to squeeze or jiggle my breasts and tell me how soft and squishy they are. She thinks they are toys.For the past four months she have touched my boobs quite a lot.Also she is constantly patting and rubbing my ass. She often hugs me around my waist and then proceeds to hump me (From behind usually but sometimes from the front).
Usually it happens in the restroom, in the hallway, by the watercooler or on the parking lot when no one is around. She never touches my breasts in front of other women coworkers. This short skinny weird woman says that because her face is at level with my breasts and I am rather large she finds touching, squeezing, rubbing, and patting them and resting her head on them comforting.She said that she finds great comfort doing this when she's stressed..
Please understand.There is a state I get into that I am struggling to understand.There are some things I don't know how to describe to you.I've been reading everything I can find about the freeze response, but it doesn't quite fit. What is wrong with me? Is this a normal reaction to getting attacked...to disappear into your head and go limp or rigid? I've never heard anyone say they did this and I'm so ashamed that I can't even say no or push her away.Usually when this short skinny ugly woman who shouldn't be touching me try to...I just kinda... let her do the touching,rubbing and hugging , but I basically just sit/stand pretty stiffly. It is all my fault.I am physically stronger than her i am 5ft10 tall well built well endowed and curvy.She is like 5ft3 tall skinny.I am always on high heels she is always in flat shoes.Standing next to me she looks like a midget.Any time I'm even within arm's reach of her, I feel her caressing me.As far as having intimacy with a woman? That's just something that I haven't done and will probably not do so.Im a straight woman never got turned on by a women..
This weirdo "friendly" woman colleague is totally controlling me. I feel like a fool, but i totally freeze up.I know it's really weird and probably sounds ridiculous. When she is groping me touching me hugging me pressing her face on my breasts I just want her to finish and leave.I am frozen to the ground.I am totally paralyzed while she is groping me,touching me or humping me.I don't know why it happens.Suddenly, I am unable to speak coherently.I'm going "ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm" "errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr" for ages and ages trying to think of what to say.Sometimes I just collapse into myself.Why would I scream my head off if a man did it but I can’t verbalize a succinct “NO” to this short skinny old woman . Am i under her spell?
Am i a victim of a Mind Control Spell? Is this woman groper colleague an expert at manipulation and mind control? I can't discuss about this situation verbally with anyone. I just can't. Suddenly, I am unable to speak coherently. I can't even talk to my husband about this. When this short masculine old skinny woman who shouldn't be touching me try to...I just kinda... let her do the touching the groping hugging or whatever, but I basically just sit/stand pretty stiffly and then start breathing again when she is done. I hate that i have grown accustomed to it. I have no idea how to stop it from happening in the first place. I wish I did..I'm practically defenceless against her.Is it possible that i am under a spell ?Is it possible to put a mind control spell on someone?
This creepy short skinny woman hasn't pushed me into having sex so far. It's just the obsessive touching me and groping me. Like she can't keep away from me. She is taking advantage of me, and i am afraid that she will just go even further. What is wrong with me? I am a straight woman, I love men, simple! I am straight and I am completely 100 percent straight. I have never been attracted to a woman sexually. I am STRICTLY hetero. Even the thought of eating out a vagina makes me gag. I've never had any desire to do anything sexual with a female.
I can't just quit this job. This is a smallish town. There aren’t many job opportunities. I fear I won’t be able to find work. I really need this salary. My husband is unemployed since his company declared bankruptcy in December 2017. We lost our home. The bank foreclosed on our house. All the while, he has done our finances and never really was open to my having access to them. I think it was a control issue at first and later he didn't want me to know. That is why we had to move here in his hometown.
I am like totally paralyzed while she is touching me and groping me.Mouth is open but no words come out of it.I am so confused about what is happening to me!Whether or not it is my fault or not!I feel so ashamed.When she places her hands on me i can't move my hands and legs and i can't speak.She has power over me.I'm just lost. Should I even be upset?I'm SO embarrassed.I can't relax and its constantly on my mind, I can't sleep.It is very frustrating.I can't report her to HR because I don’t think I can discuss this verbally with anyone.It was really hard for me to write this.I am a 42year old woman.I feel embarrassed and ashamed of myself.I'm confused and my mind doesn't stop. I really worry that I'm going to lose myself completely!